First of all once again. Major shoutout to @Mugsyman303 for requesting me to do music for his game: Meteor Madness

Second of all regarding the title of this article.

Over the year I've researched Astrology and Numerology more thoroughly I started to notice a few things, including but not limited to recurring numbers called Angel Numbers. Despite the name, the term is not rooted in just Christianity, but rather a translation of the numbers we see every day one way or another that resonate with our lives based on our own views and belief system.

Now the main site I looked into for this is Astrology.com. I mostly got interested because it was ran by a famous Californian psychic/witch named Renee Watt, who's horoscopes were so scarily accurate and lead me to this site, that I had to explore more on it including their view of said Angel Numbers. Once I started noticing them more I began to sequence the numbers like so:

000 012 013 014 015 016 017 018 019 020

111 123 135 024 025 610 170 180 190 200

222 234 357 246 468 106 701 801 901 002

333 345 579 468 680 061 071 108 109 020

444 456 791 680 802 160 710 081 091 200

555 567 975 802 680 601 107 810 910 020

666 678 753 642 468 016 070 108 109 002

777 789 531 420 246 160 701 081 091 020

888 890 319 208 024 601 017 810 910 200

999 901 197 086 864 016 170 108 109 002

999 987 975 864 642 160 701 081 091 020

888 876 753 642 420 601 017 810 910 200

777 765 531 420 208 016 170 108 019 002

666 654 319 208 086 160 701 081 190 020

555 543 197 086 864 601 017 810 901 200

444 432 135 246 642 016 701 108 019 002

333 321 357 468 420 160 017 081 190 020

222 210 579 680 208 601 170 810 901 200

111 109 791 802 086 016 701 108 019 002

000 098 579 642 864 160 017 081 190 020 

Now how you interpret one or God forbid all these numbers in the sequence, is your own guess but this site helps understand it more on how to apply to your own life. That's the main secret of it. You might have seen these numbers one way or another, but how you view them in your life is up to you.

However, even with my own beliefs in magic, psychics and astrology, I didn't think just knowing these numbers and understanding them were enough. That as fantastic as it sounds even in the realms of that, there has got to be a logical explanation to all this stuff.

It wasn't until I realized that ontop of using famous psychics and witches, as well as other walks of life that offer their spin on Astrology, this site also uses AI based tech to better streamline and make it more understandable to even the most disbelieving of people. And that was no joke, there have been some people I knew that were and still are agnostic and atheistic and even they couldn't argue what the horoscopes said about them one respect or another.

But even then I didn't think of it as enough. So I did two things. For starters, I translated the numbers into Binary Code so any programmers now or years from now could interpret it into the tech like so:

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But I also used the numbers I listed and put them in a sequence calculator to see what their value was and the result was one simple number value:

0th Value

That's right. Now at first I thought it meant that all my research lead to nothing, but in a way it both did and didn't.

In both Religion and Science the one constant was always the numbers. In religion 0 meant the Beginning, the Divine and The End, with each religious beliefs having their own interpretation of what that meant. In Science it was the starter of the ground work of everything they set out to achieve as well as trying to find ways to go above and below that number. From Temperatures to coordinates.

Even in the most mundane aspects of life 0 has been a constant in both positive and negative. Such as bank accounts. a 0 in account means your broke if it's the first digit, cents notwithstanding. Whereas from $10, $100, $1000 or god forbid 1 Million Dollars, the more zeroes in the end digit the better your financial situation is as long as it's not -$10 - -$1 000 000.

But essentially 0 represents both everything, nothing, beginnings, ends and above all else a wholeness in each and every one of ourselves we either achieved, have yet to achieve or both. Most people think they should go from Zero to Hero. I believe Zero is the true Hero of this story.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Throughout the 70s to the now, boatloads of generations have been familiar with the following sounds. Those same generations were wowed by the following voices. That was James Earl Jones. One of the most influential actors that stood the test of time in the history of film, television in animation. While Jones had many bit parts, he first debut in Doctor Strangelove as Lieutenant Lothar Zogg a B-52 Bombadier under the command of Major Kong played by Slim Pickens. And while many know the iconic scene that Pickens has done Riding the Bomb:

Jones delivered the set up to this iconic punchline of a scene.

