While I was going around seeing what has confirmed to at least to me, the existence of Time Travel, I started looking things in the recent past. From names of people I know, to the styles of clothes they were wearing, to events they probably seen me in one way or another. Upon looking things up I stumbled upon the mother of all puzzle pieces in the mystery that is, not just my life, but the life of others around me. First I stumbled upon this:

Love Leadership

The short end of it, was that it's a philosophy on leading through Love. It lead me to this specific biblical passage:

1 Corinthians 13

When I read it I thought. "That's just biblical love it can't apply to others or even their religions." So I looked up other religious sayings using the key words "Love Leadership" It lead me to this:

Prophet Muhammad on Love

Full disclosure until recently I never looked at Islam as a whole until now, but now that I read this I can safely say the Jihadists got it all wrong. Those whom really read this and follow by the examples, are being dragged through the mud simply because the Jihadists disagreed with them. So needless to say all bets were off on public opinion on Islam when 9/11 occurred. Guys like Muhammad Ali and Malcolm X, thought they got it right at first hence why they started off as angry, but over the years of their life they regretted the past actions they inflicted on others as well as each other, considering they were best friends.

So just to see if all three Abrahamic religions were talking about the same things differently, I decided to go for the hat trick and find anything related to the Torah on Love Leadership. I found this:

Good Leadership Must Include Love

I'm pretty sure if I looked into my Wicca and Native side, I'm probably gonna find more on the subject.

I'm an Aries and for the longest time I was wondering why it told me I had leadership capabilities, because I was more of a follower than a leader. If someone tougher, but more respectful came along, I would follow them and learn what it takes to be a leader from them. Teachers, Parents, Friends, you name it. A lot of people have lead me as far as they could lead me until I was ready to set foot on my own. It wasn't until recently that through most things, their love for me and concern about my wellbeing were trying to shape me into the leader I was destined to become. It wasn't until I found Love myself, that I was able to come up with better plans and ideas and in turn help the next person out, become a leader of their own right. Other times I would encourage old leaders to go back to the saddle when things were down for them. They lead me and I in turn lead them. I was not a follower, I was a student, they were my teachers and I learned a lot from them over the years. But like many great lessons in life sometimes they take a while to click for myself and other times, people have had to spell it out for me. Sound familiar?:

Those that lead through hatred, will only drag those that follow down to death or something worse. Those whom lead with love, while it's sometimes a struggle, often lead to greater pastures.

Think of every hate group, you've ever run into and I don't just mean supremacists, violent protestors or even one person dying on a hill. I'm talking every single group whether they been on the side of Good or Evil, that lead their respective people through nothing but hate. Hate for what has been done for them, hate for those they deem responsible and even irrational hatred by association and especially self-hatred. These people have done nothing but hate, try to spread the hate so they wouldn't feel alone and when they meet a love leader, they try to destroy them because they failed to understand them. Sometimes they succeed and the love turns into hate. Other times they fail because the love is so strong, it will either change them or destroy them in turn and that is what they are afraid of.

People want change, but are afraid when it's not ONLY the change they want. I know that one all too well.

People want peace, but they are afraid of what they or others have to do to achieve it. I seen the results myself.

People want enlightenment, but are not willing to let go of the bullshit that keeps them down, because they're afraid if they don't resolve it, they won't be enlightened. I and every single human being that has lived, went through this until they figured it out their own way.

People don't want to lose time with what they need to do personal or business, but are too lazy to find ways of making the time. I was one of them.

People want a good life, but have so much bad happen to them, that they forgot how to actually live. I was like that too.

People want love, but are so insecure with themselves, they're afraid that when it does show up. It happened to me months ago.

Point being is that Love isn't just some buzzword. It isn't a plot point to a fairy tale. It's not some random aspect you see when you meet fortune tellers real or phony. You know what love is:

IT'S A WAY OF LIFE!!!

Whether it's love for your friends, love for your family or that special someone in your life that somehow found the answers you were looking for. People tried to suppress love. Thinking it was a waste of time in comparison to something practical like money or other forms of fake wealth. Real wealth isn't measured by currency, it's the knowledge, experience and even the love you feel that makes all the crap you went through to make something of yourself worth it. Stuff like money, a fancy house or a cool car, are just mere bonuses and fringe benefits and it's why most Rich people as successful as they are, still try to keep going in their lives because their lives are so empty, they try to fill it with things they like rather than things they need. It's why Mr. Burns wasn't satisfied with his riches until he was reunited with his childhood teddy bear Bobo. It's why Mark Zuckerberg made Facebook to begin with, he tried to find love, he screwed it up and he took it out on the world by destroying the values that mattered the most for billions of people. It's why we're so overtly reliant on technology, because we lost the way to love and the way to become leaders. It took me 27 years to figure that out.

To sum it up, the war between Love and Hate that I mentioned before has been raging for so long it transcends beyond time and space. It's why I kept seeing Time Travel shit everywhere. It wasn't just to figure out my life, it was because it was giving me messages in a way ONLY I can understand at the time and whether you believe me or not, I will continue to share the experiences with others in order to find people that would understand. Be it on or offline.

We're not followers. None of us are. We're potential leaders learning from other leaders good and bad and taking what they know and adding it to our own. While at the same time, passing what they and we know to the next generation so they won't screw up like we did.

People tried to teach me and it took me too long to listen, but now that I am, I'm able to pass on what I know to others. Something I've been doing in small doses before this moment.

Take this all into consideration and think about how it applies in your life. Lead with love, not with hate.

Until then, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

While I rambled on a lot about time travel and some of you probably think I'm nuts. Hear me out.

From the day you were born, to the day you attended school a lot of bad things have happened around you in a historical sense. Some so bad you probably couldn't attend school at all, be it through wars, disease, famine, things like that. Some of which you know by witnessing, others you've only heard about by the time you got home. However the one thing many people often wonder after knowing about it in Hindsight, that people often ask for is "If I travelled back in time what would I fix?" I know that, because I used to be one of those people.

Now we all heard the old "Would you kill Hitler." And as much as I want to kill that Jewish killing son of a bitch, I fear that even someone like him, plays a big part in the space time continuum. It's one of the few people The Doctor would love to kill, but know there would be consequences. Can't argue with that.

In terms of my POV on changing the future regarding Time Travel as I know it now, I only say it depends. But back in the day there were so many moments in my life I wanted to correct from moving to a crime filled town, to not being able to save my mother from dying. Mainly because up until now, my life was on such a roller coaster, I had no idea I would make it closer to the end when others that went through worse or better, fell off at one point. Some got prematurely cocky and screwed things up. I thought I was gonna end up like that no matter how hard I tried to make it through life. However, once I realized I was heading closer to the end, things started to loosen up for me, things I always wanted are slowly but surely coming to me, making my life more easier to navigate and focus on other goals. I've gotten stronger, I gotten faster, I gotten more determined. I gotten less angry, but still not a pushover. I was able to solve things less aggressively, but enough to make my points. I was even able to restore a love in my heart I didn't even believe I still had and as a result of the hardships I went through, I became much better than I was when I first signed up on this site. And while I wish things gotten better, they are so far good enough that I am able to literally sail through life in rough waters and go shore to shore in life. Now had I time travelled with that old archaic mindset, that would have ruined years of progress in my body, mind, emotions and spirit. It made me realize that I was put through some sort of elaborate test, that I am now slowly but surely passing. It was like going through High School all over again. Only instead of merely graduating I am starting to earn some honors. Honors that are worth more than material things like money or the latest media....though I still like that.

I feel as though the future is changing in a very strange, somewhat bad, but very welcoming way. Impossible things have become possible, people are starting to get their heads out of their asses and to top it off, even stuff on my end of things, things I didn't deem possible no matter what happens, have begun to loosen up.

It made me realize that I did in fact lived a wonderful life and I have you all to thank about being a part of it.

Regardless of where it goes from here, I hope honestly everyone enjoys their March break with a smile on their face, no matter how they feel.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Picking up where this article left off: On this Article I talked about people that are fixed points in time. However I also mentioned that Fixed Points In Time, are also significant events or certain places that are important to the future. That no one must interfere with it, lest they create evil alternate reality, a paradox or destroy the universe. It's why the weather has been weirder lately, the universe is literally taking a pounding over this. So needless to say that stuff has also happened in many significant events in my life. Be it good moments or major tragedies or downright anger moments. And I travel a lot on foot for recreation in steel toe working boots. I been wearing them for 3 months so far and now I am strong enough to run in them. I found out a few things about my past both good and bad that enlightened me on how my life turned out and how far I went both for and in spite of it. But most of my travels there are places I just don't consider going and when I thought about when I walked the PATH and thought "Maybe I should go back to my old neighbourhood and look around places I never been." One building I passed by a lot, turned out to be a mental health facility for youths. The cut off was 18 and I lived in that side of that neighbourhood when I was 18. I could have gotten the help I needed there, but my mind was telling me not to go there. I also found some apartment options I never considered, due to too much paperwork yadda yadda, and I realized the reason why I didn't show up there until now, was because they too are fixed points in time. Places I never meant to go to, until now.

So understanding that I was able to understand the guidelines of how to spot fixed points in time.

