Like everything else in my life, I try to go by among most things the numbers. Be it math to sort out my monthly budget, looking for angel numbers wherever I go or in this case sum up how much I managed to solve in life in the 33 years I lived on this earth. In this case, I managed to not only complete 50% of my entire life's goals save for a select few that have yet to be achieved, but if I manage to survive the last week of this month, I'll be able to be in a better position to not only achieve the rest, but also should I fail to do it myself, it will some how in some way come to me one way or another. Now this took me years to figure out and I've logged things every step of the way, but at the same time, once I was able to figure out enough, I was able to survive better.

Unfortunately that only covers 50%, survival should have been top priority for any walk of life, whether you're rich or poor. Without food, shelter, basic hygiene and whatever vices people need at the time from something as harmless like spending a few hours playing video games, to something more risky like the amount of legal and illegal drugs that are out there in the world that on those rare occasions helped you survive through life. Once you're able to sort out one way or another then the only thing you have left are how to coincide it with your goals. In my case, I literally spent an entire year, waiting on certain times and dates for certain things to happen to me that should happen like clockwork and once I was able to do that, I was able to balance it out with my other goals in life. From trying to get better in the business, to finding ways of making my health drink faster to even something as simple as paying back those I owed for keeping me alive long enough to be in a position to think and plan what I have planned, not just myself but others in my life. At this point I'm gonna be honest with you. I am at a part of my life where food and money is scarce and in order to survive the next part, I have to at least be able to live long enough for me to reach the last week I need to get the ball rolling on a lot of things in my life. Having said that, should I not survive this last week and trust me you'll know if I did or not, here are some tips I learned so far.

1. Don't overwork yourself when helping others. Do what you can, with what you have and if you feel you done too much, let sleeping dogs lie. One of the quirks in life is to treat every aspect of it, like a seed you plant. Some seeds take work to grow, others take the right environment and sometimes if one works them too much, at best they become weeds and at worse they become nothing. Treat life like how you would your plants.
2. If there is any sort of drama, politics or other kind of bullshit, that is not worth your time or energy. Just ignore it. Sometimes people feel they need to get involved in certain aspects of the world because they believe they have something to add to the table. I myself am no exception. I used to get heavily involved whenever the world did something stupid or inhumane such as war and the unleashing of Covid. And while I can base some knowledge of both based on either experience or having relatives that been through similar shit, I don't have all the answers to the world's problems. Part of the struggle is learning how to help yourself while at the same time see where you fit in the world. If there's certain things that piss you off because you can't do a thing about it or if others in your circle won't do a thing about it whether they can or not, then it's not worth the extra stress. Turn the news off unless you want to know local or national. That's all you should care about in the first place before you care about international.
3. Above all else, make every day special and make the special days in your life even more special. Most people have their biggest stress based on the fact that whether you work or go to school or like myself, just coasting through life, we all feel like every day should be special, but we often expect others to do it for us. Be it our friends, family, strangers, politicians or whatever God we worship if we worship anything in the first place. And while I witnessed people do some amazing borderline impossible things over the years, they are not 100% perfect. Even those you put on a pedestal are just as human as the rest of us and are vulnerable to the same shit we are. We can't go on just faith alone, we have to take accountability of what we are capable of to make this day special. Once you figured that out, it's a breeze.

But that will only get you to 50%. However save for boredom, dilemmas and impatience, it just means that you are halfway to realizing your own life goals both old and new. It's that second half that is always a mystery. Not so much what you want, but how you get it, if you get it. It could be from old fashioned hard work or simply because you lived long enough to realize how by learning from past mistakes, seeing what was the same present and what's different and leaving the future unknown, but ideal enough that yours can be a good one.

Think about that, whenever you feel down on your life. Other than that, take care stay safe and stay tuned for more.

First of all to any TLDR's even among my own fans I only have one thing to say. Read the whole thing or don't read it at all. This is an important one and I don't want anyone to miss it.

When I was first on Newgrounds, I was at an age where I wasn't allowed to go on that site. So needless to say I saw how it evolved over the years. It's one of the reasons why I had no problem swearing at other users no matter their age, because if I saw this at my age I would be acting the same way then now. I was basically acting like how I would act if I had an account on there. It was why I was shocked that kids were getting exposed to that shit, because while my kid mind would have enjoyed it, my adult mind would have been disgusted with it. I'm sure I'm not the only one that has that kind of dilemma, considering the drama that goes on in this place.

