First I want to give a shout out to @Diamondmanpixel76. This person needs more than just fans and followers, he needs all the love and support you can give him. I won't go into detail about it, as that's his business, but trust me, help the kid if you can. And to those even among my fans, that have spread hate this person's way, I suggest you block and unfollow me right now. YOU THINK I'M JOKING!!? In the words of Emma Watson.

Anywho. I wish I could say my months were sunshine's and rainbows, but they weren't. Got beat up, robbed and just recently lost not one but 3 relatives in my life in this past month alone. 2 dead and 1 who may as well be after what they did to the two. However the days weren't all that bad. Was able to in the last months of 2024, forge new friendships with old ones and help as many people in my personal life as I can even if it costs me greatly. As a result as messed up as it sounds. Even with all the shit that has happened to me recently, I never felt more alive than ever. I can't tell if maybe I have finally gone 100% insane in denial or if the experiences awakened something in me. Either way, somehow I've ended up smiling more, laughing more and having way more fun than I ever had in years. It's almost like life both it's merits and hardships brought out a side of me I never thought still existed. Whatever the case may be, it compels me to do two things:

1. Get things off my chest and not let them hinder me any more.
2. Give the best advice I could ever give.

Let's start with the first. Forgive if it sounds oversharing:

1. I was an accident on conception. Although my parents loved me, I felt that their love was more out of obligation than actual love. As a result I couldn't tell the difference between the two until recently. Not only that, but it often always seemed like the universe hated me for existing when by all intents and purposes I shouldn't and has been trying to "correct" that mistake either. Yet all it can do is just hurt me and kill my loved ones when it should have been aiming for me. Anyone who's ever been accidents, I was wondering if you could relate.
2. I was always on the divide on whether or not I should care what others think. There are times when I shouldn't but at the same time I felt bad that certain people thought, or at least I assumed they thought of me in certain ways in the negative and rather than convince them otherwise, I doubled down on being an asshole, just to give them the satisfaction of being right. However part of what made me not care, was that the people saying this shit to me were assholes and the only people who's opinions should matter to me are the people I love rather than the people I hate. However what always hurt or hindered me was when some people I loved started saying similar if not the same things that the people I hate say and it hurt me more that the people I loved were in my mind "Agreeing with the enemy." even if that wasn't the case.
3. One of the reasons why I never stop helping people, even though I have my limits, is because it was one of the few things in my adult life that made me happy. The satisfaction that I was able to, even in small doses, either make someone's day or support them in what they needed. So when certain people in my life took advantage of that kindness and either tried to take more from me or hurt me one way or another, it made me both depressed and enraged because they wasted my help on not a way to move forward, but to stay where they were in life and take many people with them down. Yet despite that, when all others could have called it quits, I still continue to help people. Even something as small as hanging out with lonely souls when no one else would, letting them know that they were not alone.
4. My main struggle in life was where I fit in with the changing world. Even as a kid growing up in the 90s, I never felt like I fit in with anyone. And I sure as hell don't fit in with this modern world, because according to it, everything I known and liked is offensive. However, as a result of some therapy and a much needed break from the digital world, I was able to little by little see where I fit. But it's a long way to go.

That's just 4 of many things, I had problems in my life. However despite that I am gonna offer you advice based on my experiences the past 2 years. I'll sum them up as simple as possible.

1. Making friends and gaining loved ones is easier than you think. It's literally down to a simple formula of mutual understanding and being in a position to use your talents and skills to help them out and they in turn, use their own talents and skills to help you out. For example even in the most practical sense. Let's just say hypothetically for any reason whatsoever you wanted to borrow money from said friends and loved ones. First, you gotta be honest about how much you need and what it's for, as well as when and how you can pay them back. Worst you get is "No." Second, actually do the thing you asked the money for and don't fuck said friend or loved one over or ask for more, unless it really wasn't enough and even then do not borrow what you can't afford to pay back. Keep that going for a while and in the most practical sense you got a friend and loved one for life. Do more for each other than just the practical things and you have best friends. Keep being there for each other in general and either you, they or both, would go so far as die or kill for each other. It's extreme, but if you gotten a friend like that, you do not want to lose that. Just ask Billy The Kid. Every friend he's made especially the one's that saved his life, became his friend for life. And that guy was a badass outlaw. That being said, despite what you can do for them, that's not the lesson. The best people in your life appreciate you for who you are, rather than merely what you can give them.
2. Life will only get harder for you, if you keep forgetting what happened the year before. For context, I was able to help a relative of mine, stay on the path of sobriety and improving his life, by at the very least being there for him for his first year into it. This gave me time to note all the struggles this person goes through in said year, both in the practical sense, the emotional sense, the physical sense and even the spiritual sense. Because so many things happened in that year that became predictable for him, this year became almost a piece of cake for him, because he was at the very least one or two steps ahead of it, learning from last year. Focus on everything that went right in that last year and everything that went wrong. Correct what you can and just wait for the rest either way because the solution may not come right away and may take time depending on what it is and how dire it is. In my case, because I kept trying to bury the worst of my years in the past, I forgot a lot of life lessons I learned from them, until now.
3. Sometimes if it's someone you know, love and trust, it's often the exception to the rule of not caring what others think. In my case I have relatives and friends who are way older and have had more experience in life than I could ever hope to achieve even in my 30s. So odds are what they say even if it's just words of warning, 50/50 that they could be onto something and that I'm just too stubborn or prideful to listen sometimes. Something I've been trying to curb ever since.

