First of all, whether you celebrate Christmas or not, I hope you all had a good time on the Holidays. Mainly because, for the first time in my life, I not only had a good time with mine. I have also been able to solve many problems minor and major in my real life. For starters, I was able to find both problems and solutions regarding my own family life. My problem solving intelligence has increased exponentially. Second, I weighed myself for the first time in months and saw how much weight I lost. For context, I used to weigh between 255 to 235 pounds. A small 20 pound difference, based on the ways I changed my diet, exercise and overall lifestyle. However, when I weighed myself I saw that I was recently 220 pounds. So going from my highest weight, I lost 35 pounds. It was all due to changing my diet and simply getting out more. As well as having the motivation and reason for getting out more. Second, while I'm still trying to quit, I found out that after dropping all my baggage, I was able to find the will to cut down. While I was out of town, I was able to smoke at least one or two cigarettes a day before my cravings cropped up. So it proves that Addiction is physical, mental and environmental. And while I got the first two down pat, this was a new surprise for me. It makes sense, because I am out of town at the time and away from the usual stresses of the world. Third, regarding love, let's just say I was scared at first, when it first happened, but there are many reasons that tell me to keep going, both in terms of common interests, including but not limited to, similar spiritual beliefs and having an equally fucked up lifestyle. But overall, I was able to solve a few major issues that make me worry less and get out more.

Anywho, for context, I left my home town for 5 days, to spend time with my family. I got drunk, high, had a lot of great Christmas Presents and was able to let them know I was Ok where I was and at the same time bring some closure in their own lives. Not to mention having many a turkey and ham feast. But basically for the first time in a long while I was able to have fun, relax and unwind, ready to put an end to old troubles and be wary of new, with a clearer, more calmer and focused mind. Now my main focus is on the other aspects. Such as promoting my music, getting out more in my personal life and finding more ways to improve it. I'll never doubt my CIEIR potion again as on top of discovering things about it, I was able to use it as intended. A health drink to compensate the lack of nutritional value in my overall poor diet. Which helped me burn off the remaining fat, clean out my blood and overall restore my body where I am just 10 to 30 pounds away from being officially at a good BMI. I've also cut down on a few other things, such as Booze. My Christmas thing was one last hurrah. And it happened quicker than I thought because I was given a beer I didn't like which turned me off of drinking a little more. The only times I will drink, will be if it's a special occasion. Birthdays, Weddings, Bachelor parties things like that and maybe the occasional contest. But other than that, not for leisure anymore. So if I can quit that, which I never had a problem with to begin with, my smoking will be next.

I also been coming up with new ideas for my brand here as well as ideas in general, after exploring more of my town recently. I'm still promoting my book, because I think it's gonna be the thing that gets me some degree of success. And to top it off, I've realized things in my past, present and even possibly future, that things while they may get rough, they are worth enduring. Just to see if something good turns out about this.

Anywho, take care, stay safe and have a Happy New Year.