We started off acting like we were more adult around each other, but as the drama went on, we all regressed to the level of toddlers. Whether we were old men or young boys or old women or young girls or that technicolor rainbow in between, we would have acted exactly as we've acted or are acting now.

It made me realize the whole time that I did belong here at this site. I enjoyed it for the old stuff, I added it while trying my life anew and it helped when it mattered as some liked my works and some didn't. The only thing left was trying to make money off it so I could build better accommodations. It's one of my gifts, I know what I can do with money in a way that will help me profit more, but share with others. That was my main goal in life. Finding a way to succeed, but not leave anyone behind. Encourage them if I could, support them if I could, but leave the rest up to faith. However like everyone else I was vulnerable to the same bullshit everyone always argues about. Religion, Politics, Aggressive Nostalgia, Controversy. I've argued it and I've got caught up in it one way or another. And as a result I thought my life was getting worse.

But then a funny thing happened to me. First things started coming back to me, to the point where random strangers on top of the people in my circle have in small doses supported me in many ways. Be it finances, food to eat and even something as small and simple as asking for a cigarette. Then after trying to help them out in return, I gained more friends and foes. The friends I gained, I judge by character, but if they somehow have something I want, I try not to hesitate to ask for it as worst I would get is a "No." The enemies I gained saw my kindness as a weakness, pretended to be my friends and family and when I fought back, they bombard me with enough guilt trips to give multiple complexes. If I find out something to make me respect them more, I respect them more, if something disgusts me I will let them know and even fight them if I have to because it's a better alternative than risking jail time murdering people like Rapists, Pedophiles, Abusive Parents, Internet Nazis, Slacktivists, Stereotypes and above all else, just the plain old assholes that harm people for kicks. Had I not met any of those groups, I probably would have become them if the offer was tempting to get me out of my rotten life at the time. That's how bad it would have been if not for the fact that based on my morality and the morality of my friends and family, we hate these fuckers. We may carry traits that come across as red flags, but we are sure as Hell are not into that shit. So sometimes hate does come in handy. It's what you Hate that is important. And sometimes that hatred can be brought out of love for what you love.

The easiest part was pointing what I thought was this or that out, but the hardest parts were proving it without having to go through the trouble of having to investigate it and even then find ways to do something about it without getting into too much trouble. Then I found out that I was right all along in the beginning. That we ignore them. We don't ignore what they've done, we ignore them. Declare them persona non grata in our lives, don't even speak or think about them, seek therapy if the think part is hard and put them behind us. Move on with our lives, find better things to do that you love and if you want to do them alone or with people, do the things you love alone and do things with people you'll know you both love.

As a result of the flags and the past experience, I was able to point them out more often. That was my evidence, knowing that they did in fact do things, but it's not infallible. There's always room for error or the whole thing could be just one giant misunderstanding for all I know. Maybe, maybe not. But at the same time, if I find further proof I let people know right away. That's all I can do to help on that front.

All those stories I wrote about S.T. Musician were fantasies of what I wanted to do to every evil person I have come across over the year, but the thing that was holding me back was that was a story, this is the real world where real life consequences happen. It's why I made him pacifistic, because while I was changing, I thought maybe he should too.

The music I write is often based on either my mood or my love of what came before. It's why it's so repetitive, because I used the same techniques musicians used in the past, but my own spin on it.

The art I do, was based on expression and manifestation. My point of view on the world. But at the same time I try to make art people could understand and maybe agree on it.

And all it amounts to in the end, regardless if I get rich or poor is that I wanted to in my own way, show the world whom I really am. Both on sites like this and real life.

And to be honest, that's how everyone is in their own way. We just got to find a way to co-exist even if it takes an eternity. So there's one bit of advice I'll give you all.

Ignore the bullshit, have a good time and hope to god you make it to your next birthday.

Other than that, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Ignore the bullshit and have a good time. That's it. Other than that, find some ways to entertain yourselves the only ways you know how.

Fuck anyone that has ever compared Batman, Bruce Wayne or any of his allies, to Donald Trump. The only thing they have in common is that in all sense of legal terms, they're criminals. Only Batman is a Vigilante and Trump is an asshole billionaire that weakened a country while fooling people into thinking he's made it strong. Now don't get me wrong I have a few things to say about Biden too, but that can wait until he's out of office. My focus is on this man.