However it wasn't until a certain role in the 70s that got him a claim to fame. An epic movie that made us question everything about ourselves. I am talking about....The Exorcist II The Heretic:

Just kidding....kinda. For you see while Jones was dressing up in Locust attire and delivering an astounding hammy performance in which was a breath of fresh air compared to the rest of that garbage movie, he took a side job as a voice actor. Preparing for a role no one expected to succeed because no one thought said movie would succeed, I am talking about of course. Star Wars:

His role? Darth fucking Vader.

While the voice was very iconic it did gain some controversy as soon as the movie began. For example, the suit actor David Prowse had no idea he was gonna be dubbed over and gave what he thought was his all in that performance:

Needless to say Prowse was pissed off and it was a miracle Lucas paid him to stay in the next two movies before Hayden Christensen took over as suit actor.

But it was that iconic voice that was the missing piece of the puzzle Lucas tried to create in his glorified Flash Gordon Knockoff.

There was even more controversy as Jones was uncredited for the role until the first batch of special editions.

Once Star Wars became an astounding success, the world was Jones' Oyster. Not just for himself, but for a certain iconic action star whom back then was just an unknown bodybuilder:

For his role as Thulsa Doom being the perfect foil for Arnold's Conan the Barbarian, not only added another great role to Jones' roster, but kickstarted the career of Arnold we knew and loved.

Of course action movies weren't his only forte. He has known to do Comedies:

Coming of Age movies:

But if you were like me and were raised in the 90s, you know exactly how you caught his voice:

Good old Mufasa. A stern but wise king. To bad his brother was a total prick:

With me it was both Star Wars and Lion King that got me started, but his unique contributions to the world of media in general, have gotten me to stay. My only regret is not meeting this guy in person, but I did hope it'd be something similar to this:

When Peter Cushing passed, we lost an Iconic Hammer Horror Icon. Much like with Christopher Lee after. When Alec Guiness passed, I was sad that Star Wars was all they knew him from. When Carrie Fisher passed, everyone lost a boss, but heaven gained a princess. When Kenny Baker died, R2D2 just didn't look the same to me anymore and I don't give a fuck what people say, no one can replace Peter Mayhew as Chewbacca. However, while these were iconic roles, made by such iconic people, I feel that Star Wars truly died, now that James has joined them. Billy Dee Williams, Anthony Daniels, Mark Hamill and Harrison Ford (to his reluctance), are all that's left of the old cast now. All I can stay is, stay happy and healthy for as long as you can.

RIP James Earle Jones, you were everyone's father, in the circle of life. May the force be with you.

Ok. While I do boast that my beliefs are Wicca, Native and some Christianity and like most raised around that third belief, read their stories. From Genesis to Revelation. However, unlike some people who often look at these chapters and trust in blind faith in them. I often thought there was some kind of message that was overlooked. However it seemed like I was not the only one:

This was from a youtube Channel that analyzes well known bible stories. With this one being The Book of Job. Even non-Christians know the story. The short end of it, God makes a bet with the Devil to Test Job's faith in him. By allowing Satan to take away everything the man had from his home, to his entire family, to even his health. While he did confront God, God did eventually give him his health and family back.

Now when I first heard the story, I was 100% on Job's side. Even with my faith I always wondered why God or whatever is out there would allow guys like him to suffer, but while the wicked reign supreme one way or another. From corrupt Roman senates, to the Bullshit Circus we see on our respective governments. Pitting us against each other using arguments so ancient at this point that I'm literally willing to come up with a new prejudice slur so that people can put aside the -isms and -phobes of old and focus on something new. To show I'm serious, ChromoPollutant (Dirty DNA. The Sci-fi equivalent to a Mudblood.) . You guys already got Race, Sex, Orientation and Religion covered, why not start harping on one's DNA while you're at it.