And that's just three. I could go on, but there's more to this article.

In terms of my status here, I am still around. Just not doing as much content as I used to.

In terms of my life, it's still a roller coaster, but I'm starting to take over the amusement park it's on.

In terms of the world's woes. Just to name a few. Fuck Trump, Fuck Trudeau, Fuck Ford and Fuck Putin. That's all I can say about that, because others have already said it one way or another.

In terms of any enemies I made here or anywhere for that, they no longer exist to me.

In terms of many friends and fans, I still love you all very much and I sure as hell don't want anything bad happening to you. So fucking talk about it if you can to me on the DMs.

And in terms of life in general, it sucks, but it could be worse.

In conclusion. Like a Phoenix, I got burned, but I risen from the ashes. And will continue to do so until someone or something decides to end me for good.

But until that day happens, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

As most of you know I have certain beliefs. Mostly Wiccan, Native and some Christianity as my core. However my mind is open to the possibility that our origins could either be a freak accident by science or an alien race responsible.

However yesterday a strange thought occurred to me regarding the latter.

On a whim I decided to my knowledge to write down the most well known interpretations of Extra Terrestrial life portrayed in both fictional and non-fiction medias. By that I mean stuff in both that have had unique interpretations.

Said interpretations include but not limit to:

Invaders

Saviors

Scientists

Spiritualists

Deities

Demons

Politicians

And so on....

However the only depiction of Alien life that was limited to fiction only are the following two:

Superheroes/Supervillains Those of Alien or partial alien origins with unique gifts that could make or break the world.

Storytellers. Aliens whom are their equivalent to authors, movie makers and so on, but with a twist. They have the power and technology to bring their stories to life and the punchline is, we are the fictional characters in them.

Storytellers resonated with me the most based on the following. It started when I first watched South Park. Season 7 Episode 1. Entitled "Cancelled" in which in a deliberate repeat of the pilot episode, the titular South Park Boys Discover that Earth is really a reality show created by aliens in which different species of different planets are put together to see how they get along and the conflicts that arise, including but not limited to World Wars were nothing more than their sick amusement to gain ratings:

But funny enough, that just merely tipped me to the idea that among most well known interpretations, that if there are aliens out there, much of our misery is for their amusement.

But then I dug a little deeper. The Twilight Zone Season 1 Episode 25 "People Are Alike All Over". About two astronauts that land on Mars with one being optimistic that they may meet friendly life. Believing "People are alike all over." Let's just say he couldn't be more right. The optimistic astronaut dies, but the more cynical one is greeted by martians whom not only look human, taking the phrase literal; but also seemingly friendly like his friend suggests. They even take him to a nice home catered to his Earthly needs:

Said home turns out to be a Martian Zoo, with him as the exhibit. The martians looking at him and gawking at him as one would do the same to an animal at a zoo. Which made the optimistic saying "People are alike all over." Into a hard core cynical truth. That why should we be treated differently than the way we treat other species? As far as the aliens are concerned, we are the uncontrollable animals that either must be caged, beat to submission or put down.

Now this resonated with me because if there were any sign of Alien life, they'd be just like us with subtle differences such as location, environment and whether or not they're more advanced than us.

However in terms of personality aliens much like us, have similar personality traits, ranging from Spiritualism to their base desires. And considering that the multiverse theory implies that there are infinite versions of us, there are probably alien counterparts to you and me.