Now I just heard he was found guilty, so in American History he is the first ever ex-president to ever go behind bars. Something they tried to do to Richard Nixon in the past, but failed even when he confessed all the shit he did in office. The closest Nixon ever got to a fair trial was when David Frost interviewed him. Trump stood trial, expected to win, but lost spectacularly. And I couldn't be more happier. When I was a kid, he was simply just an asshole celebrity real estate mogul whom got famous and guest starred in many shows and movies in the 90s to mid 2000s. Hell he was even in Home Alone 2 and Wrestlemania 23:

At the time he was by all standards in public harmless. Even had some charm to him that even his haters loved when he guest starred on SNL. However when he started running for president, the two things that scared me was the fact that I knew he would win (I don't like being right all the time even if it's not my motive) , but at the same time it may not have lasted long and he'd become some kind of twisted martyr. I was hoping that he'd simply serve his two terms and go home with a secret service agent. Instead, he served one term, lost the chance for another and committed so much bullshit trying to get back in, that it blew up in his face. And you guys compare Batman to that shit? Fuck you.

For context, over the past decade I have heard a lot of bullshit about how because Batman was a billionaire, he never actually helped people, only beat up criminals and supervillains. Fuck you again.

Batman takes a two pronged approach. As Batman, he scares crooks into rethinking their life. As Bruce Wayne, he offers them jobs at his company as well as other benefits to feed their families if they have one. He founded orphanages, hospitals, kept Crime Alley the way it was when another rich guy could have built condos over it and even as Batman has shown sympathy to the most tragic of baddies. From a petty thug trying to take care of their son, to him constantly trying to save Two Face as both Bruce and Batman, since they used to be friends. Why? Because his parents are dead. More specifically, he knew what it was like to lose family over circumstances beyond his control and saw that half the crooks like Joe Chill have lost one thing or another to be that way. He vowed that day, that no one would ever end up like him. That does not sound like Donald Trump to me and if you think that he does that too, well then this is filthy rich coming from a psychopath like me, but YOU ARE INSANE!!! SEEK HELP!!!

Phew. Now that that rant is over. I thought maybe you guys would like to hear something other than my usual stuff, but because so many problems in my life have been solved, all that's left is venting out minor grievances. Rest assured, I am ok, but this was a clear example of what I mean by unloading. If you have something to say and you can't say it in your private life, use things like this. Let it all out then move on.

Take care, stay safe and maybe stay tuned for more.

Follow up to this:

Sometimes Life is a series of Maybes

For starters even those whom didn't read it all the way proved my point as while I posted it I thought "Maybe some will read it all, some will TLDR and some would just pass it by or pass it on to those that might find it more interesting." The possibilities are endless with that one.

Anywho onto the meat of the subject. I'll try to keep this one short if I can.

For context, has there ever been a time where someone, be it friend, family, lover or even a complete stranger, has told you "The world doesn't revolve around you."? If you answered yes, that's good.

Now here's the next question that will bake your noodle. Whether you've had good luck or bad, has there ever been a time where you seen signs that seemed to contradict that phrase? If you answered yes, even better.

Third and final question. Did you ever wonder why yet couldn't find a way to answer it because you were focused on one extreme or the other? If you answered yes, then that's something you and I have in common.

Throughout the years I was always told the world doesn't revolve around me, but at the same time, noticed signs that at the very least, some parts of the world did. Then I realized that the word "World" is a relative term. In terms of the phrase, "World" means both the planet itself as it's huge and the people in it. In the overall sense the entire world does not give a shit about every single human being that's ever lived unless they got famous or changed history one way or another.

However, that's only if you view the word "World" as Earth itself. There are many worlds that are rooted both in science and the unknown.

In terms of the unknown, the mortal plane regardless of how you view the human world and the afterlife, does not revolve around all of us. There are humans or human-like (Take that one with a grain of salt if you don't get it) individuals that could either make or break your life based on their skills and a commonality between you two. They could be friends, family, tough love in the form of enemies, lovers, business partners, some form of companionship after another. But at the same time there exists the opposite. Enemies as opposed to friends. Black sheep as opposed to the gold standards of family members. A co-dependent relationship as opposed to one of loving and understanding. Competitive business people as opposed to business partners or genuine assholes, simply doing horrible things for kicks. I spent my whole life trying to find the difference between the two in that respect and in my town, it wasn't easy.