However, once I gotten a thorough look at the story with this Youtuber's help, I realized that Job, the poster child for God picking on people, is one of the biggest self-righteous assholes in the history of the bible.

A lot of it explains in contrast to the rest of the bible, that simply doing God's work, especially if you think it does, does not earn you favour into Heaven and that to truly go there, one has to walk with and talk to God rather than walk about and talk about him to others. And while Job did have faith in God that was unshaken until he was at his breaking point, his faith was limited to his wants and needs. That moralism crap does not fly with me. I don't do good deeds, because I think it will buy me into Heaven or get the things I want and need. I do it, because it's the right thing to do and that anyone that tells you, helping people that need it is a waste of time, they deserve to go to Hell.

The only reason why Job got this crap thrown at him, was because God caught onto what he was doing and used the Devil bet to punish him. And judging by the way he treated others even when he praised God, it was well deserving. His wife and son were dying begging him to fail the bet so that they could all at least die a painless death and he sneered at them saying that great evil comes with the territory of great good. So needless to say, regardless of how my life is going, I'm never gonna compare myself to that asshole again. I don't rely on faith for selfish needs. I often prayed for others more than I pray for myself. I often sacrificed little to a lot of things, if it meant helping someone I deem more important to the world to get ahead in life. Job however did everything he thought would buy his way into Heaven and when he finally decided to talk to God instead of talking about God, that's when he got his stuff back.

What surfaced as a lesson on faith, really was a "Don't bite the hand that feeds you." Moral the whole time. I'm pretty sure if one looked at the other stories, they'd actually be a lot different than what was initially interpreted. For all I know the Binding of Isaac may have just been interpreted better in Year One than the actual bible:

Stories like this often have their own interpretations, but sometimes one can't abide by the surface words alone. Some people find either deeper meanings or the real Aesop the author was trying to convey.

In my case, I believe there is more to one side in every religious story. I stand up for Adam and Eve, just as much as I stand up for God's accomplishments. I respect Jesus, but sometimes his dad is an asshole to me. Noah was a drunk and his main focus was trying to save his family and as many animals as he could fit on that big ass boat. I get that God was testing to see how far Abraham would go to obey his words, but at the same time I feel bad for that kid. Even if he believes like his father did, he may not want to after that shit. Poor Isaac. David wanted to make the country a safer place. Abel should have known his brother would hate him so much that he'd kill him. I been through that crap myself. But they pale in comparison to Job. They based their stuff on faith that God would help them make this through alive and on land one day. It happened and they were praised since. Job on the other hand was doing what is known as moralistic lip service. Only saying and visually abiding by the rules. People fail to realize whether God exists or not, within the boundaries of this story, he is all seeing and all knowing. He knows what Job thinks and depending on the thought, he'll either cut him a break or show him who's boss.

In my case, I practically lost everything and it took me 12 years to put myself back together. One way or another, you seen how painful and how sometimes worth the process can be. It wasn't easy for me to draw the line between where I did right or wrong but I was able to sort that shit out. I know I'm a good person at heart, because I don't like to succumb to even the tiniest of evils. It's not something I do to buy my way to a paradise after death, it's something I try to learn to do better because I want to keep doing right better. But it does get easier once I know which problems I can and can't solve with and without faith. Faith in my abilities and faith that whatever's out there at least has my back long enough to succeed in my goals both selfish and selflessly. I have wants and needs of my own. My main goal is to find a quiet, cheap place to live, where I can socialize with a community, yet keep to myself. However there are a lot of other things I want to try. Like Skydiving or attending an ESport event. Things I wanted to do, but couldn't afford or have the time to do.

I'm sure you all had moments where you thought you had one over God or whatever you worshipped. Me was mainly just arguing with him based on the crap that has to happen for the greater good. I'd much rather the end of the world end on a high note, rather than the depressed state it's in.

However as long as we have music in our hearts, we'll always be immortalized for the days to come. These messages one way or another, are a code to history, but what they inspire, creates history.

Take care, stay safe, stay tuned for more and For the love of God, Stay in fucking school. It's the only way to a happier peaceful life.