Which leads me to this weird thought. Now anyone that knows me knows my obsession with movies and tv shows. However while I do blur the line of fantasy and reality, I don't have the power to bring a lot of my visions to life....yet.

However, there is a possibility of an alien that is just as messed up in their head as I am. That not only is just as obsessed, but has the power to bring their love of fictional mediums to life. Ranging from small stuff like causing strange unexplainable things to appear to literally manipulating events causing humans to go into drama situations. I always wondered why a lot of the bad stuff that happened between us humans was called Drama. Now I know.

Now what I am about type is where I do insist you take with a grain of salt, but read it anyway because for all I know, you guys have your own alien yous messing with your life:

To any alien life possibly monitoring the whole net let alone this little slice called Newgrounds. I know who you are, I know what you're doing. Stop fucking interfering with our lives for the sake of your sick entertainment. The show is over. You are cancelled. You're obviously worse than Hitler, because for all I know you could have invented him during your sweeps week. The content you're producing has declined in quality and only the lowest denominator of your species is watching. You want entertainment based on our expense. Do what we do, interpretations based on your works. Movies, TV Shows, Things that involve fiction instead of this fucked up warped reality show clone, that I'm pretty sure your alien friends made before you. So you're not unique. But I ramble on. Long story short either help this planet, destroy it or fuck off. I don't care anymore. You've messed with my life and the lives of those around me and if I have to build a ship myself to go all the way to your studio to kick the ever loving crap out of you until you stop and show you exactly how what you've done was hurt us, I will.

To anyone that managed to make it past this rant and hopefully what I said did not blow this planet up, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Welcome to 2025. Over the past year I've noticed a lot of ups and downs. The first months of first quarter seem idealistic and optimistic, the second months of the second quarter have challenges, but have otherwise been positive. The third Quarter becomes more challenging and the last quarter is where often things go to Hell one way or another. This has literally happened with pin point accuracy to me, my entire life. At first I thought I was simply unlucky, but then I realized. I'm caught in what is known as a time loop. For context, unlike what you see in Doctor Strange:

It's not literally reliving the same moment forever, but rather the spirit of the moment. That no matter what, no matter how it happens, bad shit will always happen to me before the end of the new year. It's a fixed point in time that I will eventually face around next winter. Or so I thought. It wasn't until I started doing things differently. Even in the most minor sense, that I realized it wasn't a fixed point, but a loop I needed to break in order to move forward.

To break it, is surprisingly easy. Imagine every routine you've done daily in the past 365 days. Even something as big or small as whom you spend the holidays, affects the future in ways you can't imagine. However there are things out there that try to keep you in the loop. Things that invoke temptations and the appeal to your comfort zone. The hardest part about breaking this loop, is that we are so used to these routines as the norm that we fear consequences breaking them. Hell I'm autistic, changing my routine is a literal death sentence to me even if change is supposed to be good. Yet even I try to break my usual routines to make life interesting. Little did I know, the more I broke them, the more things seemed to improve in my life rather than make me sink lower or keep me in a dull boring setting.

So my new year's advice to you is, break the loop. Do things you normally wouldn't do outside your comfort zone and break out of toxic cycles. It could not only save your life, but change your world for the better.

Until then, good luck, stay safe, stay tuned for more and have a happy and healthy New Year.

Took a long time but @V-Revolticon finally posted his video:

I am currently watching it as I post this, but I am so happy. Not just because it seems like a good video to see, but also because the man completed a promise I had no doubt he could keep. For context, V sent me messages asking if he can use my music for his video. The songs featured are as follows:

V, I thank you. It didn't matter how long it took, you reached out to me and other artists for song requests. I just hope my contribution would help.

As for the rest of you, check out the video, like, subscribe all that Jazz. Check out the other artists behind the other songs on there too, they deserve as much recognition.

Until then, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

So I was listening to Q107 Yesterday and the DJ told of a story about a cave in Africa that depicts the oldest of civilizations. Neanderthals, Cavemen, whatever you call it, something many anthropologists have debated on and on again, but what really took me by surprise was that on top of being one of the oldest civilizations, this civilization is one of the oldest narcotic users in the world. Now contrary to popular belief despite what many stoners say, Marijuana was not the worlds first use of narcotics even though it's been around for thousands of year. There is another an older plant that if this turns out to be true than no wonder the world is fucked up. I am talking about Ephedra.

