First of all I want to wish you all a happy Chinese New Year. Gong Hei Fat Choi. While I am not Chinese myself, I always had a fascination with the Chinese Zodiac, for one reason or another. Such as having family travel to the land in the past as well as my obsession with an actor, who's Zodiac Year cropped up. This is the year of the Dragon and that Actor was named Bruce Lee:

So needless to say that alone resonates with me. In my case though I was born in 1991, The Year of The Goat.

Now I won't exactly say what the revelation, because of a few factors. However while most people have resolutions in every version of New Years, every New Year I celebrate, give me some revelation of my own past. In this case a big one. It was a repressed memory, that came flooding back to me at a brief moment of my despair. A traumatizing event that in my past that became the root of all my tragedies. I won't name names, but the short end of it is, I have a relative that did unspeakable things to people including but not limited to many female children. He also drove my mother and my brother into their deaths. Causing the stress of my mother's cancer and corrupting my brother. One of which someone I knew recently. We couldn't stop him back then, because he was always protected by someone whom used to be a good person, but turned into a piece of shit. That person has been dead for years now so I'm hoping once both sides of the law know what this person did that justice will truly be done. At this point I don't care what happens to me good and bad, because I hope I can at least bring closure to many involved.

Now this revelation came to me on the year my favourite actor was born under, so it's not a coincidence for me. But it's both traumatized me, angered me saddened me, but I felt something else. Relief, liberation and above all else a happiness I can't even begin to describe. It was like the mother of all weights that has been holding me back, has finally lifted.

Now at this point, I don't care what happens in my career here. Whether people buy my music or not, doesn't matter to me. Because I basically achieved a form of enlightenment, that pales in comparison to money and fame. That doesn't mean I'll stop, but it's no longer a priority to me. I now know a major ugly truth and it set me free.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

This is S.T. Musician of CIEIRMusic, for now signing off.

Happy New Year. Hope everyone gets a red envelope with a shitload of money.