First of all I assure you I'm ok. Had a rough month, but not as rough as things usually would go. If anything I've started to improve and unplugging for a while has been a big help.

Second I'd like to give a big Shout Out to @Mugsyman303 for requesting me to do music for his upcoming game. It will be a while before I come up with something that I hope can bring your vision to life, but I will not waste this opportunity. Once I saw what you were advertising though it made a lot of sense what you were looking for, so I'll do my best.

Third, regarding the title of this article. Over the years parents have often told their kids one way or another that they were special. In my adult life I thought it was just nothing but positive affirmation based bullshit. However, over the years I've often heard others say similar phrases including but not limited to Fred Rogers:

I often wondered that even if it is bullshit, why parents would truly say it other than simple words of encouragement. Even my family fought tooth and nail to keep my head above water. It wasn't easy for me and I never made it easy for them and while it took literally almost a lifetime to figure it out as I grow up, because I never stopped asking "Why?"

However think on this for a second. Why do parents try to encourage you even to the point where they have to downplay themselves to do it? Because much like us, they been through similar shit time gaps aside and they want us to lead a better example than they could ever. They try to teach us their way of it, but if we can do fine more on our own, they can only do what they can to support you even if it simply involves the occasional dinner. Same with friends and relatives. They sometimes act like our best friends one minute and stern parents the next much to our annoyances. But as long as their hearts are in the right place, then simply listening to them is the way to go if you're stuck on something. I myself often had trouble asking for help because I wanted people to help me in a way that didn't hinder their lives.

It's why my music is so cheap on bandcamp, I wasn't gonna ask what people couldn't afford to lose. But alas, everyone is either broke or too selfish or just plain uninterested to do anything depending on the person. However that doesn't make me give up. If anything it makes me appreciate what I have and while I may not reach the highest level or gain more than 220 fans, I do appreciate what I got and I want to try my hardest to give back one way or another.

But I ramble on. Point being is that us kids from our childhoods to our adulthoods, one way or another are our parents secret weapons. The only thing is and even I was no exception, not a lot of us know it, until we see the signs. In my case, in my personal life I realized how small my own world was as no matter where I went I somehow managed to meet people related to my life one way or another or at the very least knew a mutual friend or a relative back in the day.

But you're probably wondering how is that possible. Simple, we are us and they are them. We struggle and go through life to find our own purpose as well as help those in our respective circles, we be ourselves no matter what and as a result we have the power to shape the world as we see fit. To all the kids out on this site still growing up, those that have at the very least a stable enough family life. Case in point, much like a certain protagonist in two famous South Park Videogames, I have the uncanny ability to somehow make friends with everyone. Even if it's people I despise I somehow manage to find some common ground with them. If their negatives outweighed their positives, I'd write them out, violently if it came down to it. If their positives outweighed their negatives, they were worth sticking to. Anyone else with that ability could easily raise an army if they were so inclined, but I used it mostly because I wanted to see if the Good in humanity existed even in a fucked up world like this. However, once I realized that potential, life was a lot easy for me. For you guys it's simple, find what you're good at, use it to both help yourself and help others and see where life goes from there. I'm still on my own journey, so I may learn more new things as I go on, but I never move forward without leaving breadcrumbs for those to follow. This is one of them.

That said, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

After months of research and now eventual execution, I am proud to announce that I not only made one, but two variations of my CIEIR Potion.

I come to realize that, basically my calling in life is to be some kind of potions master, because this is twice I managed to make a formula that I loved the result:

Of course I started with Distilled Water to make it more potent.

Then after working on the classic green:

I went to town on the next one:

Now the main ingredients for what I believe is gonna be my red drink are as followed as well as their traits:

1. Hibiscus Tea: Among most things it lowers LDL Cholesterol and is an Antibacterial properties so powerful it can inhibit E. Coli.
2. Fenugreek Seed Tea: Antiviral, hormonal balance and the relief of some period symptoms such as cramps.
3. orange ginger rooibus: For stomach problems and inflammation. I figured if I could try to find a way to at least relieve the pain of physical ailments and even injuries, it could speed up healing.