In terms of Science. It's more rooted in social structures based on those examples of the unknown. But with a logical and analytical viewpoint on how they work. In my case in terms of Companionship, there are the following categories:

1. Strangers: People you don't know, but are willing to talk to because the conversation can go either way.
2. Acquaintances: Strangers on friendly terms but not my friends, be it at all or yet.
3. Associates: Strangers that know each other through mutual connections. I call them "Small Worlders" because I've met some through mutual friends and family.
4. Business Partners: Strangers, Acquaintances and Associates you don't have to like but if you work well together, you can use their skills and vice versa.
5. Friends: One of the four or all of the four whom known you long enough to earn that title.
6. Best Friends: Same as friends but with better reasons to give more leeway. Including but not limited to life debts.
7. Family: Be it blood or of choice or adoption, as long as they got a good heart and good intentions, it's up to you to value all or some of their opinions as long as they love you enough to help you with your problems and vice versa. If it helps, use it, if not, there's always other ways they can help.
8. Lover: To me a lover means someone whom be it romantic relationships or even something as simple and out there as friends with benefits, they have a closeness that is beyond friend and family.
9. Companion: This can apply to the 8 above both one at a time or all at a time depending on how you interpret it. For example, when a boyfriend and girlfriend of a typical Cis Gender, Heterosexual Relationship, become husband and wife, that's the evolution of a companion. Going from Stranger, to Acquaintance, to Friend, to Best Friend, to Lover to eventually family. But that's just one way of saying it, it can apply to any kind of relationship within the bounds of morality.

But whether it's unknown or science, the things they have in common is they have their own ways of describing the same 9 friend set above. In terms of spirituality, someone would consider one of these in the positive way a gift from God or a curse from The Devil. How you interpret the 9 above, is basically your social circle in a nutshell, it's up to you to decide how they fit in your life. Same goes with enemies, but with more negative definitions of: Stranger, Acquaintance, Associate, Business Rival/Former Business Partner, Enemy/Former Friend, Worst Enemy/Former Friend/Former Best Friend/Former Lover/Former Companion, Pure Evil/Former all 9 or 1 of the 9.

Point being is that on one side or another, it shows that one way or another, in terms of your social world, it does revolve around not just you, but anyone you spoke to good and bad.

So in a way the world revolves around all of us one way or another. If it could happen in a place like my town, it can happen outside it too. It's one of the reasons why I was on the fence about moving, there were a lot of things outside the town that made me think it wouldn't make a difference even if they had different laws or different ways of living cheap or expensive. So I figured if I couldn't move I could at least try to change my small part of the world, only to find said small part getting bigger the more I change things. I started gaining new companions and new enemies almost every year. My luck has slowly changed from bad to good. I was able to discover more aspects of my life to better help myself and provide help to others while others older and younger than me, used their aspects and experiences to help me. But the weird thing about it, was that it was always a different person every time. Whether it was a stranger, acquaintance, associate, business partner, friend, best friend, family, lover or a genuine companion throughout it all. I went through every stage there could be. Some I just learned and some I'm continuing to learn.

The world revolves around us all, we just have to find how we fit in with it.

Take care stay safe and stay tuned for more.

All our lives, whether it was right or wrong, fair or unfair, black or white, red or blue, down or up, left or right, Heaven or Hell, Good or Evil, Love or Hate, the one thing they all have in common is that they are all aspects of life and they all come down to two distinctive answers.

YES or NO

However, no matter how we try to rationalize life, whether it's some kind of advanced science or some kind of unexplainable magic. The one thing we cannot decide is whether or not it's all one extreme or another. People either argue until they are blue in the mouth or they just shrug and move on with their life based on what they believe or other aspects of their life. Religion, Politics, Morality, all important subjects, all in different fields on what it takes to be a human being, but the one thing they have in common is they are all constructed by humans and are in constant argument on where humans should go in life.

For example religion, Christianity believes that Jesus is the Son of God, Judaism doesn't, but what they both have in common is save for different interpretations, is that they believe God is real and the Old Testament happened. That just simplifies the Abrahamics, but at the same time it could apply to anything from the oldest religions such as Paganism, to the pseudo religions based on Sci-Fi freaks like George Lucas, Gene Roddenberry and L. Ron Hubbard.