This plant has been around for over 10 000 years, maybe more and it's the precursor to alkaloids, ephedrine and pseudoephedrine. In plain English our ancestors were taking the key ingredient to Crystal Meth. Way before Breaking Bad popularized it and especially way before the Nazis used it for part of their experiments.

To put it plainly for all the talk about the dangers of narcotics, we are literally millennia descended from the world's first Meth Heads. And much like how Crack effects babies in the womb of an addict, I believe this may have been one of the keys that changed us physically, mentally, emotionally and even spiritually.

To me, it just explains to god damn much about my view of the world, but to you guys, what do you think? Would it explain a lot based on what you see around you?

First of all this was something I'm still reading about, because it did open a doorway for me and may open similar to anyone else. Second of all, what I am about to tell you is not meant to question one's beliefs, but if it happens I apologize. If anything it provides insight to where certain beliefs come from. So without further adieu:

For context, while I do talk about religion, Astrology and boast my Wiccan and Native beliefs until I am blue in the mouth, there is something I must convey to you. Whether I believe in it or not, I am not always right. Even if I believe in some things, there will always be things that will contradict them, but I often at best try to find a compromise. However what I read so far, this specific book, while not made me question my own beliefs, but it did offer a 3D insight to where my beliefs come from. Ladies and gentleman I present to you, Chariots of the Gods? A book published in 1968, written by Erich Von Daniken. Whom theorized that a lot of things in relation to all the world's religions equated to, or was directly influenced by Extraterrestrial life. Now despite my own combo beliefs of Wiccan, Native and Some Christianity, the things I read in this book, made too much sense for me one way or the other. Now what I am talking about is not meant to offend or at the very least make people question their faiths, but to summarize it, this person believes that all the Gods our respective cultures witnessed over the millions of years we been on this planet, may have been an alien influence one way or another. In my case I was always in the divide between Science and Magic. I understood the magic aspect to some extent, but the science was way more complex and complicated until now. In theory, if all the Gods and Goddesses and other beings like Angels are of alien influence, chances are a huge fraction of human population could be part alien, based on what you believe what happened way back when.

Now this is something I don't expect you to believe right off the bat, but I do recommend you read it, even if you don't believe a word of it. It blew my mind. It may do the same for yours.

Until then, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

First of all once again. Major shoutout to @Mugsyman303 for requesting me to do music for his game: Meteor Madness

Second of all regarding the title of this article.

Over the year I've researched Astrology and Numerology more thoroughly I started to notice a few things, including but not limited to recurring numbers called Angel Numbers. Despite the name, the term is not rooted in just Christianity, but rather a translation of the numbers we see every day one way or another that resonate with our lives based on our own views and belief system.

Now the main site I looked into for this is Astrology.com. I mostly got interested because it was ran by a famous Californian psychic/witch named Renee Watt, who's horoscopes were so scarily accurate and lead me to this site, that I had to explore more on it including their view of said Angel Numbers. Once I started noticing them more I began to sequence the numbers like so:

000 012 013 014 015 016 017 018 019 020

111 123 135 024 025 610 170 180 190 200

222 234 357 246 468 106 701 801 901 002

333 345 579 468 680 061 071 108 109 020

444 456 791 680 802 160 710 081 091 200

555 567 975 802 680 601 107 810 910 020

666 678 753 642 468 016 070 108 109 002

777 789 531 420 246 160 701 081 091 020

888 890 319 208 024 601 017 810 910 200

999 901 197 086 864 016 170 108 109 002

999 987 975 864 642 160 701 081 091 020

888 876 753 642 420 601 017 810 910 200

777 765 531 420 208 016 170 108 019 002

666 654 319 208 086 160 701 081 190 020

555 543 197 086 864 601 017 810 901 200

444 432 135 246 642 016 701 108 019 002

333 321 357 468 420 160 017 081 190 020

222 210 579 680 208 601 170 810 901 200

111 109 791 802 086 016 701 108 019 002

000 098 579 642 864 160 017 081 190 020 

Now how you interpret one or God forbid all these numbers in the sequence, is your own guess but this site helps understand it more on how to apply to your own life. That's the main secret of it. You might have seen these numbers one way or another, but how you view them in your life is up to you.

However, even with my own beliefs in magic, psychics and astrology, I didn't think just knowing these numbers and understanding them were enough. That as fantastic as it sounds even in the realms of that, there has got to be a logical explanation to all this stuff.

