In terms of overall personal problems I am 99.99% cured. 0.01 Percent to go. Now on the surface that doesn't mean much literally a penny. But in terms of my life it means while small, I still got a lot of shit to work through before I am exactly at 100 percent.

But I thought I'd give some context.

When I first started out in terms of personal problems I was 75% cured, enough to survive and last until things get better. When I first moved to my new place it went from %75 to 80%, because a lot of issues such as budget were a big problem, I had to learn how to survive without money, as long as there was food in the fridge and the rent was paid. It became 85% when I started getting confident enough to confront my problems head on while at the same time, slowly but surely find balance in other aspects of my life. When I found love, it became a solid 90% which would allow me to slightly breeze through enough life to get better, but finding said love ended up filling me with enough positive energy that could choose to go higher and lower. Even if things didn't work out, which to be honest...it's complicated, but at the same time it's at a point where one can work through it. Becoming less complicated make or break. By that I mean the person I did fall in love with, caused such a positive impact on me that no matter the issues we look out for each other as true friends. So even when things got rocky, because I was getting better, it became 95%. Then when I sought therapy, looking for issues that were holding me back as well as trying to find the root of my issues and getting treated for it, it became 97%. Then when I figured out my purpose in life and where everyone Good and Bad stood with me and vice versa, (Which was pretty fucking hard, considering even the good people in my life had shown traits of what I hated about the bad.) I became a solid 98% slowly getting to 98.5%. Allowing me to breeze through life and make time to sort out what would have been considered minor issues once my majors were out of the way. Then today, after figuring out a few secrets of my past, both good and bad, following clues that were left for me since I was a kid, but was too young to understand them, it became a solid 99%. Now at this point, even those in my circle do not believe I would solve 100% and to some extent they're right. Nobody's perfect and even then what works for them, doesn't always work for others, due to both communication barrier and conflict of superiority. (For context, everyone wants to do everything their way even if it steps on other people's way, both intentional and unintentional. And fights often happen, even among friends because they think their way is the ONLY right way.)

Once I was able to find a way to help people, without quite stepping on their toes, it became 99.5%. Then here's where things get messed up. Over the years, I realized that a lot of stupid mistakes could have been avoided if I simply did the following:

1. Asked, albeit nicely. Worst I'd get is a "No." and move on from here.
2. Listened more. If not through words, then body language and other clues.
3. Put more effort in my part, but not too much due to mutual overreliance. Simply find the right balance.

Once I figured that out.....I made it to 99.99%. Now, in theory, if I was able to solve all my personal problems, to the point where even the worst of them is considered Tuesday to me. Then I would be in terms of putting my mind to things, relatively unstoppable. However, at this point I have reached the mental health equivalent of critical mass.

Now after hearing how it works from me, you're probably wondering "What is the 0.01% you need to deal with." Well it can mean a variety of things. Things that need to be maintained regarding the rest of the 99.99%. Things that have been left unresolved, but not enough to affect your overall life. Or in my case, unanswered questions, such as:

1. Could things go wrong and can I recover from this?
2. Could things be improved or are they fine the way they are?
3. Most importantly. Even if I solve all my problems, then what?

The last one is the scariest, because you don't know what happens next. However, because you ran out of things to do, that need resolving it's also a relief because it means less weight on your shoulders either way. That said even with everything you could possibly want, there is boredom and underappreciation. Some people are even willing to risk whatever wealth they have, just to have some excitement in their lives. Hell, Elon Musk, risked his own fortune, both on ideas even he didn't think would work or attending charity fights. Mainly because he already has everything else and like most rich folks got bored easily.

So basically on top of solving my problem, I've been thinking of fun things to do, be it by myself and other people. And while financially I did find some semblance of balance, even when I get flat broke, I do find it doesn't hurt to find a way to kill boredom and maybe profit off them.

Hell, part of why I started making music, on top of my love of it, was out of sheer boredom and a need to make a mark on the world whether I become famous and infamous. Money was the last thing on my mind until people started buying it. But I got desperate, greedy and even lashed out on people when I didn't think I seen progress.

However, with my mind more clearer, I have been able to think about a few things. The stuff that's happened to me, the stuff I did to others in retaliation and the hurt it caused mutual acquaintances that had trouble choosing whom to believe or side with regardless of whom was right or wrong. It was shitty behavior and while I could care less about my enemies on here, my true friends and fans I do owe and apology to.

I am very sorry if my behavior caused the following:

1. Made my behaviour suspicious to even the closest of friends and fans.
2. Made my attitude alienate some people even if they still give me praise.
3. Took it out on those I shouldn't have. For that I am truly sorry.

Having said that, while it may seem ulterior I am gonna ask properly this time and worst I'm get is "No."

To my fans, friends and even complete strangers. I beseech thee in my time of evolution, to request the aid of my fellow human being, if it doesn't trouble you.

Or in plain English: Will you please help me, if it's not too much trouble, to support my music in ways other than critical and emotional support? If not, that's fine, I at least tried to ask nicely and I'm moving on from there. If yes, I advertised all my work over the past years, from my Bandcamp to my Kofi and I don't ask for much. Just enough to get me started on one of my many endeavors.

Having said that, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more. I thank you all for at least witnessing my journey at this point and I'll never forget you for it. I love you all.