In Politics, there is Left Wing and Right Wing and depending on the country and laws, one side dominates the other or both sometimes pool their resources together. What they have in common both Good and Bad and believe me, they both have their fair share of dirty laundry, is that they are going by what they believe humanity should evolve into. Be it thoughts and feelings. Case in point, Republicans have often been both positively and negatively associated with ways of making money, Hell Ronald Reagan even once made a law that if you're gonna succeed in business in California, you have to be somewhat a corrupt asshole. Considering the scandals in L.A. and Hollywood alone and the money both made and lost as a result of them, that doesn't surprise me.

Which brings me to Morality. Morality should be the most simplest thing on the planet, but at the same time life is so complicated, it's hard to be considered 100 percent moral or immoral, because not everyone sees what you see and knows the full story. Take me for example, I don't give into mob mentality because all that did was cause more trouble than it's worth, when the best way in my opinion is to try to hear each side of the story and see where you stand with each other on that. Then decide whether or not the person is still worth talking to or not. That's simple, but due to clashing moralities it's not. Not to sound gross, but I'll go this far to say it just to prove a point. One of the hot button topics is Pedophilia. Now I can say I hate pedos until I'm blue in the mouth and you can choose to believe whether or not I'm telling the truth, because by your perspective of my actions, either way, you believe it to be one thing or another. However, due to my hatred of Pedos, part of how I was able to determine at least in my own opinion who is and who isn't was based on actions rather than words, based on the disgusting shit I witnessed since my childhood. It's why the Jes thing was so clear at least to me and others that think he's innocent. Others can believe what they want about him and I'm through giving a damn convincing them otherwise as I don't value their opinions for validation based on their actions. Case in point, ThisJoe, comes across as a pedo to me, due to his targets for bullying, due to my thinking he's older than he let's on and due to how many fucked up thing's he's made in art as well as the fucked up things he and his so-called friends are into. To me, that is an Orgy of Evidence, but to those that fail to understand or outright disbelieve me, they don't even see it, because they don't see what I see. But if you think that's sickening, here's a worse thing. Some countries have no law or moral against the subject. Hell some sick freaks would sell their house just to get a plane ticket too said countries, just to do it. And unless these people are in a position where they can go near children, there is no way to determine if they are or not. Words can only go so far.

Now you're probably wondering at this point of this very long fucking essay, what is the point of what I am saying. Well I'll summarize. To put it plainly, we are not supposed to just focus on life's "Yes" and "No". We are meant to focus on life's "Maybe" as well.

The word "Maybe", is one of the most underrated answers in the history of this world. It's mysterious, it's suspenseful, it's exciting and it's terrifying. Why? Because things could go either way. Rather than be this or that, it can be this and that.

That uncertainty is the key to surviving this world and learning from it. And the weirdest thing is that it's the one word all sides of life have in common.

For example, maybe I'll become a successful musician, maybe not. Maybe I'll find other ways of getting rich, maybe not. Maybe I'll find ways of helping people whether I have to pay for it or not. Maybe you'll believe the words I am typing right now, maybe not. Maybe I'll take your words or part of your words into consideration should they apply to my life or the life of people I know, maybe not.

But the one thing I am certain on, is I am still alive, things are getting good for me, they may not last, but I'm able to tank the losses better than I have before with some exception. If people believe me good, that means I got more friends. If people don't, that's better, I'll either value them as friends in other aspects we have in common and if we don't, I cut you off one way or another.

Long story short, I am now 110% Percent able to go through life one way or another to the point where I'm undecided where I may go next. Maybe I'll keep going with my music and maybe not. Maybe I'll stay on Newgrounds or leave. Maybe I'll help others deserving of help or I'll just sleep in for the day. But before I even remotely do anything I would like to put three simple life lessons that each person can follow in any walk of life whether I like it or not.

1. To get the answers you're looking for, one must ask the right questions.
2. Don't be afraid to try new things.
3. Embrace the mystery.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.....maybe.

A follow up to this:

I figured out the main problem with Life

Over the years I was wondering why even after all I found out, that no one was moving forward. Then I realized with that article that this was one of the reasons why. However this lead me into an even deeper reason behind this. For context, when I was 18, I used to joke that 30 was considered the middle age for 18 year olds. In that while others took getting to at least 45 to 50 would have it worse, but it would be similar circumstances. Then I realized today, that joke became a reality.