It wasn't until I realized that ontop of using famous psychics and witches, as well as other walks of life that offer their spin on Astrology, this site also uses AI based tech to better streamline and make it more understandable to even the most disbelieving of people. And that was no joke, there have been some people I knew that were and still are agnostic and atheistic and even they couldn't argue what the horoscopes said about them one respect or another.

But even then I didn't think of it as enough. So I did two things. For starters, I translated the numbers into Binary Code so any programmers now or years from now could interpret it into the tech like so:

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But I also used the numbers I listed and put them in a sequence calculator to see what their value was and the result was one simple number value:

0th Value

That's right. Now at first I thought it meant that all my research lead to nothing, but in a way it both did and didn't.

In both Religion and Science the one constant was always the numbers. In religion 0 meant the Beginning, the Divine and The End, with each religious beliefs having their own interpretation of what that meant. In Science it was the starter of the ground work of everything they set out to achieve as well as trying to find ways to go above and below that number. From Temperatures to coordinates.

Even in the most mundane aspects of life 0 has been a constant in both positive and negative. Such as bank accounts. a 0 in account means your broke if it's the first digit, cents notwithstanding. Whereas from $10, $100, $1000 or god forbid 1 Million Dollars, the more zeroes in the end digit the better your financial situation is as long as it's not -$10 - -$1 000 000.

But essentially 0 represents both everything, nothing, beginnings, ends and above all else a wholeness in each and every one of ourselves we either achieved, have yet to achieve or both. Most people think they should go from Zero to Hero. I believe Zero is the true Hero of this story.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Throughout the 70s to the now, boatloads of generations have been familiar with the following sounds. Those same generations were wowed by the following voices. That was James Earl Jones. One of the most influential actors that stood the test of time in the history of film, television in animation. While Jones had many bit parts, he first debut in Doctor Strangelove as Lieutenant Lothar Zogg a B-52 Bombadier under the command of Major Kong played by Slim Pickens. And while many know the iconic scene that Pickens has done Riding the Bomb:

Jones delivered the set up to this iconic punchline of a scene.

However it wasn't until a certain role in the 70s that got him a claim to fame. An epic movie that made us question everything about ourselves. I am talking about....The Exorcist II The Heretic:

Just kidding....kinda. For you see while Jones was dressing up in Locust attire and delivering an astounding hammy performance in which was a breath of fresh air compared to the rest of that garbage movie, he took a side job as a voice actor. Preparing for a role no one expected to succeed because no one thought said movie would succeed, I am talking about of course. Star Wars:

His role? Darth fucking Vader.

While the voice was very iconic it did gain some controversy as soon as the movie began. For example, the suit actor David Prowse had no idea he was gonna be dubbed over and gave what he thought was his all in that performance:

Needless to say Prowse was pissed off and it was a miracle Lucas paid him to stay in the next two movies before Hayden Christensen took over as suit actor.

But it was that iconic voice that was the missing piece of the puzzle Lucas tried to create in his glorified Flash Gordon Knockoff.

There was even more controversy as Jones was uncredited for the role until the first batch of special editions.

Once Star Wars became an astounding success, the world was Jones' Oyster. Not just for himself, but for a certain iconic action star whom back then was just an unknown bodybuilder:

For his role as Thulsa Doom being the perfect foil for Arnold's Conan the Barbarian, not only added another great role to Jones' roster, but kickstarted the career of Arnold we knew and loved.

Of course action movies weren't his only forte. He has known to do Comedies:

Coming of Age movies:

But if you were like me and were raised in the 90s, you know exactly how you caught his voice:

Good old Mufasa. A stern but wise king. To bad his brother was a total prick:

With me it was both Star Wars and Lion King that got me started, but his unique contributions to the world of media in general, have gotten me to stay. My only regret is not meeting this guy in person, but I did hope it'd be something similar to this:

When Peter Cushing passed, we lost an Iconic Hammer Horror Icon. Much like with Christopher Lee after. When Alec Guiness passed, I was sad that Star Wars was all they knew him from. When Carrie Fisher passed, everyone lost a boss, but heaven gained a princess. When Kenny Baker died, R2D2 just didn't look the same to me anymore and I don't give a fuck what people say, no one can replace Peter Mayhew as Chewbacca. However, while these were iconic roles, made by such iconic people, I feel that Star Wars truly died, now that James has joined them. Billy Dee Williams, Anthony Daniels, Mark Hamill and Harrison Ford (to his reluctance), are all that's left of the old cast now. All I can stay is, stay happy and healthy for as long as you can.