1. When you feel a push or a pull: There are often certain spots that either resonate well with people, or drive them as far away as possible. If it wasn't your destiny to say go to some public building the building itself will push you away. If you're meant to go there, you'll feel an unbelievable pull that will make you so unsatisfied with life until you follow where it goes. It could lead to something cool or exciting, like seeing a great sight or it could lead you to your very tragic death. Which while scary, it shows exactly how time works in that respect. Putting you at the right and wrong place at the right and wrong time.
2. Places With Memories Increases The Push and Pull: Sometimes there are places that resonate with us good and bad due to how we remember them. For example, you go to an amusement park with a sibling. They enjoy the ride, you don't enjoy puking on the Gravitron. So naturally a day latter when they come back the fun loving sibling would say "YAY!!" While the embarrassed sibling would say "Oh no not again." Memories of the places you've explored depending on how you react to them increast the Push or Pull of that fixed point. If it's something you don't like, you try to get away from it. If it's something you like, you get pulled into it. Try to see if you feel pulls at places that initially pushed you away, you'll be pleasantly surprised. I know I was.
3. It Depends on The Historical Importance of That Place: Part of the origin of Fixed Point In Time is that sometimes events happen that require you to be at a certain place at a certain time. Even if it's something that pushes or pulls you. Even if it's something that you had a good or bad experience at, if the importance of it outweighs the other two guides then it really must be important. Something you just have to see or have to hear whenever it happens. I seen a lot of good and bad things over the years, but the fact that they are part of my own personal history, does not outweigh the history of others whom have done the same.

It's why I think they're travelling in the first place. Trying to soak up as much important places before returning home. Sooner or later they may return, armed with the knowledge and experience that would get them home quicker.

Take care, stay safe, stay tuned for more.

At this point I don't blame you for thinking I'm nuts as this is literally so magnificent it is making me feel crazy.

This is a follow up of an article I posted 2 days ago.

The following, is meant for those to discuss, even if they disagree. If they think I'm either nuts or simply full of shit, I'll take what they said as a grain of salt.

Recent events have given me somewhat of a crude map on how Time Travel Works or as how I percieve it at least, but there are certain things that would click with those, whether they truly believe in it or if they're well versed in many fictional mediums, where time travel is the main subject.

This took me only a few days to figure out, based on events I witnessed. I won't go into too much detail, but I will give some cliffnotes, in hopes future generations could pick up where I left off. This is more than a blog, I am leaving a legacy.

Now unlike most secrets I figured out, this one is not so much rules, but guidelines that anyone could understand and pick up on it, should they choose to believe it or suddenly realize what I'm saying makes sense to them or only them. Here it goes.

1. Watch out for weather that shouldn't be: Part of what confirmed it for me, regarding my neck of the woods, was that we had a rare event happen in the middle of what should be Spring. Case in point, a ThunderSnow Storm. No different than a simple thunderstorm, only it involves snowing rather than raining and in the winter times it does happen, it's often few and in between and barely anyone notices it because they're more focused on dealing with the blizzard rather than the thunder and lightning. Now a lot of time travel movies have often involved a storm or two, that involved a lightning strike. Whether it is simply bad weather during a time travel scene or in movies like Back To The Future in which they used lightning as a means of going back. Other times in most science fiction, it's often shown up in places where weather doesn't usually or shouldn't usually exist. Such as the first movie of the Star Trek Reboot series. In which black holes, which have doubled as time portals on occasion, were described as nothing more than a lightning storm in space. Now people can tell me "These are fiction, so there's no bearing." until they are blue in the face. However, in the case of Star Trek, it helped evolve the world, as many tech geeks from the man who invented the Cell Phone, to a crazy douche like Steve Jobs, have taken many inspirations from the old TV Series alone and even though many disagree with the new stuff going on, there are still moments that help change the world in one way or another. Star Trek never stopped, we just simply caught on to it too fast. And of course for bonus points, it doesn't often have to be an actual weather event, because there are often times where anomolies appear, that are often dismissed as weird weather or electricity gone haywire. Case in point, The First Terminator Movie. Now even Cameron updated the effects in the sequel to show a sphere appear, however due to a limited budget, the T-800 and Kyle Reese's arrival, only showed lightning effects and them simply appearing. Which messed up as it sounds makes more sense, because anyone watching would have just seen bright lights and nude people appearing out of nowhere. Point being, watch out for weird weather, because you never know. It could just be global warming or it could be something even stranger.
2. How To Detect People as Fixed Points In Time: A fixed point in time, originated from the classic series Doctor Who, is often a moment, that would spell dire consequences should one be able to interfere with it. It could be as something as breaking a brick that was meant to be the foundation of one of the world's greatest buildings or stopping a guy from getting hit by a car, only to find out you saved the life of a serial killer. However, while many Time Travel stories before or after Doctor Who, have their own versions of fixed points in time. Doctor Who and it's spin-offs, specifically Torchwood, have dabbled in the idea that not just places or events, but people are also fixed point in time. Jack Harkness being something even The Doctor, whom has witnessed weird shit over 900 years at the time, deemed impossible. Due to the circumstances of his death and resurrection, Harkness can never die until he is destined to, should the whole Face of Boe thing, turn out to be true. Now unlike Jack, whom was just made aware what he is, there are people out there that are stuck on destiny's path, that no matter what happens, they will live until it is their time to go. Think of all the times you've heard of people dying but they couldn't even when by all intents and purposes should have died. Hell there was a guy I knew that should have died from the amount of alcohol that poisoned him, he even said he died but somehow came back. There was also a girl I knew, that flatlined after having her baby, but she gets up after seeing what death was like. It's because it wasn't their time to die yet and their destinies have yet to be fulfilled. Hell there have been times where I should have been arrested, killed or at the very least thrown to the street, yet no matter what people do, no matter how much I demand it, not once does it happen to me. I always wondered why as people got killed, arrested and even thrown out for less. I even threatened a teacher in front of cops as a kid and they did nothing. Then I realized recently it was because it wasn't my destiny. That until now, mine had yet to be written let alone fulfilled. It's why I wandered looking for purpose in life. There was nothing else to do until I found it. However I'm only slightly aware and aware enough that I can see where it goes, but can't stop it. And believe me I tried. However as a result, it made me realize how to detect other people that are fixed points in time. It's actually surprisingly easy. To simplify it, if someone does not listen to a word your saying and simply needs to go, no matter how hard you want them to stay and listen to you: don't. This could be anything from someone wanting to join the army and fighting a war and you saying "No" out of fear they may not come back or something as simple as someone breaking glass on a window they shouldn't. If you can't stop them, then don't, they were meant to do what they did. The best you can do is either watch or go somewhere else to pass the time until it's over.
3. The most important one: Look Out For Other Time Travelers: This one applies to both the Science Fiction and Fantasy concepts where time travel is involved. Everything from Sci-Fi flicks to Superhero Movies to even some movies revolving around magic, has at least one time concept, be it Time Travel in general or controlling time to an extent. However the one thing people overlook unless it's a certain plot point, the idea of two or more people existing at the same time, but from different parts of their own time. Case in point, Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban. Both book and movie, introduced the concept of Time Travel in this story and it wasn't shown until near the end of it. Making it a unique twist, but at the same time due to the Wizarding World being well versed in it, it's treated more like a misdemeanor if someone does mess with time. Sound Familiar? In this case, the running gag in the movie, in which Hermione appears out of nowhere every now and then and the only one that notices was Ron. Which was funny then became freaky when it turned out that she used her Time Turner to attend more classes without being late for the others. Then of course events were shown both through the movie proper and the time travel scenes, revealing all the strange happenings of the past trio, as a result of Harry and Hermione messing with things. Harry was the only person to see his future self during the Patronus charge, making him aware of his time travel self both before and after he goes back in time. I myself talked to people I didn't expect me to believe in my experiences witnessing time travel, one knew and the other claimed to have done it before. Now take that with a grain of salt if you must, but it clued me in that the people I was aware of, were not the only ones to travel in time. Hell I even met people younger than me that I could have sworn I met a long time ago as their older selves. They look exactly how I imagined them to look. But when I try to tell it to someone who is a fixed point in time, they brush it off as something else. Which clued me in that nothing I say will interfere with what I think is coming. But all this happened during weird weather and finding out whom in my circle is either a time traveler or a fixed point in time.

But that's all I know so far, there might be other things out there I may add to this, but if anyone past, present or future is reading this, pick up where I left off, based on what you seen. For those who don't believe me it's fine, your fixed points in time, nothing I do or say would interfere, but I should warn you, if your destiny is going down a wrong path, you may get erased. Don't say I didn't warn you. Or did I? To those that listened to me ramble on and may have found some awareness, you wanted to say, but were afraid of how people would perceive you as a result, comment below I am all ear. Think of what has been written here and see if it applies to your life. If it does, then congratulations, you are officially aware of how SOME time travel works.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Picking Up Where This Left Off

S.T. Was getting himself ready for the end of February, he's got clothes packed as well as some snacks and a card to take the next train from Fair City to Peace Town. Where his love, Winter. The Deadly Demoness is currently being held.

Light: He's more determined than ever now.

Harmony: I know. It's like he now knows what he has to do.