And to my astonishment, it turned out more red than I thought it would be. Of course they weren't the only ingredients:

I figured Aloe Vera worked well with my green formula I would be able to use it for my red.

And of course there was the gatorade mix:

At the time I was looking for the same Canister they had for blue, orange and Yellow, but I couldn't find it, so I settled for G Zero.

And as a result Voila:

Two health potions to add to my arsenal. And to be more on the nose regarding my love of Zelda I even put some in small bottles:

So ya, thanks to my research it's safe to say there is a way to make magic fucking potions. And if it becomes promising I'm making a blue one next. This is what I'm selling at CIEIR. The chance to bring something that is usually considered unreal, to be real. The music, the other things in my internet life, while good things, have lead me to this moment and I thank you for witnessing it every step of the way.

After I took these photos I sampled the green, red and both. They taste great and as I type this, they're working on my body in ways even I can't imagine. If this is leading me to where I think it's gonna lead me, then you can expect better miracles.

Until then, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Update August 7 12:55 AM, while I have no major illnesses to speak of I can say that the new formula not only works well by itself, but with my classic Green. I have a long way to go before I improve on my work, but when I get there, I'm sure it will blow many minds.

Over the years, I've always started to see things out of the ordinary one way or another through my own perspective of reality. For context I have a strange line between both fantasy and reality as well as religion and logic. In layman's terms, it means I believe in things most people don't and that shapes my view of what I believe to be reality. Now I know for the most part that what I see and what I hear that shapes my view of reality isn't often always what it truly is. Based on one's beliefs, political opinions or outright experiences in life not many others have, they see the story of life in general differently than most people. Some people view others as the good guy bad guy dynamic, but others try to peel the layers of said "Good Guy" and "Bad Guy" to see if there is more to it, than the standard labels.

Having said that, here's the mind fuck. Whether we think we're all right or all wrong, we are right. Doesn't make sense? Well here's the detail. I'll keep it short.

Let's just say you have a person, who is devoutly Christian, yet through faith alone or their own accountability or both, a lot of things seem to come to them. Other Christians would declare it's an act of God but those outside would either base it on their own beliefs or in the case of Atheists that the person is just so lucky, they may as well have a horseshoe up their ass. Either way somehow this person got exactly what they wanted, desired or needed. We may know some extent, but unless we watch said person 24/7, we could never know 100% what this person did to gain it. We have that same power.

What we believe in regardless if it clashes with other's believe in, shape our perspective and in turn, reality as a whole. It all depends on how much we believe in ourselves and how much we believe in those we care to believe in. Be it religion or downright faith in your fellow human being. Either way, that faith, topped with a positive mindset, eliminates self doubt. Which in turn allows us to shape our own realities as we see fit.

Long story short, we have Gods to worship, but at the same time, we are our own Gods. Stop limiting yourself, remember every skill you had since childhood and try to compromise if necessary. Just because someone's of a different religion or politics or God forbid, race, sex and orientation, doesn't mean their opinion or beliefs are worthless. If certain things don't resonate with you, ignore it. If it's something you can find common ground on, go for it. Worst you get is not being 100% on the same page as the other person. If something resonates with you from an unlikely source, see how it reflects on you.

Other than that. Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more. Much love.

As someone well into astrology, I often try to look into how deep it goes based on further understanding of it all. How the stars, planets, moons and what not affect the signs and stuff like that. It's one of the few times my tendency to overthink things comes in handy because I found a lot of shit that not only resonated with my life, but the life of those around me.

For context, while I won't name names, I'm an Aries born under a Capricorn and a Virgo parent. So needless to say I had to struggle to figure out where I not only fit in with myself, but with them and others like them should the signs be that compatible one way or another.