RIP James Earle Jones, you were everyone's father, in the circle of life. May the force be with you.

Ok. While I do boast that my beliefs are Wicca, Native and some Christianity and like most raised around that third belief, read their stories. From Genesis to Revelation. However, unlike some people who often look at these chapters and trust in blind faith in them. I often thought there was some kind of message that was overlooked. However it seemed like I was not the only one:

This was from a youtube Channel that analyzes well known bible stories. With this one being The Book of Job. Even non-Christians know the story. The short end of it, God makes a bet with the Devil to Test Job's faith in him. By allowing Satan to take away everything the man had from his home, to his entire family, to even his health. While he did confront God, God did eventually give him his health and family back.

Now when I first heard the story, I was 100% on Job's side. Even with my faith I always wondered why God or whatever is out there would allow guys like him to suffer, but while the wicked reign supreme one way or another. From corrupt Roman senates, to the Bullshit Circus we see on our respective governments. Pitting us against each other using arguments so ancient at this point that I'm literally willing to come up with a new prejudice slur so that people can put aside the -isms and -phobes of old and focus on something new. To show I'm serious, ChromoPollutant (Dirty DNA. The Sci-fi equivalent to a Mudblood.) . You guys already got Race, Sex, Orientation and Religion covered, why not start harping on one's DNA while you're at it.

However, once I gotten a thorough look at the story with this Youtuber's help, I realized that Job, the poster child for God picking on people, is one of the biggest self-righteous assholes in the history of the bible.

A lot of it explains in contrast to the rest of the bible, that simply doing God's work, especially if you think it does, does not earn you favour into Heaven and that to truly go there, one has to walk with and talk to God rather than walk about and talk about him to others. And while Job did have faith in God that was unshaken until he was at his breaking point, his faith was limited to his wants and needs. That moralism crap does not fly with me. I don't do good deeds, because I think it will buy me into Heaven or get the things I want and need. I do it, because it's the right thing to do and that anyone that tells you, helping people that need it is a waste of time, they deserve to go to Hell.

The only reason why Job got this crap thrown at him, was because God caught onto what he was doing and used the Devil bet to punish him. And judging by the way he treated others even when he praised God, it was well deserving. His wife and son were dying begging him to fail the bet so that they could all at least die a painless death and he sneered at them saying that great evil comes with the territory of great good. So needless to say, regardless of how my life is going, I'm never gonna compare myself to that asshole again. I don't rely on faith for selfish needs. I often prayed for others more than I pray for myself. I often sacrificed little to a lot of things, if it meant helping someone I deem more important to the world to get ahead in life. Job however did everything he thought would buy his way into Heaven and when he finally decided to talk to God instead of talking about God, that's when he got his stuff back.

What surfaced as a lesson on faith, really was a "Don't bite the hand that feeds you." Moral the whole time. I'm pretty sure if one looked at the other stories, they'd actually be a lot different than what was initially interpreted. For all I know the Binding of Isaac may have just been interpreted better in Year One than the actual bible:

Stories like this often have their own interpretations, but sometimes one can't abide by the surface words alone. Some people find either deeper meanings or the real Aesop the author was trying to convey.

In my case, I believe there is more to one side in every religious story. I stand up for Adam and Eve, just as much as I stand up for God's accomplishments. I respect Jesus, but sometimes his dad is an asshole to me. Noah was a drunk and his main focus was trying to save his family and as many animals as he could fit on that big ass boat. I get that God was testing to see how far Abraham would go to obey his words, but at the same time I feel bad for that kid. Even if he believes like his father did, he may not want to after that shit. Poor Isaac. David wanted to make the country a safer place. Abel should have known his brother would hate him so much that he'd kill him. I been through that crap myself. But they pale in comparison to Job. They based their stuff on faith that God would help them make this through alive and on land one day. It happened and they were praised since. Job on the other hand was doing what is known as moralistic lip service. Only saying and visually abiding by the rules. People fail to realize whether God exists or not, within the boundaries of this story, he is all seeing and all knowing. He knows what Job thinks and depending on the thought, he'll either cut him a break or show him who's boss.