S.T.: I still think I'm walking into a trap, but despite that, I have a feeling I will see her again even if it is the last time. All I know is that I still have to go there. It's like something or someone's been guiding me to this moment the whole time.

Light Harmony: Good Luck.

S.T. Races to the trainstation, after an incident where the train went backwards, he moved forward to Peace Town. To his surprise the facility while a thirty minute distance, was walking distance from the train station. He prepared his bags and went over there.

S.T.: Ok, it's the first time you went to this place. The first time you seen her in a while. The whole thing could be a trap. Yet why does it only feel like predate jitters.

He arrives at the facility and goes in. He notices a birthday sign on one of the receptionist's booth saying "Say Happy Birthday. Don't Tell Her About The Sign."

S.T.: Is it your birthday today?

Receptionist: No, it's tomorrow. Can I help you?

S.T.: Yes, I'm Shane, I'm here to visit Winter.

Receptionist: Is she expecting you?

S.T.: She should be. She's been calling me non stop since she arrived here. I'm her boyfriend.

Receptionist: You're Prince Charming? Let me check for a second.

She dials the phone and when it seems like nothing happening she hangs up.

Receptionist: There's a private room where you can talk to each other. The guard will escort you. What did you bring?

S.T.: Just some clothes and some snacks. Of course per food regulation here.

Receptionist: Ok. Follow the guard.

S.T. and The Guard walk down the hallway to the main unit. He talks to her about a little of the story. To his surprise, she nods understandingly. It was a breath of fresh air compared to the Fair City Hospital. He goes into the unit and sees her for the first time. He hands the bag to security to check it, but his first instinct was to give her the mother of all hugs. Something she accepts and gives back with the same amount of love and strength.

S.T.: I never thought I'd see you again. Are you Ok?

Winter: Ya, I'm fine. They're treating me a lot better here. Plus they gave us an area where we can talk and catch up, but only for a moment.

They sit in the room. He fills her in on what's been going on with him.

S.T.: So after walking through this underground way, I was able to find myself what I was looking for and learn to fix myself. I was leading by your example. I think it was time for a change anyway, I don't want to be the person I was before. I want to be better, not just for me, but for you too.

Winter: Aww, that's so sweet. I'm glad I was able to give you an example to lead. Let's sing together.

They both sang the Pokemon theme word for word, without skipping a beat.

S.T.: I first played a GameBoy Color Yellow Version of the game. It figures us 90s kids would know the theme song.

When it was time to go they give one more hug. With her dancing into it slow dance style. Even though they both said goodbye. She didn't want to let him go. She sent him away, with a half pack of smokes and an orange scented perfume bottle as a gift. He goes home to the relieved looks of Light Harmony.

S.T.: Save for personal obligations and transportation fees, I am allowed to go there whenever I want to visit. I also warned them about the mother and told them my side of the story. They seemed to respond well to it, if not a little disturbed. But the way things went, she never gave up on me, she never stopped loving me and even when we both said goodbye for now, she wouldn't let me go physically. If she could tie me up and lock me in the locker for the night, she would.

Light: Amazing. Even after all you two went together you've both found a way to make it work.

Harmony: It's like your relationship stood the test of time.

Time.

T.......i..........m............e....................

And as if a flood of memories kept rushing in.

S.T.: Time. That's it!!

Light Harmony: What is it.

S.T.: That day I got robbed and she gave me that pep talk, Winter was wearing an outfit I seen before. In a dream I had when I was 18 years old. Only it was incomplete, it was missing a few things. Even though I met her through her childhood in glimpses, it was around the same time I started having those dreams. Now, you two as well as myself encountered some strange shit in our years. However, even this you'd find hard to believe, but I'm saying it anyway. That time I saw her in person in that outfit, wasn't her from the present. That was future her. She went back to that moment to help me. It's also why she was able to pop out everywhere.

Light: Ya, you walked the same path trying to figure out her direction and yet when you stop and give up, she's always there. You sense that she's close and she finds you.

Harmony: If what you're saying is true, then that means all those times you met her in different states, you met her both in present and future. It's why it confused us whenever we saw her in different ways. Even those times she was getting your attention before, it was in outfits including 80s flair. She could have at one point travelled to the 80s to get the look right.

S.T.: I cannot believe this. I cannot even believe I'm saying this. If what you're saying is true, then I've basically not only been dating a time traveler, but I gave her the abilities to do it. Which means....which means.....she's somehow managed to watch me in every aspect of my life in various planes of existence and ensuring both her survival and our future, by guiding me into a stable time loop. It's why she's not calling me now, even though she calls me a lot. She's going back.

Suddenly a crack of lightning hits. Yet it's snowing.

Light Harmony: Thundersnow, but why now. It rarely happens here?

S.T.: Oh no. It's the weather, that usually happens when someone is messing with time. Even Nature's trying to comprehend it. What did I do? What is going on here? What could possibly get anymore fucked up than this.

A young lady with red hair shows up asking for a cigarette. S.T. Gives her one, while still talking to Light Harmony, but gives her odd glances, before she leaves.

S.T.: Wait a minute. That girl, she looks like my girlfriend but different....she has her sister's hair colour. It's dyed, but it's the same damn colour I recognize it. Oh no....it can't be.

Light: Couldn't be. She looks younger than you unless...

Harmony: It's her from the past.

S.T.: Her and her sister switched places. Her past self visited me now, days before I visited her present self. That's why she trusted me right away. She met me here and now before she went back. What kind of timey wimey bullshit is this? The whole time. The whole literal time. We created a Grandfather Paradox. I am scared, I am angered, it seemed like more people knew and yet I feel so fucking happy. Do you know why?

Light Harmony: Why's that.

S.T.: I don't know when, I don't know where, but somewhere in that space time continuum my girlfriend is setting the conditions to prepare for some kind of ultimate union. The outfit she was wearing, is what she wants to become. An outfit that along with the order, helped me inspire mine. I was once known as the Indigo Angel. An Angel with the ability to navigate through and sometimes even profit off all the chaos that surrounds me. She came from a family of Demons, yet all she wants is peace, love and happiness. I'm the Angel of Chaos, She's The Demon of Peace. And she's doing what she can to help me create a personal peace, while I indulge in some of her more harmless chaos. This woman is the literal woman of my dreams and I some how made her into something more powerful than even us. When she comes back, things are gonna be very good from here on.

And that is the end of The Adventures of S.T. Musician Chapter 9: A Strange Yet Satisfying Conclusion. Hope you all enjoyed. There may be more stories to continue from this, but for now, it's over. Take care, Stay Safe, Stay Tuned For More.

Picking up Where this Left Off:

S.T. was texting on the phone at outside the hospital, he was angry and sad. The text said.

S.T.: I don't know who you think you are, but if you ever pull that crap on me again, you don't have to worry about charging me, I will charge you for entrapment.

You're probably wondering why after such a loving reunion went sideways right away. Well after meeting Winter's sister, he had the unfortunate luxury of meeting her mother. While she was polite and cordial to him, it turned out, she wanted to use him to go against the sister. After a seeing a few things off about the place, she had him barred from the hospital despite Winter still wanting him there. After this incident he went to the nearby woods to cry to whatever was out there.

S.T.: You gave me all the signs, you lied to me, you deceived me, you made me think things were getting better. Only to pulls this shit on me. I can't even go to my allies for help as they are trying to solve their own problems. I'm nothing, I'm NO ONE!!!! I NEVER EVEN WANTED TO COME TO THIS WORLD YET YOU KEPT GIVING ME REASONS TO STAY!!! Why?!!! Because I was some punching bag to you? Because my work isn't done yet? GIVE ME A FUCKING ANSWER!!!

Eventually he wiped his tears and went home. Not even talking to anyone, he was just gonna lay down on his bed until he starved to death. But despite that, something was nagging at him to get help. He called the hotline they talked him out of it and the very next day, he was able to see Light Harmony again.

Light Harmony: What happened S.T.?

S.T.: It turns out her mother is just as bad as the scum of this city. Only she does it in a white collar way. I thought she was the good one of the two, but I was wrong. She was gaslighting her daughter, took away numbers for lawyers that could have helped her and even made her think I was responsible. However despite all that, she just won't stop calling me. She made it clear the mother is responsible and I even tried to warn them about her the last time I saw her. The mother had me barred, so Winter tried to make her relent, just so she can see me one last time. She told me to come before visiting hours and told me to kill time. I found out that an old psychiatry place that I was admitted to as a child was next door, so I thought I check my old records, see if therapy would be the way to go after all this was over. When visiting hours came, I went up, they said I wasn't allowed in that the mother didn't tell the staff, even though she not only told Winter, but I even gave Winter her number by request. It was entrapment, she knew of my temper and tried to have me cause a big enough scene to have me arrested. It was the breaking point for me. I almost killed myself last night.

Light: Not again.

Harmony: You were so good at keeping a lid on it, they must have done you real dirty.

S.T.: She was able to see me through the guard door glass, but that was it. I even managed to give them a piece of my mind and sent some complaints about my experience there. Even warn them about the mother. I called the Hotline and honestly, this was the wake up call I needed. I'm seeking therapy.

Harmony: Well that's good for you.