I've mentioned Astrology.com. Regarding how I interpret my and other people's horoscopes. However I never looked deeper than my favourite astrologer Rene Watt. I first caught onto her horoscopes on Shondaland, but then went to Astrology.com, to read further things. It took me down a rabbit hole that ended here:

Aries

Taurus

Gemini

Cancer

Leo

Virgo

Libra

Scorpio

Sagittarius

Capricorn

Aquarius

Pisces

Each of these linked texts, gives an in depth look on everything related to the Western Zodiac. The birthdates, elements, planets, body parts, colors, even down to the mantra. Case in point me:

Aries, The Ram, Ruling Planet Mars, Mode Cardinal, Element Fire, Colours Red and Mustard, House First, Mantra "I AM" and My Card in Tarot is The Emperor.

My mother:

Virgo, The Virgin, Ruling Planet Mercury, Mode Mutable, Element Earth, Colours Tan and Warm Yellow, House Sixth, Mantra "I ANALYZE" Tarot Card The Hermit.

My father:

Capricorn, The Goat, Ruling Planet Saturn, House Tenth, Mode Cardinal, Element Earth, Colours Brown and Khaki, Mantra "I USE", Tarot Card, The Devil....ya about that. I'll get to that later.

But reading into those articles further helped me not only better understand myself and my parents more, but also allowed me to understand what we have in common in personality, life goals and other situations most people often differ on. But the thing that freaked me out the most about it, was by all intents and purpose, I was an accident. Those people couldn't be more opposite of each other and yet somehow they managed to click long enough to create me. Then I remembered that old saying "Opposites attract." Which has become a walking contradiction regarding love, because while we seem opposite of one and other regarding ourselves and respective partners. However if we stick with each other long enough, we find that we have more in common than we realize. Some intriguing, some joyful, but above all else terrifying.

Believe you me when I read this stuff, it scared the crap out of me knowing what I know about certain people in my own life.

That being said, it offered me much needed relief because while I often struggled to fit in everywhere I go, I have often found myself in one way or another unable to fit in. I either don't give too much of myself for people to be suspicious of my motives, but when I do share myself even a little, to help explain my perspective on life, I run afoul of those whom either think I said too much or double down on the shit they think I am. But at this point in my life I realized what's worth talking about and what's not worth talking about with this site being no exception and now that I gotten that figured out with the signs literally telling me what is going on, rather than vague hints or cryptic bullshit, I was able to breeze through my life better that even save for a few lapses, life has gotten a lot better for me and may continue to get better if I survive it long enough until Christmas at least.

With that said, look into this, I'm sure it may be a real eye-opener even for those merely curious about how Horoscopes work.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Follow up to this:

It's mostly belief and disbelief based on us.

I was thinking it over and there are explanations that are routed in both logic and the unknown, regarding a certain subject that puzzled me over the years I can remember in my life.

For Context, whenever I left a door, whether it was the door to my apartment or someone else's home, it often felt like I stepped out from one world into another. Then it made me realize, depending on where we are at a certain time and place, we lived in multiple worlds at the same time.

Case in point, whenever we step outside and see other people, be it friend or foe alike, we step outside and enter what is known as the Real World. Where people of various walks of life interact with each other one way or another. Some finding common ground, yet suspecting further motives. I was no exception. Even among my friends and family. as well as friendly strangers I meet in person or online, I always sensed an ulterior motive among most. Some mundane like the simple things in life. Food, Money, Shelter, a way to improve one's personal and professional life. Others I could only equate to cockroaches and bed bugs. Parasitic creatures that take on human form, that are all take and no give. I can either squash them, spray them or ignore them. I help those worthy of my help and even on a site like this, even my most worst of outbursts have an additional meaning to test to see how people react to my best and worst. So far, a lot of you passed with flying colours. You listened to my opinion, took what you didn't believe with a grain of salt and operated on the common ground you found in me and for that I respect and love you all for it.

That being said, there were failures. Those that seemed affable, but had something I didn't like. Others that I didn't expect to hate. As well as many.....MANY misunderstandings one way or another that I stumbled upon. However rather than give up entirely in which I came very very close to doing, I moved on to see if I had to be older and more importantly smarter enough to keep going and come up with new ideas that would at best help me succeed or at worst, help me live at least more comfortably. For context, on top of my usual income sources I would need an additional $2000 CAD a year just to help myself, help others, but still live more comfortably to be in a better position to think, plan and execute the ideas that hit or miss. But that's basically a glimpse of my own personal world spilling onto the real world.