In my case, I practically lost everything and it took me 12 years to put myself back together. One way or another, you seen how painful and how sometimes worth the process can be. It wasn't easy for me to draw the line between where I did right or wrong but I was able to sort that shit out. I know I'm a good person at heart, because I don't like to succumb to even the tiniest of evils. It's not something I do to buy my way to a paradise after death, it's something I try to learn to do better because I want to keep doing right better. But it does get easier once I know which problems I can and can't solve with and without faith. Faith in my abilities and faith that whatever's out there at least has my back long enough to succeed in my goals both selfish and selflessly. I have wants and needs of my own. My main goal is to find a quiet, cheap place to live, where I can socialize with a community, yet keep to myself. However there are a lot of other things I want to try. Like Skydiving or attending an ESport event. Things I wanted to do, but couldn't afford or have the time to do.

I'm sure you all had moments where you thought you had one over God or whatever you worshipped. Me was mainly just arguing with him based on the crap that has to happen for the greater good. I'd much rather the end of the world end on a high note, rather than the depressed state it's in.

However as long as we have music in our hearts, we'll always be immortalized for the days to come. These messages one way or another, are a code to history, but what they inspire, creates history.

Take care, stay safe, stay tuned for more and For the love of God, Stay in fucking school. It's the only way to a happier peaceful life.

First of all I assure you I'm ok. Had a rough month, but not as rough as things usually would go. If anything I've started to improve and unplugging for a while has been a big help.

Second I'd like to give a big Shout Out to @Mugsyman303 for requesting me to do music for his upcoming game. It will be a while before I come up with something that I hope can bring your vision to life, but I will not waste this opportunity. Once I saw what you were advertising though it made a lot of sense what you were looking for, so I'll do my best.

Third, regarding the title of this article. Over the years parents have often told their kids one way or another that they were special. In my adult life I thought it was just nothing but positive affirmation based bullshit. However, over the years I've often heard others say similar phrases including but not limited to Fred Rogers:

I often wondered that even if it is bullshit, why parents would truly say it other than simple words of encouragement. Even my family fought tooth and nail to keep my head above water. It wasn't easy for me and I never made it easy for them and while it took literally almost a lifetime to figure it out as I grow up, because I never stopped asking "Why?"

However think on this for a second. Why do parents try to encourage you even to the point where they have to downplay themselves to do it? Because much like us, they been through similar shit time gaps aside and they want us to lead a better example than they could ever. They try to teach us their way of it, but if we can do fine more on our own, they can only do what they can to support you even if it simply involves the occasional dinner. Same with friends and relatives. They sometimes act like our best friends one minute and stern parents the next much to our annoyances. But as long as their hearts are in the right place, then simply listening to them is the way to go if you're stuck on something. I myself often had trouble asking for help because I wanted people to help me in a way that didn't hinder their lives.

It's why my music is so cheap on bandcamp, I wasn't gonna ask what people couldn't afford to lose. But alas, everyone is either broke or too selfish or just plain uninterested to do anything depending on the person. However that doesn't make me give up. If anything it makes me appreciate what I have and while I may not reach the highest level or gain more than 220 fans, I do appreciate what I got and I want to try my hardest to give back one way or another.

But I ramble on. Point being is that us kids from our childhoods to our adulthoods, one way or another are our parents secret weapons. The only thing is and even I was no exception, not a lot of us know it, until we see the signs. In my case, in my personal life I realized how small my own world was as no matter where I went I somehow managed to meet people related to my life one way or another or at the very least knew a mutual friend or a relative back in the day.

But you're probably wondering how is that possible. Simple, we are us and they are them. We struggle and go through life to find our own purpose as well as help those in our respective circles, we be ourselves no matter what and as a result we have the power to shape the world as we see fit. To all the kids out on this site still growing up, those that have at the very least a stable enough family life. Case in point, much like a certain protagonist in two famous South Park Videogames, I have the uncanny ability to somehow make friends with everyone. Even if it's people I despise I somehow manage to find some common ground with them. If their negatives outweighed their positives, I'd write them out, violently if it came down to it. If their positives outweighed their negatives, they were worth sticking to. Anyone else with that ability could easily raise an army if they were so inclined, but I used it mostly because I wanted to see if the Good in humanity existed even in a fucked up world like this. However, once I realized that potential, life was a lot easy for me. For you guys it's simple, find what you're good at, use it to both help yourself and help others and see where life goes from there. I'm still on my own journey, so I may learn more new things as I go on, but I never move forward without leaving breadcrumbs for those to follow. This is one of them.

That said, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.