S.T.: Only problem is, that my records were destroyed, so I'm back to square one. That said, I'm gonna do the one thing I never thought I'd do. I'm letting her go.

Harmony: You're giving up already?

S.T.: Not quite. See, it's not a break up. But I'm gonna let go a lot of obligation and obsession with her, because while I did try to be there for her, it got in the way of my other priorities. I mean look at me, I've been wearing the same damn clothes for a month. If this weren't a fictional story, I'd be reeking.

Light: You got a point there. How would you do it?

S.T.: Well a relative of mine. Someone whom was very close to me, but had a lot of problems in her own life reached out to me. She wants me to go to her stepmother's birthday party. Now I have reasons I don't want to go there, but I haven't seen this relative in years, so I'm willing to endure it. Besides, my experience taught me that the situation isn't all black and white. It's not just Good and Evil. There are grey spots. I learned that when I met the sister. Despite her being a "Criminal" she in terms of characters, was a lot better than her so called "Law Abiding" Mother. It's not Good vs Evil, it's a battle of Love and Hate. So many people on both sides have an extreme of one and another in their hearts. Because one can't comprehend the other, they battle constantly and ruin any lives that get caught in the crossfire.

The phone rings.

Light: How does she always know when to call you?

S.T.: It's a good thing this time. Hello.

Winter: Hi Prince Charming.

S.T.: Hey Cinderella. Sorry I couldn't come by, but I can no longer go there unless I am 100% certain that time. That said we need to talk. Do you remember my talk with you regarding Twin Flames or Soul Mates as some say it?

Winter: Yes. I remember.

S.T.: Sometimes Twin Flames need to separate in order to have room for individual growth. That way, when it is time to get back together we can use our own experiences to help each other out. It's not a break up, it's more of a "See ya later." Like you always say.

Winter: I understand. I love you very much.

S.T.: I love you too. Wherever you get transferred, I hope I can visit you, but until then just wait and see.

She hangs up.

S.T.: She took that very well.

Light: Ya almost too well.

Harmony: Maybe she expected you to do this. You did say she was smarter than she looks.

S.T.: Ya, but that said, I was able to get her off the drugs. All she has to worry about other than smoke cravings, is her mental health. I may see her again or hear from her again, but I gotta plan it right when it happens. Until then, I'm letting her go and moving on. But she isn't the only thing I'm letting go.

S.T. on his way to the party, went to his old home, where he lost his mother.

S.T.: Mom, I don't know if you can hear me, but I decided to let go all of my past grief including losing you. I thank you for looking after me, for bringing my true love to me and for guiding me well after your tragic death. May you Rest In Peace.

He takes out his phone, playing the following song while crying:

Afterwards, he wiped his tears but felt a presence. He knew it was his long deceased mother.

S.T.: Why are you still here? I let you go. I shouldn't need you anymore.

Mother: I chose to stay my son. It's not over yet. Just keep moving on your day.

S.T.: I'll try, but even with letting her go, I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore, she was the missing piece and I lost her. The mother's basically won.

Mother: Do what she says. Be you. What do you usually do when things are down and your friends can no longer help you.

S.T.: My family.

The night goes by and S.T. is back home after a long grueling, yet still welcoming party. He reunites with Light Harmony and they never seen him happier. If not a little drunk.

S.T.: I was able to reconcile with the stepmother, it turns out that my relative's father did her and many women dirty. Which doesn't surprise me, there was one time when he did something very nasty to his own daughter and a couple of.....friends. No....no.....NO WAY!!!

Light Harmony: What is it S.T.?

S.T.: If what I am thinking is accurate, you're about to see a major imbalance of emotions.

Fun fact, when S.T. remembers a revelation of his past, it puts him at an emotional imbalance. If it's a memory he was trying to remember it is a sign of relief.

S.T.: She was my cousin's friend, she was one of my Uncle's victims.

Followed by a moment of disgust.

S.T.: Oh my GOD!! SHE WAS MY COUSIN'S FRIEND!!! SHE WAS ONE OF MY UNCLE'S VICTIMS!!!

Light Harmony look on him with shock and sympathy as he was on the verge of throwing up. Then of course the third stage of the emotional imbalance. Justified homicidal rage.

S.T.: That son of a bitch. That no good rotten, goddamn SON OF A BITCH!!! THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME!! HE'S FUCKING DEAD!!!

Followed by momentary relief and the realization of what he has to do.

S.T.: When I was a teen there was a corrupt member of the Desperadoes. He was my Uncle, did many unspeakable things to children. Molested girls and corrupted boys. I met her when she was a kid and I was just turning 18, she was one of my cousin's friends. We tried to stop him, but his father, my Grandfather had used his Veto to protect him. Said grandfather is dead now, it's open season and I'm about to cash that in.

At that moment S.T. told everyone on all sides of the law, including Innocence and it was all a matter of time until someone gets to him first. Until then all S.T. could do is wait and move on with his life. So far things did get better, the building got more peaceful and Wannabe Dark Divide was slowly dwindling to the point where they finally became afraid of S.T. and Light Harmony even if they deny it. They never once tried to start a fight with them save for the shit disturbers that didn't get the memo.

S.T.: At this point there's nothing we can do that they haven't done themselves. Their drugs, their terrorist lifestyle and their pathetic grudges are gonna kill them one day. We just have to keep our heads above water until then. For once we honestly just have to do nothing except live our lives. Which is what I'm doing.

Light Harmony: Agreed. Still I'm surprised she hasn't called you yet.

S.T.: True, but she's in a new place. Besides even if she did I have to stress further that I have to be allowed to be there. Once that happens I'm taking the next train out of there.

The Phone Rings. First it was Winter.

Winter: Hi Prince Charming. Was just calling you to let you know that I got my transfer. You're allowed to visit if you wan-

The phone gets taken from her and I hear a man's voice. It was the doctor at the new facility.

Doctor: Who might this be?

S.T.: My name is Shane, I'm Winter's boyfriend.

Doctor: You're Prince Charming?!! Damn, I thought she was being delusional. Your girlfriend is a very nice person and is a very skilled dancer.

S.T.: Ya, I know, I danced with her. I was actually hoping to see her if possible.

Doctor: Well visiting hours are 9 AM to 9 PM.

Winter takes the phone back.

Winter: Come see me when you can.

S.T.: It will take a while, but I will come see you. No matter what it takes. See ya later Cinderella.

Winter: Bye Prince Charming.

They hang up.

S.T.: That was almost too easy. I feel like I may be walking into another trap.....oh what the Hell I'll spring it anyway. If not for the weird winter weather it would have been a play on words. I noticed lately it's been going back and forth between Winter Weather and Spring Weather. Maybe she's controlling it somehow, she is born under the Air element. I was born under Fire, that explains why we're compatible. It will take a while but I must prepare to go. I'm taking a real big leap of faith on this. Wish me luck.

Light Harmony: Good Luck.

To be continued.

S.T.: I'm S.T. Musician, here with another special message. Suicide and the thoughts that lead to it are very serious. Some either try to repress them, others like myself tried to channel them by willing to sacrifice myself for better causes, while others simply can't handle the pressures life has to offer and want to end it soon. I'm here to tell you there is hope. First wherever you are look up your local suicide hotline. Then when you feel ready for it, seek help through various means, be it professional mental health practitioners or therapy places that cater to your respective cultures. Case in point, my creator's Ojibwe so I recommend to many natives in the Greater Toronto Area, to go to Two Spirited People of The First Nations. A native based organization located in Front Street and Fredrick. My creator was not only able to get the help he needs, but even was able to get help he didn't expect to need. If he can do it you can do it. Until then, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Ever since I took the first steps of changing my life for the better, good things have been happening to me. Much like my trademark bad luck, these things happen to be pin point accurate. And while I hold onto and appreciate every good thing that comes to me, it's starting to freak me out a little on how it's happening. This is gonna sound weird and you all are entitled to your own opinions on the matter. Some people have certain beliefs that would make it more believable to them, while others, whether they have beliefs or not, would probably think I was fucking nuts about what I am about to say right now.

Over the years I started seeing, strange stuff in my life. Border-lining on supernatural. I witnessed many small glimpses of paranormal events, that I will not go into detail with, but I do welcome those to decide whether they believe me or not on this.

Sometimes I get a small glimpse of good weirdness as I like to call it. In which a strange unexplainable thing happens to me, but at the same time something good comes out of it. For example, like I see a strange light in the sky and when it's over I somehow made $20.

In this case this was something that went on for a long time. Throughout the teen years to my early adult years, I've witnessed some strange phenomena. Dreams that seem as real as this world, voices calling for help only I or few others could hear and somehow running into people that understand me more and have helped me out a long the way. Not to mention witnessing stuff that leads me to believe that there is something out there, that science and logic alone cannot explain and it's influencing this world in ways even I cannot comprehend or imagine. It took me well into my early 30s to figure out the strange happenings of my own life and the messed up part of it, it involves something both Science and the Unknown have in common believing is real: Time Travel.

For context, I noticed a few things in my life in hindsight, that lead me to believe that somehow, time travel has in fact happened and I just caught on to the last part of a Stable Time Loop. Now I could be all wrong and this could be just one big delusion, but even if I was right. Talking about this stuff never worked well in the past:

However, while it does sound out there, I am a firm believer in Time Travel in many forms, including the paradoxes most Science Fiction Media has talked about when the genre started:

However, before I explain my experience, I would like to show that there has been somewhat proof that Time Travel is possible in most forms.

