First of all I want to apologize to anyone that followed up on my Small Crazy Idea. Rest assured it's not that I'm not working on it, but what I was working on currently I couldn't photograph because my Phone was stolen at the time. I got it replaced and while I've already been able to make the thing before, I will eventually recreate the Blue CIEIR potion for all to see.

That being said I will tell you exactly how that experiment went.

For starters, I was looking for a lot of different teas and other things to help improve mental health, specifically anything blue.

That was when I discovered This. Butterfly Pea Flower Tea. Not only does it come in blue, but it also helps with many physical problems pertaining to mental health, but it wasn't enough. I needed to get Lavender and Mint as well. Basically make an ultimate natural relaxant, but that was when I found this at my local Healthy Planet. Made things easier for me because rather than buy a bunch of different bags of god knows what. And of course I used blue electrolyte mix. What's that you said? "You didn't say Gatorade."? Well ya, Tariff shit aside I was having trouble finding the usual Gatorade mixes so I switched to Bio-Steel. Short end of it, is it's sugar free, but it's still sweet and has what I need and more for that aspect of the drinks.

Then trying each one individually I decided to mix all three.

For context, I noticed that each potion I made coincided with the Chakra System. My first green one, being the Heart Chakra. The Red one being the Root Chakra and my Blue one being the Throat Chakra. I figured the next step would be to do one more primary colour. (Before you say it, there have been in some places where it's Red Blue and Yellow and Red Blue and Green. The pixel system being the example of the latter.) Anywho, I'm doing yellow next. Now by chance I was able to get some lemon ginger tea bags. I was looking for teas that would somehow increase physical willpower which in turn would increase mental, emotional and spiritual willpower and I found the answer. However it's not enough. I need to add Turmeric too for it's own benefits and find a lemon based Yellow Electrolyte powder to keep things yellow and at the same time for another reason. I figured if people want to get their willpower back, they'll have to drink something so hard to drink it would take willpower to drink it. So basically where the others are sweet, this one is gonna be really sour. Maybe not as sour as this:

But pretty fucking sour.

Now after trying out the lemon ginger on top of restoring my willpower and increasing it, it allowed me to further understand what willpower is and why we need it. For further context:

When they get to the Solar Plexus Chakra they specifically say that it's Governed by Willpower, but is blocked by Shame. Specifically the biggest disappointments in themselves. In the case of Aang, during the first time he started to get the hang of firebending, he accidentally hurt Katara with a stray flame. This made him so ashamed of himself, that he could never firebend again. The Guru in turn tells him "You will never find balance if you deny this part of your life. You are the Avatar. Therefore you are a firebender." I kinda got it the first time I heard this, but after drinking the Lemon Ginger Tea, somehow I was able to get it more. Aang's Chakra was blocked because of not only his denial of being a firebender, but the stigma he himself witnessed in regards to being a firebender. He tried to separate himself from it and as a result it threw his life out of balance.

In my case, part of the reason why I no longer fought on top of every thing else, including but not limited to the legal repercussions, it was the fact that while I was good at it, when I got down to it, I hurt people.

I had the will to fight, but the shame it comes with winning.

As a result, I didn't want to even consider calling myself a fighter even if others told me otherwise. I denied that part of myself and as a result, I was bad at it.

Despite the pain, guilt and shame of it, I cannot deny it any further. I am a fighter, people getting hurt is but a mere consequence and God help anyone that pisses me off and believe me I have a list.

Much of the reasons others are beside themselves is because deep down they are in denial of who they are %100. Could be anything minor or major from religious beliefs and the stigma that came with it to being good at breaking things and the stigma that comes with how much damage is wrought.

As a result of this revelation I discovered 4 core things that keep people alive. They are very simple, but at the same time very difficult.

1. Body: You need to keep your body healthy. One way or another.
2. Mind: Body can't live without the mind. Improve that one way or another.
3. Heart: Nothing lives without that it's the source of energy and power. Work on that one way or another.
4. Will: The first three cannot and will not live without this one. Work on that especially.

Willpower is what drives our mind, bodies, hearts and even our very souls. My potion while incredible is only one way to do it. My way specifically, but it doesn't have to be everybody's way. It merely was designed to simplify what I thought were complicated problems at the time. Everyone has their own ways of doing it, whether it's a diet or a lifestyle choice in general. The trick is to do the following thing:

FIND YOUR WAY!!

Take care. Stay safe and Stay Tuned For More.