For a glimpse of my life, part of why I have no shame in talking about even the darker aspects of my life to the generations above and below me, is because I found a balance between being childish and being grown up. It allowed me to be the medium between generations, because I knew what it was like to be a kid and it helped me learn more from the older generations because as a growing adult I start seeing things more from their perspective. The only thing I offered them in return aside from the usual help and company is to offer my POV of how I experience life no matter how messed up it got or how unbelievably good it got. A lot of people in my own circle have been deep down doing the same thing as well as those that have opposed me. We either seek solace from the older generation or we try to teach the younger generation not to make the same stupid mistakes we did. It's why it takes me a while to think before acting and judging because it reflects of aspects of either my life or those I know good and bad in said generation or a generation above and below me. Then it hit me.

A lot of us both my generation and the generations above and below me have reached a point in their lives where they don't know what to do in life. They seek out teachers or they teach others. No different than what I was doing. Then I realized whether you're a child, a teen, an adult or even a senior, we all have our own versions.....of a mid life crisis.

Now a lot of people, myself included would think, "Nah, that's for old people, we don't have that." Well congratulations you are wrong and so was I. Hell I'm just recovering from mine faster because I realized what it was. I never thought I'd live to be 30 and the next 3 years were a struggle trying to find my purpose in life. Once I realized what it was though, I was able to find ways, not just to move on, but help those left behind on the matter. The symptoms are what follows:

1. Insomnia
2. Difficulty Concentrating.
3. Nostalgia
4. Reckless Behaviour
5. Irritability

Then of course on top of that, the classic 5 Stages of Grief.

We all went through it, in every stage of our lives. Some of us grew up too fast, even with more to learn and tried to move forward. Others either cherry-picked or romanticized parts of the stories the older generations told us, tried to do better than them but screwed up one way or another. It's why both Racism and Anti-racism is still around, because the older generations projected their struggles on each side of the board onto those in their younger generation. Either they realized what damage they did and try to reign it in before it's too late, or worse, they encourage them to succeed where they failed, re-opening old wounds and making us all start from scratch again. It was never our fight. It was never our war. We were drafted against our wills and those whom aren't sorry for it, should suffer the consequences, not us. Me, I'm sorry for everything I done that was so wrong in my generation and my part in projecting any bullshit onto the younger crowd, while taking the older crowd for granted.

It's a hard thing to say sorry about, but I am. That being said, I'm fed up with it and I choose not to fight it anymore. I don't know how I'll move on without the shackles of my past, but at the same time I hope wherever I go is much better.

Until then I suggest you all look deep within yourselves and find out if anything, there's something wrong with you. If you can find it, then you can save yourself and those around you.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

This came to me today when I was interacting with someone close to me. This person told me, that much of why they fall back into old habits is that they don't know what to do with their life. A pain I know all too well. When you get right down to it, we're just here. Whether we came here from some divine deity or some lucky miracle of science, where we come from is always gonna be one of life's mysteries no matter what we believe. We can only see a small glimpse of it, but it's just enough to motivate us into what we want or need to do.

However the biggest mystery, something that has always trumped even the most spiritual and logical people is the ultimate questions:

1. What are we?
2. Why are we here?
3. What is our purpose?

Me, it took me 27 years to realize my own purpose, but it wasn't easy. I went by what those in and out of my circle tell me, based on their views in life and when I think I got it figured out, they tell me I'm doing it wrong. Then I do things my way, based on my own beliefs and views of the world and I still get the same response, that I'm still doing it wrong. So I was basically damned if I do and damned if I don't.

But then I figured it out. In terms of living life, we need to balance our wants and needs as well as the wants and needs of those we care about. Those we shouldn't care about fuck them. Be yourself, but at the same time, allow those in your own circles to be themselves, even if it's shit you don't agree with. That's what we are, we think free and we're allow that freedom to guide us to where we want in world life. But that's only scratching the surface.

In terms of why we are here, that's a question you have to both answer yourself and receive guidance from those that know you closely. Friends, family, lovers, you name it. Although many dismiss it as cliché talk, there is a reason why they view you as special. They watched you grow up, they helped raise you and shape you to the person you wanted to be for your sake and theirs and if they're true companions, no matter what they disagree with, they stick with you no matter what. That's why you're here, they kept you alive. Like the saying goes "It takes a village to raise a child."