Including but not limited to Accidental Time Travel:

How I Became Obsessed With Accidental Time Travel

The Mandela Affect:

Or in my case, prophetic dreams I had as a teen, that I just figured out today. The short end of it, is that after recent events, I noticed that certain people in my life both those I've known and those I just met, have changed their appearance and lives in a way that I dreamed about years ago. I lucid dream about a lot of things and even used things on the net to help me do it more better. A lot of things have happened recently that lead me to believe that some how these current incarnations of the people I met are in one way or another, travelling through time to contact their past selves as well as those they knew today in different points of time in the past. I myself was no exception. Someone very close to me has slowly but surely bared a resemblance of someone I dreamed about in the past. Someone whom in my dream was coming to meet me soon. It leads me to believe that be it through very advanced science or very adept magic, this person some how contacted me in my dreams in an effort for me to search for them in the future. It sounds crazy, I know and it's even freaking me the fuck out, but many things have happened lately that have pointed in that direction. Including but not limited, to certain enemies of mine somehow figuratively and literally being erased from existence. Not only that, but events have transpired in my neck of the woods that seemed to make it more peaceful.

It's strange, it's crazy, it's unbelievable, but I love every minute of it. It's made me happy and has given me hope in the future.

Now to those that do believe I am curious, has there ever been things you couldn't explain that happened to you in the course of your life. Things that seem bizarre, but depending on the circumstances moved you forward in life? Think about it.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

So far in the first 7 days of this month, there has been no sign of any drama in my personal life. Which is good, because if I can make it a week, I can make it longer. Yet here's where things get strange. I'm not sure, if it's merely my brain evolving or maturing or if maybe something supernatural is at play, but the people I've had problems with have started to become less than nothing to me. For context, whenever I pass them by, they say anything to piss me off and pick a fight with them. Normally I would react, simply because their words are disgusting, but I ignore them. However as I ignore them, I noticed something. At least in my perspective, their words became less coherent. It was like whatever they said was becoming "Blah Blah Blah" to me. Not only that, but they're sounding like their voices are fading, like a volume button slowly turning down.

While I was happy that they didn't bother me as much as they used to, I was thinking "Why now?"

It wasn't until I realized recently that I got my answer. Whether it's through my own subconscious or maybe something really supernatural has been occurring lately, but essentially to put it lightly, it was like they were being Erased From Existence.

It was then and there I realized something. Years ago, I was at a very low point and did something very bad to myself to cause a drug trip so horrifying, that I never did that again. Bluntly speaking, I was trying to get a spiritual vision, similar to how Chavez gave one to Billy The Kid and the Regulators. With just as similar, but not so funny results. Let's just say I got one. Among most things I saw, I saw that if I didn't change my life then and there, I'd be erased from existence. I don't fear death. If it's my time to go, it's my time to go. What I feared most of all, was that the legacy I leave behind was not gonna be a good one. I feared that people would remember me for all the negative stuff in my life and the negative stuff I perpetuated. I feared that in all essence, that people would forget about me long after I'm gone. Not everyone fits in the history books. To the point where no one would even know my name.

Death is merciful compared to that.

However, while it took me 4 years to sort out my personal bullshit, which some still needs cleaning up. I was able to, do a lot better than those that haven't hit rock bottom yet. Even saving others from the same fate I thought was waiting for me. Then I realized, the people I am against, both on and offline. They're still stuck. They never changed their ways and are gonna continue to destroy themselves or each other, if they keep going the way they are going. They are not only dying from it, but barely anyone remembers them even if they met them a few minutes ago. They were being erased. My personal fear, became their undoing. And I've never been happier.

Sooner or later, even if it takes months to a year, these people will cease to exist and I will continue living my own life to the fullest. They were my biggest obstacle in my life and I overcame them. They may claim victory because I never fought them, but I claim the ultimate win because as long as I stay away from them, they got no one to hurt but themselves. Others in my area have finally gotten wise to them, they want nothing to do with them. They're all alone, old and done for. They can't even stand each other. They are just a bunch of fucking clowns. They don't even exist to me. I could go on.

Point being is sometimes ignoring them does work and part of why it's so hard often, is because it takes too long. However as the old saying goes. "Good things come to those who wait." I waited 27 years for my life to balance itself out and the only thing that was dragging me back was people like that. But the shackles have finally worn out. I've begun to feel free.

For the first time in my whole rotten life, it feels good. It feels good to not have to deal with this bullshit anymore, knowing that it's no longer a priority to me. It never even was, I just had to grow up more, to see the results I never seen as a kid. I've been losing weight and getting healthier, becoming more active, exploring worlds I never explored before just for the hell of it, loosened up, had fun and all around have had good days in a row, without hinderance. All I had to do was simply wait and just in time too, because in 4 weeks, I will have officially lived to see my next birthday. Which is a common goal among even the most fallen of souls.

If I, a stubborn, 32 year old, soon to be 33 year old autistic man, who's put up with bullshit both on and offline for 26 - 27 years, could get out of this funk after a long battle against it. So can you. Enjoy life, ignore things that don't take priority and just simply live until you see the results. Some come quick, some take a life time, but all are worth it.

Take care, Stay Safe and Stay Tuned For More.

Picking Up Where This Left Off:

S.T. was pacing back and forth in Light Harmony's Pad, smoking like a mad man while Light Harmony sits there.

Harmony: I know you're feeling intense, but you've been like that for a couple of days.

S.T.: I know, I know. I am just beside myself right now. I hope to be both right and wrong. Right in knowing where she is, wrong in that it's that place. That fucking place she happens to be in.

Light: Maybe call them and see if she's there. Then go.

S.T.: Good idea.

S.T. Dials the number.

Receptionist: Fair City Hospital, how my I direct your call?

S.T.: Yes, my name is Shane and I was wondering if you have a Winter in there.

Reception: Let me check.......yes we do. The 10th Floor Inpatient Mental Ward. Now who are you in relation to this patient?

S.T.: I'm her boyfriend.

Reception: Wait. Did she ever at least once refer to you as Prince Charming?

S.T. Freezes for a second, but then answers.

S.T.: Yes it was her nickname for me.

Reception: She's been asking about you for days. Visting hours are 4 PM on weekdays and 9 AM on Weekends. You can visit her then.

S.T.: Thank you very much. Bye.

He hangs up.

S.T.: She's there, goddammit. It's literally within walking distance of my building. Ok I'm gonna do it. Might as well kill two birds with one stone. I'll go in there. See how she's doing and face this old fear once and for all.

Light Harmony: Good luck.

S.T. treks up the path. It took him a bridge cross and many streets but he made it to the hospital on foot. He waits for it to be 4pm and walks in. He goes up 10 floors and is in a small room with elevators and a one way door with tough glass. With a phone to call the receptionist.

S.T.: I'm here to visit Winter.

Receptionist: Who are you in relation to her?

S.T.: My name's Shane. I'm her boyfriend.

Receptionist: You're the one that called. Ok come in and just hand over anything that's contraband.

S.T. walks in, hands his smokes and lighter into the reception and signs in. Winter walks out in a hospital gown and he can't believe her eyes.

S.T.: I was right, you do look good in anything.

Winter: Hi Prince Charming.

S.T.: How's it going Cinderella?!

They hug each other, like they haven't seen each other for years.

S.T.: I was worried I was never gonna see you again. Are you ok?

Winter: I'm fine, they got me on medication and I've been clean for a few days. The only thing I crave now is cigarettes. You got one?

S.T.: I just turned them over to the receptionist. I'll see if they can give you some, but it's so good to see you again.

She shows me to her room. A basic private room with a nightstand with drawers. She also had some snacks and papers around. Mostly contacts. S.T. inspects the contacts and see her mother, her father and another woman's number is on there.

S.T.: Are these your family's numbers?

Winter: Ya, my mother, my father and my Sister's. She's coming soon, do you wish to meet her?

S.T.: Well of course. One of my goals was to make sure, you saw your family again.

Winter: Great. I can't wait for you to meet them. Until then let's dance.

They danced, then just as they were getting close the sister shows up. She's older, wears heavy winter clothes, has red hair and brown eyes like her little sister. They stopped having an awkward moment.

Sister: Am I interrupting anything?

S.T.: Oh sorry, this is awkward. I'm Shane. And you are?

Sister: The name's Innocence. Nice to meet you.

They shake hands and S.T. sees a very familiar mark. It was the symbol of his Order's enemy faction. Confirming that his girlfriend is part of that order by blood.

Innocence: I'm related to the Order of The Devil's Decision. My family was part of it for a while, before some of them converted to the Order of Awakening. That symbol on your concert jacket is a dead giveaway, but relax. I'm not your enemy and judging by your look, you don't wish to be mine.

S.T.: Ya, what happened between you two was near the beginning of my time and ended when I became a Superhero. But that said, even if they're not converted, there's still some out there that should know. Including your father.