Which leads me to the next world. Peer Private World. Among our peers, we have common ground on various subjects, but outside that we don't know what to make of them, yet value their presence, input and opinion long enough for us to value them as an important person in our lives.

Then there's the true private world. Where you're all alone with nothing but your thoughts, prayers, deep dark secrets and wishes since childhood that you didn't think came true. If you're a logical person, it's your inner thinker and rational mind persuading you one way or another. If you're spiritual some kind of benevolent or malevolent being or multiple beings may be guiding you. But in the end it's how you interpret the good and the bad of the things you experience.

To me, whenever I wake up, I'm in private world. If I have guests at my home or God forbid hang out with my friends, family and others, that's my Peer Private World, because I would trust them enough to let them in my world, whether they believe in some aspects or not. But not enough to scare them away or call the Men in White.

But what makes things interesting is if I meet people with certain common ground with a common goal in mind, somehow be it though accountability, faith or sheer dumb luck, we are able to accomplish ways of improving our own lives and each others.

So to me that simply means that the way our worlds and the worlds outside us can survive is if we put aside our petty differences and work together.

Other than that, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Follow up to: It's not the belief, it's the people. Let me explain.

As I grew up I was in a religiously diverse family to the point where it was dumbed down, to whether or not we believe in one or more deities and the folklore and myths that follow. Some of us grew up in the Abrahamic Religions, Christianity, Judaism and Islam, to name a few. Others had alternative spiritual beliefs based on their respective religion and the folklore that followed. A belief I respect with all my heart. However, I woke up and realized that whether we believe in something or disbelieve in something, we are right. Whether we go full religion or full science, what we believe affects our perspective of reality and what we disbelief will not hurt you, depending on how strong we are in what we believe in ourselves. We strive to be better than what came before, recognized the flaws in their and our lives and reacted accordingly. Don't stop there. If say you don't believe there is a hell, but a paradise divided by the severity of sin, there's a good chance you'll go there. If there's a disbelief in any God and you'll believe you'll rot into the ground, you will. If you believe you'll be king of your own paradise while others are rotting in one way or another, you're right, but if they find a way to profit off their shit, it makes you feel more wrong, even if it's not the case. It's these petty thoughts that are the foundation of every drama fest that has happened for as long as humankind has been around. For one reason or another we find excuses to divide each other, knowing full well, that uniting one way or another would be the better chance at world survival. For those whom take this by heart and learn even in your own way, I applaud you. For those who don't you have my pity.

Until then, take care stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Over the years, I met people from many walks of life. Whether they were a different race, religion, sex, orientation or whatever their core beliefs were one way or another on their view on how the world works. Part of what made it hard for us all to communicate with each other, was because due to bad experience in relation to all those in the past. Some offensive, some as products of fear, paranoia and the need to cause drama.

To shorten it, your race, beliefs, orientation, cisgender, transgender, the line between fiction and reality and how one view as how the world works does not matter to me unless:

1. They happen to coincide with my beliefs.
2. Don't go against my own view of morality.
3. Most importantly use it as an excuse to hurt others. Whether you're a victim or a villain a lot of us, have done this crap. Stop it.

Other than that, in terms of the world, we're cool. Believe what you want to believe, if you like me, more power to you, if you don't go fuck yourself. If you're of some help, I am all ears, if you're of no hopes, go fuck yourself. If you take the time to get to know me, I'll gauge your opinion from that, but otherwise if you like me, more power, if not, go fuck yourself.

Because while experience with others on certain demographics may have fueled my dislike, it's not me. I'm not racist, I'm not sexist, I'm not homophobic or transphobic. I'm me and you're you and if you can't comprehend that, then you don't deserve to live the life you drain from others to survive. So go fuck yourself.

Other than that, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.