In terms of what our purpose is. This one was tricky for me, but it can be divided into three follow up questions:

1. What can you do?
2. Are you able to help yourself and others?
3. Will whatever you do in life make you happy?

If you can answer these questions, you found your purpose. I have some of my answers:

1. What can I do? I am book smart, street smart, a spiritual guide, a musician, an author and an all around crazy yet good man. And I try to apply that to all aspects of my life both personal and professional.
2. Am I able to help myself and others? I'm able to survive long enough to help others, but if there's no one in need of help, it helps me take the time to help myself better.
3. Will whatever I do in life make me happy? Well so far things I've been doing so far have made me happier. Made me worry less about the woes of the world and allowed me to worry about myself more and those in my circle. The more things get ok, the happier I get.

And that's the point. Everything else simply falls into place, once you figure that out.

Should you be able to answer that you only have one question you can answer:

What can you do with your life?

Until then, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Ok I managed to figure a few things out in life that may sound farfetched, but hear me out.

First off. In terms of love. Among most things, partners want time with their partners, whether it's time alone and time among friends. They want to value the time they have with each other while they're still alive.

Second in terms of life, keep moving forward, because if you don't you'll be stuck where you are or worse go backwards. Case in point certain people I've been feuding with started like they were fighting like adults, then in personality, they regressed to High School in terms of bully tactics, but once I was able to ignore them long enough, not only do their insults and remarks not bother me. But they went from High School level, to Grade School. Repeating the same shit I heard thrown at me in Grade School. At that point I now knew they were no longer worth my time and energy because they were regressing and trying to take as many people with them. Long story short, if people bother you, ignore them while you can, kick their ass if you can, save others if you're able to, but otherwise leave them to rot.

Third, part of the reason why people disagree with each other isn't so much their similarities, but also due to one subtle difference. It was of all things The Matrix Revolutions that brought this out for me. "We can't see past the choices we don't understand." Part of why I was able to get ahead in some things, but not others, is because I understood certain choices so clear, that I was able to look far into the future and see where they lead to. Whereas others I try to understand the choices and help how I can, but other than that show less interest if it's not worth understanding.

Basically we all have this ability, it's based on what we understand in the world.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Before Rick Moranis and Frank Oz wowed us with a talking singing plant. This man made the movie that inspired it and jumpstarted Jack Nicholson's career. Before Jason Statham took over the role as Frankenstein, this man made sure David Carridine did it first, while pairing him off against a pre-Rocky Sylvester Stallone. Before Black Scorpion was the name of an obscure superhero franchise, this man made a movie about giant scorpions of the same name, then produced this one. That man is Roger Corman.

The B Movie King. Writer, Producer, Director, Actor, you name it he's done it. When he wasn't making B movies in the 60s, he was furthering other up and coming film star's careers one job at a time. This man worked with the likes of Ron Howard, Francis Ford Coppola, Jonathan Demme, Martin Scorsese, Joe Dante and James Cameron just to name a few. He's even cameoed in many movies himself including Silence of The Lambs. This guy for the past decades had his hand in every form of media old and new.

However, this legend both in the A-List and B-List alike has tragically passed away May 9th 2024 at age 98.

I first came across Corman's work, when I first watched the Frank Oz version of the Little Shop of Horrors. A horror musical comedy involving a clumsy flowershop worker, cultivating a man-eating plant in hopes to gain fame and fortune. Little did I know at the time, it was a remake. Of a film so infamous you can literally watch it for free:

While I like the musical, I love this movie better, because they do make the most out of it. The set is obviously fake, but they make up for it in the acting and the dark comedy. That was just a mere taste of Corman's work.

My personal favourite is Death Race 2000:

Unlike the Statham version which involved an elimination race for freedom, this one was much more brutal. A dystopian future where the only good entertainment is a trans continental race running men, women and children alike for points as they reach the finish line. And that was Corman producing a movie.

However, B movies weren't his only racket. He also used his rep and money to start a lot of other projects such as comics, a haven for independent filmmakers as well as even making fun of himself in movies like Scream 3. This guy was basically Hollywood's answer to Tom Fulp.

Still at 2 years away from a century, almost making it to Norman Lear's age, he had a good run, made a shit load of money and died like a king. May he rest in peace.