Innocence: Ah yes, the Devil with the Heart. I understand, but I don't think he'd be much help. Let's just say what Winter has in terms of mental problems, he has in physical. Unlike certain members whom either retired or became neutral pacifists, he never stopped fighting until it almost killed him.

S.T.: Well tell him for me that The Awakening's lost son, is keeping the Devil's Daughter safe. He deserves closure at least. Even if I expected more. Anyway, let's disregard titles for now. First of all I want to assure you, I have no ill intentions towards your sister. We literally met by chance at the same building of Ill reputes. I will happily tell you, who's responsible for it, if it helps.

S.T. talks about aspects of his life and mentions meeting Winter and the mayhem that ensued.

Innocence: Wow. You lead just as fucked up of a life as she did. I can see why she sought you out. Look. I know we just met and clearly, the darkside of your life aside, you're a good person. I have a way of sensing that. However as her older sister, I want you to promise me, promise me that you keep her safe.

She gave him the look. A look many women give to men, when they let them know they are serious.

S.T.: Dammit, I knew I was gonna get the sister talk. Look. I will try to keep her safe to the best of my ability. I can't control circumstances beyond me, but I will do my best. In fact I was already finding ways of at least curing her physical dependency on drugs.

Innocence: How so?

S.T.: It's a formula I have been working on. It was meant for weight loss, but when I found out the detox properties, I figured it could flush out the lingering chemicals in her system, while places like this are able to handle the mental addiction. I didn't give it to her before, because I was worried, she was in so deep, the detox would shock her.

Innocence: How did you make it. I have to know.

S.T.: White tea for weight loss, Peppermint tea for stress, Chlorophyll for Detox, Aloe Vera for internal healing and Gatorade Mix for hydration and flavour. I figure if you're gonna drink for your health it may as well taste good. I call it the CIEIR Potion.

Innocence: Ok then. Would you be able to bring this to her next time?

S.T.: I never been in this section of the hospital before, last I went here was when my mother died.

Innocence: I'm sorry to hear that. I can see why this is hard for you. Look, in case of anything keep the numbers.

S.T.: Ok then.

She gives S.T. a hug and waves to Winter before leaving.

S.T.: She seems nice, but I have my suspicions. Nothing personal. I just met her.

Winter: I understand, but I love her and trust her and she does seem to like you, so that's a plus.

S.T.: Well it was nice visiting you, but I do have to go. Not just because it's late or anything, but if I'm gonna come back here. I am at least gonna give you some sweets and smokes and whatever you need.

Winter: Before you go I want to ask you something.

S.T.: Ya, what is it?

Winter: Can I have your phone number?

S.T. was at first shocked when she said that, but smiled. He wrote the number down.

S.T.: Call me whenever.

Winter: Ok then. Bye Prince Charming. I love you.

S.T.: See you later Cinderella. I love you too.

S.T. Leaves the Hospitial has a smoke and sighs with relief. He heads back to Light Harmony's pad with a smile on his face.

Light: S.T.? Are you ok? Are you happy or did you go insane?

Harmony: How did it go?

S.T.: Well so far in terms of her, she's ok for now. She's got no access to narcotics and has been clean for the days I snapped about her bust. The staff seem friendly, but very strict. I also met the first of her family. Her sister. She seems to like me and sister talk aside approves of the relationship. However maybe it's because I just met her, I feel like she's sneaky. Not in a bad way, mind you, just that I can tell with certain people. She's hiding some things, but I won't pry. The main focus is her. The Dad's a dead end, but they are both part of the Order of The Devil's Decision. I saw the mark. That's the difference between them and my order. We don't brand ourselves.

Light Harmony: Holy shit. So how did they become friends?

S.T.: When I was a kid, I first moved to Fair City at 5 years old, was sheltered from most of the crime in the city, save for any cocky kids part of the criminal element families, picking fights with me at school. It's been like that until I was in High School. What I didn't know until members of my own family told me, was that this war has been going on all around us for a long time. Awakening was just getting it's foot in the world and my family was part of warring order factions that were at each other's throats. Each of these factions had a unique theme. Some were based on cowboys of the old west, some were based on more spiritual stuff, while there were others whom thought using the image of evil would scare away evil. That's where The Order of The Devil's Decision came in. They were enemies of the Order of The Desperados, my Family's Order. Now needless to say, they weren't really heroes or villains. They were a mix of both, their main priorities despite their differences was the protection of their families. But it was little stupid differences that divided them to the point where they were willing to go to war with each other. But like us, they risked breaking the law to achieve justice. It's why I didn't join the Order of Awakening, but still represented anyway. Some members lucky enough to survive became part of it. The main people are those that recruited me, but right now there's over millions of members of the order all over the world. Much like me, my mother was a very well respected part of the order, because she did try her best to keep the peace for the sake of her children. Even when I didn't want to, they helped me in many ways. Including protecting me until I was old enough to protect myself and backing me up should I be in danger that I couldn't handle. It's why I consult them every now and then, so they at least know I'm ok. Eventually there was a time when the Order brought peace, but now that I think about it, they didn't really seem to end the war. Everything that these Wannabes are doing, are bastardized versions of what Dark Divide and these Orders have done in the past. But it's a stretch.

Light Harmony looked at S.T. in shock.

Light: So let me get this straight. You're the native son raised by cowboys, who were at war with literal Devils trying to be good and you two kids never once ran into each other until after the war supposedly ended and because others can't let go of past bullshit, that shouldn't even concern them in the first place, they're keeping you apart out of spite while trying to keep that war going?

Harmony: Why didn't you tell us this before?

S.T.: It's not something I like to talk about openly, unless I needed help that even CIEIRMusic can't handle. Besides, I thought the past was past. Never thought it would haunt me like this. Former School bullies, using PC tactics as an excuse to hurt people of all races that disagree with them, despite hanging out with said races they claim to hate, only because they have a mutual hatred of me, you and Winter. So seeing us all together must have made them think something was up and they basically did the only thing they did right by the Dark Divide name. Divide and Conquer.

Light: I see. So what do we do now?

S.T.: For now, I'm gonna continue to see her and when the time is right, she's getting that potion.

The next day arrives and he meets the mother at the asylum. The conversation was short, but it was enough for him to gauge her. After the day ends, he hangs out at Light Harmony's pad.

S.T.: The mom's name is Guinevere. She seems to be too good to be true an exact opposite of Innocence. A law school student, studying law in all it's forms. She even went so far as to call me "son" when I told her about my past. However something seemed off and it's throwing off my intuition.

Harmony: How so?

S.T.: For starters I barely know the mother and sister so it's hard to tell whom is really truthful. However, the mother didn't want me to tell Innocence that she visited. However I had to inform her, that the sister contacted me before she did. She gave me a look as if she didn't see that coming. So she said a lot of nasty things, calling her a controller, a liar and a thief to boot. And while I have my suspicions myself and did my usual method when I realized I stepped into drama (Pretend to agree until you're within running distance.) all I could think of is "What kind of mother would outright say this about her own daughter." Then I found out it was because much like myself, she was sheltered from the Order Wars and when she found out her husband was a fighter in them, she divorced him and judged him for his criminal activates rather than the motive behind them.

Light: So if you suspect her so much, why don't you tell her off?

S.T.: Well it's a bit complicated. For starters, I thought maybe she was just trying to escape the life, like I initially did. However the main reason was I didn't know the full extent of her relationship with Winter, so I wanted to see how winter would react to me meeting her. I was polite, save for a few swears, blunt, but apologetic. Basically I gave her reasons to both like and hate me and see which outweighs. That said I didn't bring the formula that day because I feared she might suspect I was gonna smuggle her booze or something. It has to be a time when it's just me and her. Luckily for me, this person is so obsessed with her studies, she barely spends time with her daughter. So if I can go at the earliest possible convenience tomorrow. I might have a chance.

Harmony: Excellent. So how are you gonna get the potion in?

S.T.: You'll see.....

The very next day. S.T. Picks up some snacks and drinks. Two Yop Drinks and 3 Gatorade Fit Bottles. With two small Smartfood Popcorn Bags and Pepperoni Sticks. He takes them home, drinks the Fit drinks, rinses them out good and pours a fresh batch of the CIEIR Potion into them. The label able to cover any suspicious colour change in the bottle. Light Harmony watches in awe and disbelief.

Light: Wow, I never thought you had a rebellious side. What you're doing, could get you into trouble when caught. What's the third one for?

S.T.: It's a long shot, but I was thinking maybe I could get one of the relatives to get her father the bottle. I figure if it can help her, it could help him with what's hurting him.

Harmony: Makes sense, even if he's too fucked up to do anything himself, giving him that boost would help him with not only that, but setting his affairs in order. Kinda like Nicolas Flamel.

S.T.: Well let's just hope I can get it there.

After dodging certain elements on the way and changing his route, to shake off the scumbag he saw before. S.T. goes to the hospital on Visiting Hours and puts the drinks at the bottom of the bag. He goes to the room again.

Receptionist: Oh it's you again. What's in the bag.

S.T.: Well I saw that she had some snacks in her room and I thought maybe it would be nice to her, to get her more. Nothing fancy. Just some popcorn, some meat sticks and some gatorade. She's a bit of a health nut, so I thought she'd like to try the new Fit version.

Receptionist: Well ok then. Come on in.

S.T.: Thinking: That was too easy. Thank you.

S.T. walks in and Winter and him hug again in greeting while we go to her private room to have some snacks. When they are within an earshot.

S.T.: The formula's in the bag. It's in the Gatorade bottles. I also have your favourite yogurt drinks as a chaser in case you don't like the taste.

Winter: Gotcha.

They go to the room and drink down the bottles first. Then we enjoy our snacks, like it's a typical date. Even at one point have pretend sword fights with the pepperoni sticks. An orderly comes in. It turns out he was helping her with legal aid and a means to find housing. S.T. even recommended lawyers from his own repertoire. They tried dancing again, but for some reason, the staff directed them to the TV Room this time. Which irritated them both, but they made the most of it. When it was time to go. We said our goodbyes and there was hope he'd see her tomorrow. He goes to Light Harmony's Pad.

S.T.: Mission Accomplished. I was able to get her the drink and leave a bottle out for her dad.

Light Harmony: Holy shit. You actually did it?

S.T.: Yep. Now remember. That sample size I gave the other person, was enough for him to get flushed and move out. However, I gave her enough for a large drinking glass. I had to wait until she was naturally detoxing so that it'd be less painful when it happens. I just have to wait for a sign. Any sign.

The next day happens. S.T. was hanging out at home. He hears the phone ring. It's Winter.

S.T.: Hello?

Winter: Hi Prince Charming.

S.T.: Hi Cinderella. Don't worry I'm coming to visit you soon, but what's up?

Winter: Well I don't know what you put in that potion, but it's making me hungry. Really hungry. Not even the hospital food is cutting it anymore.

S.T.: Was it like you never eaten before?

Winter: Yes.

S.T.: Sit tight I'll be right there by the hours.

Winter: Why not come early?

S.T.: I'd love to but rules are rules, plus I am bringing you something special.

Light Harmony shows up at S.T.'s home as he's working on more bottles of potion.

Harmony: Why are you using the generic bottles this time.

S.T.: They didn't have the Fit Bottles so I needed another Electrolyte based company with a full covering label.

Light: And why do you have your wallet out.

S.T.: Do you remember the drugs I told you about she did?

Light Harmony: Yes, Pot, Crack, Meth, just to name a few.

S.T.: Exactly, Pot aside, she's mostly taken stimulants. With her line of work, she needed to stay up as late as it took to get her job done. She was a functional addict, but the shit became too much for her to handle. Now what's the one thing stimulants do that both helps and hinder the body?

Light: On top of keeping people awake too long, it reduces their appetite. Even if they're starving they can't feel it.

S.T.: The Deadly Demoness is an omnivore, she'll eat anything to survive long enough to work, flirt or fight another day. One time when I had her over for dinner, she literally stuck her hand in a boiling pot just to get a hot dog. And for a short skinny girl, she ate more than I did. That was her on the stuff.

Light Harmony: Oh shit. You don't mean....

S.T.: Ya, my potion worked too well. Her appetite is coming back with a vengeance and if I don't get her some food as soon as possible, she might get desperate and eat one of the patients.....granted not literally, but considering it's either that or hospitial food....

Light: I get the picture.

Harmony: So how are you gonna feed her.

S.T.: Well, first I'm gonna get the usual snacks, but I thought maybe I get her some fast food too. But essentially healthy or junk, she needs the following. Protein, Carbohydrates, Fats, Minerals and Water. Just enough to stabilize her appetite and in turn let the potion do it's job better in the other aspects of her health department. But that's not what scares me.

Light: What is it?

S.T.: I won't say too much, because I want to keep the T rating, but essentially when I first took the potion, it made certain parts of me....stronger.

Harmony: Oh.....OH!!!! You mean it heightens sexual potency?

Light: The girl was already all over you without it, her drinking that probably increased it 10 fold. You basically created a love monster.

S.T.: What have I done? WHAT HAVE I DONE?!!

Harmony: I warned you, that one day, that girl is gonna eat you alive. Get her food NOW!!!

S.T. runs to the convenience store to get the snacks needed. Then runs to the nearest burger restaurant on the way, to order burgers. One for him and one for her. He rushes over to the hosptial quick. The receptionist shocked that he arrived on the dot this time.

S.T.: I came here as soon as she told me she was hungry. All I got is more clothes, snacks and a burger with her toppings on it.

They let him in right away and he gives Winter the following: A burger with all the trimmings, the biggest pepperoni sticks he can find, some popcorn, cookies, two bottles of caramel flavoured chocolate milk and more CIEIR Potion.

S.T.: I came as soon as I could, I hope you're not starving too much.

She eats the snacks happily and mows down on the burger like she hasn't eaten in days. When she reached her limit, she shared whatever she couldn't eat with S.T. and her fellow patients.

Winter: That hit the spot and just in time for the next meal too. Thank you. This is a strange question, but I always liked your long hair. Do you think I can braid it?

This stunned S.T.

S.T.: I haven't had anyone braid my hair since I was a kid. Sure, go nuts.

She not only braids his hair, but the hair of a fellow patient. He admires it in the mirror.

S.T.: It's a bit like Pippi Longstocking, but I like it. However I can't keep it on forever. When I leave I have to undo it, so the WDD doesn't suspect where I've been going the past couple of days. I took a big risk when I gave you that potion the last time. Speaking of which, were you able to get the bottle to your dad?

Winter: No. Nor did I see my mother or sister take it.

S.T. checks the drawer where he last put the bottle it was gone. He was suspicious, but he shrugged it off.

S.T.: Eh, some orderly must have thought it expired or something and threw it away. No matter I can always try again another time.

They dance, only this time the orderlies even bobbed along with it when they saw them. They look and almost fall over.

S.T.: Well it looks like we have an audience. Sorry I hope we weren't being inappropriate.

Orderly: Nah it's fine, just try not to disrupt the other patients.

They continued to dance until they were tired. Then they said their usual goodbyes. The mother texted S.T. pressuring him about the lawyer and the sister got a good laugh at his hair braid, but it was all a good day regardless. He gets home and hangs out at Light Harmony's Pad.

Light: How did it go?

Harmony: Did she eat the patients?

S.T.: No, I got to her in time. Her appetite has stabilized and she braided my hair.

He shows them the picture. They break into laughter.

Harmony: Why Shane, that's a side I never seen of you before.

Light: Did she paint your nails too?

S.T.: Laugh it up, but I let her do it for a reason. I haven't done a braid since I was a kid. Be it sisters, cousins or even my mother and her friends, they've all took turns doing it. Some styles I liked, some I hated, but all was in good fun. It was like being a kid again.

Harmony: In all seriousness, it's nice you indulge in your fun side more. Even though you took care of us, fun was there, but it was lacking. She's really bringing out the best of you.

S.T.: I just got to give her the potion one more time. My intuition is telling me I have to give her at least a dose a day for three days. On that day I'm gonna see if her addictions are at an all time low.

Light Harmony: Good luck with that. If only you can solve your personal problems like you did with hers.

S.T.: Ya, I was right. The rumours did spread. Even the head boss of the volunteer program and the housing manager, think I'm the very things these people that I've fought are. It's not fair, but I given all the defense I can get. Still, as long as I am able to see her again, things should be fine.

To be continued......

Picking Up Where This Left Off:

It has been a few days since S.T. Musician and Deadly Demoness became an item and while things were rocky around the building, they made it work one way or another. Unfortunately an incident happened to him that traumatized him. A local hooker whom was on everything including fentanyl was sneaking around the hallways. Trying to find a way to break into people's homes and steal their stuff, she spots him, grabs him but he runs to the nearest security guard. Scaring her off. He is now currently in Light Harmony's Pad, smoking a joint while shaking.

Light: Oh my God S.T. what happened.

S.T.: Well, let's just say this crazy bitch was everything they warned about me regarding my girl. She grabbed me courting style, I threatened her to get her to let go and she wouldn't stop following me. If not for security, I would have been raped, robbed or worse. It was like running into Divide again.

Harmony: Oh my God, Shane. I am so sorry. I know we dealt with people like this before with bravery and strong will, but I never seen you this scared before.

S.T.: I'm just glad she didn't see it. Either she'd be like other girls and assume I was leaving her for...that or she'd probably kill her and risk going to jail again.

Light: I'm sure she'll understand given the circumstances she went through.

Harmony: Ya, I mean she probably went through it herself from a guy. Talk to her next chance you get.

S.T. Leaves home and finds The Deadly Demoness again. He tries to be happy for her, but she knows something happened to him. They go to his house and she spent most of it, changing her outfit.

S.T.: She was everything they warned me about you. And I was more worried of what you'd think if you saw that than most of the things that worried me that day. The fucked up part about this, is it isn't the first time. Divide is one thing, but I was almost a victim to a lot of shit.

Winter: Look, things like this happen all the time, I don't bat an eye on it myself. Don't get me wrong, I understand why this shocks you, but you gotta snap out of it. There are many reasons why I chose you among most guys, I won't get into them now as I am very busy and in a hurry, but I wouldn't let that go because some fetty head bitch tries to take you from me.

S.T.: You know what's really fucked up about this day? Is that what you're saying makes sense. The messed up part is, I needed someone to give me that verbal swift kick in the ass in the right direction.

He slouches a bit as if everything just overwhelmed him. She picks him up and takes him to his computer. She puts some music on and they dance. Now this isn't the first time they danced together. To relieve tension despite their mutual promise of taking it slow, as well as to simply have a good time in general. But this time they needed it. The daylight came and they were both going out the door.

Winter: Look just promise me one thing, in case we don't see each other for a while.

S.T.: Ya, what is it.

Winter: Be you. That's all I ask. Just be you.

S.T.: I'll try my best, but I get the feeling this isn't over yet.

They go outside and race across the intersection to their usual hangout. He was gonna follow her, but he heard a voice.

Winter: No matter what happens, don't follow me. You can look, but don't follow me.

This caused him to freeze and turn the other direction. A day or so goes by and he looks for her. She leaves clues to her wherabouts and two people are watching her out the window. One a member of Wannabe Dark Divide and the other, what looked like a local scumbag that had no stake in it. Said scumbag tried to tell him, she was out there, but he was on his telepathic honor not to follow her. So he went to his room to clean it up more in hopes she'd simply visit him. The next day comes and the Boss "Father" comes up to him.

Boss "Father": Winter's in jail. She broke a few car windows and she got arrested yesterday. I thought you should know.

S.T. was shocked, flabbergasted. She was having a good day the last time she seen him and now this happened. However as he was walking upstairs to run an errand for an old friend, he pieced it together.

S.T.: Those guys were watching out the window. They were watching her get busted. I could have saved her then, but she told me not to. She knew she was gonna get in trouble and she didn't want me to save her, but it was those guys that manipulated the law I hold so sacred, to hurt her. They hated her. They hated me. They hated seeing us both together.

After he runs his errand he runs around all over town and in the building screaming like he never screamed before.

S.T. Musicians: YOU RAT GOOF BASTARDS!!!!

While they piped back with their usual nonsense some of them were shocked, scared, even petrified by how loud S.T. could scream. Wannabe Dark was even leaning on a wall trying to drown it out. Once he calmed he was just gonna go to his apartment and cool off, but he sees one of their associates look at him funny.

S.T.: What the fuck are you looking at!? You're all rat bastards and goofs!!

He takes the stairs and goes up, only to find him and his friend, whom lives on the same floor come up on the elevator.

S.T.: You fucking following me now?!

The man corners him to a wall and beats his face in. Now the scary thing about S.T. is, that whenever he flies of into a rage, even the strongest of punches don't hurt him. They don't make him cry, they don't make him beg. All they do is just make him mad.

S.T.: Don't do it. *punch* Don't you fucking do it. *Punch* I'm warning you.

However while he struggled to lessen the impact, S.T. didn't fight back. On top of not wanting to break his oath, he was in clear view of security cameras and they only stopped once Light Harmony, whom lives a few doors down from him, got out to watch. He got up, bruised, bleeding, but otherwise ok. He goes up to them as the other two leave.

S.T.: How does it look.

Light: Let's just say if not for the blood, people would think you had a stroke.

Harmony: It's ok S.T. It should heal up in a couple of days.

S.T.: Now I really need a smoke.

S.T. has his smoke and then goes downstairs confronting the rest of Wannabe Dark Divide. Showing them a full view of his hurt face and still being mad.

S.T.: You see this? THIS IS A LOVE TAP COMPARED TO WHAT I GO THROUGH EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE!!! You want to finish this, let's finish this. All of you kill me right here and now or you leave me the fuck alone. Let's do it. Two of you jumped me I want four more. The odds are in your favour. COME ON!!!

Wannabe Dark: We only want one of two things from you. Leave our building or jump off it.

S.T.: I thought so. You're nothing but cowards. High School Dropouts that never grew up. You wanna know why people hate you so much, I'll give you a hint it's not your race as much as you want it to be. It's because you destroy everything you touch. You are nothing but drunk, drugged, child raping pieces of shit and I already warned you about threatening a member of the order. I just found out recently she is one too. I'm just a mere boy, they expect me to solve my problems on my own, but you do not want to know what they do to those that threatened their daughters, let alone what you did to them.

S.T. Leaves and goes to a program next door. An art based program that allows people to therapeutically draw or write any form of art that allows them to express themselves. So S.T. wrote a few posters. One marking what they did to The Deadly Demoness. One marking what they did to him. One calling out the apathetic citizens for not helping out those that really needed it. And for good measure, one for calling a certain politician wannabe for being responsible for it all. He leaves it be and they are furious.

Wannabe Dark: How does he know all this shit? Did she talk? Was he and those freak friends of his spying on us? Is he some kind of fucking rat or undercover?

Wannabe Divide: It doesn't matter, it's our words against him. If he engages us, we'll just do to him like we do to the others in our way. Label them and let the public turn against them.

S.T. and Light Harmony are out front having a smoke when they start going nuts over this. Only two people pass us by. One that doesn't live in the building and one that doesn't. The one that doesn't passes by smugly.

WDD Goon #1: So where is this order you're talking about?

S.T.: You'll find out soon especially after they already know what you did to their daughter.

WDD Goon #1: Say one more word, I will knock you the fuck out, I will fucking kill you. You already got beat up before, you can't fight for shit.

S.T.: At least I didn't fuck a 15 year old you sick bastard!!!

The man as he walked stopped, but made a slight head twitch, before walking off.

Light: I don't think he knew.

Harmony: Plus if it's anything like them, he'll just turn it on you. Speaking of which incoming.

The one that lived there walks up to S.T. specifically.

WDD Goon #2: You only do this to black people. You racist pedophile pig.

He walks off.

S.T.: It's funny, they called me all this shit before and yet when I caught them doing it I'm suddenly the doubled down one.

Light: You know what's gonna happen, he's gonna spread it among his friends and make your life and ours a living Hell.

Harmony: Let him. The fact that they reacted to this showed you're getting to them.

S.T.: And knowing that specific douchebag, since I haven't seen him since school, he's just gonna keep at it.

The very next day.

WDD Goon #2: I'm gonna tell the cops that you're a racist pig.

S.T.: So all that street boasting and you're nothing but a rat too. Why don't we tell them together, their car is right behind you.

WDD Goon #2: Fuck you and stay away from me.

S.T.: Fine, I'll just walk to the station.

S.T. does exactly that. Part of why the building has had many problems regarding the police matter was that the building is 4 blocks away from the local police station. It's one thing to call the cops, it's another when they can hear your crimes from 4 blocks away. However S.T. had an ulterior motive. He was looking for the Deadly Demoness.

Desk Officer: Can I help you sir?

S.T.: Yes, I heard Winter got arrested and was wondering if she was in the cell. She left her court papers, last time we talked and I was gonna give them back to her.

He hands the officer the papers and waits.

Desk Officer: Sorry sir, she's not in the cell or any jail cell in Fair City for that matter.

S.T.: Understood. One other thing, how do you go about making an anonymous tip. I have reason to believe she was trafficked.

Desk Officer: There's an email out there, just report it and be done with it.

S.T. Goes outside and emails them. Only tipping them off to the leader and the politician wannabe. Then he walks back up to his building while Light Harmony are standing there with Wannabe Dark. He goes up to him and says the following.

S.T.: Now you can call me a rat.

Before walking off.

Wannabe Dark: What did he mean by that?

Light Harmony: Oh I think you know.

Wannabe Dark: You don't think he went to the cops did you? He wasn't bullshitting?

Light: When S.T. Musician makes a threat or a promise, he sees to it until the end. And he has every reason to hate you for what you did. You tried to turn an old friend against him, you tried to corrupt us, you attacked him and his family and now you took away the one person, who was trying to convince him to leave this violent life.

Harmony: So go ahead. Label him a goof, label him a child rapist, label him a racist, label him a rat. Label him all the things we know you did, because at this point regardless of how he reacts to it, you're on his permanent shit list now and he won't stop until you are gone.

Light Harmony: And the scariest part is, when he realizes that he nor us have to do anything anymore. He already made the call and they're coming for you. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, maybe a few months or even years from now. In the meantime, why don't you worry about it. Be afraid WD. Be very afraid.

They leave and tend to S.T. at their pad.

S.T.: She's not arrested by police. Either someone else took her or she fled to the streets. She's an illusionist, so making them think she got arrested would be so her.

Light: What about those other cars that pass us by, the ones that look like cop cars that aren't quite.

Harmony: Ya those cars are officers equipped to handle people of her disorders should they fly off the handle. They arrest her and put her in a mental ward somewhere. A hospital you could probably visit her in.

S.T.: Oh no. That's even worse. Oh fuck no.

Light: What's wrong?

S.T.: If she's where I think she is, I fear the worst already. It's the hospital my mother died in. It's the only hospital close by.

Harmony: There's more, I did a background check on her real father. He's no ordinary gangster. He's a member of the other order. The one your order used to feud with.

S.T.: Are you fucking kidding me?!! He's been around this long and he's not once checked up on his daughter? Great. I was worried that I was gonna get a shotgun blast by him, but I really need to find this guy. He needs to know what's up. It's gonna take a lot of courage, but I'm going to that hospital.

Light Harmony: Good Luck S.T.

To be continued..........