I won't go into too much detail, about what I went through to get proof of this, but let's just say it was so overwhelming I took my meds once I cooled down from it. For context, I found love, said love took me by surprise many times, that allowed us to get closer together and so far, this love has done nothing but go above and beyond to make sure I was ok, let alone finding me attractive enough to do the things she wants to do to me.
Yesterday, I spent half the day with someone very special to me, this person, much like myself went through a lot of hell since they were a kid, something I could both sympathize and empathize with and I tried my hardest to help this person out, no matter what we made out of the relationship. We shared a bond I can only describe as very spiritual. So spiritual, that it brought something out in me I never knew I had. I became more confident, stronger and more determined not to give up on my life. We didn't do anything too far, but let's just say with the way this person tried their very best to comfort me, after months of we went through together and separately, that it seemed to pay off for the both of us.
In terms of my view on the link of love, sex and spirituality, I believe that all are connected together in one way or another. Most people view sex alone as a rite of passage, one losing their virginity, would be considered a baptism to them. Others like myself, view it as so-so. That for pleasure it's good, but for love it's way better. I was raised by hippies, so needless to say I am a firm believer in free love so long as it's legal. But it wasn't until yesterday I found out how spiritual it was. Now bear in mind, with the way I talk to people, people assumed the worst from me no matter what. They assumed I was some kind of creep or incel. The fact of the matter it was, I can break my celibacy if I want to, but at the same time I don't choose to break it lightly. I feel if I'm gonna go at the very least far as sex, let alone romance, it has to be someone that clicks with me. But much of it was due to the fact that I was raised by a single mother whom had more guy friends than girl friends, yet the girlfriends as well as her, gave me things to look out for regarding women in general. Now this does not make me an expert on women, as I am a man and there are a few things about Women that even I don't know or understand about. However, it's made me aware of some of the nasty traits some can carry. In the case of my town, the women here, can be just as nasty and cruel as the men and considering how many cruel men I've confronted over the years, that says a lot.
As for what this has to do with spirituality, most of the women I was raised around were wiccans and other forms of natural witchcraft, those whom don't even need a Book of Shadows to cast spells. So needless to say, it was easy to say that the person I fell in love with, is also part of that craft in her own way. Normally that would scare a man away, but me, I thought it was endearing. Even tried to encourage it more so that she to rely on the usual stuff that she does to get by. Let's just say she took that advice too well. I won't say what happened, but the result was an energy I never knew I could felt. One so overwhelming that I couldn't even look at my enemies with a straight face anymore until I was able to settle down. Yet, it was so good that it unlocked a few things about me. Making me beyond 100% cured. Whatever she did, she somehow fixed me. And I am happy just for that, whether it works out or not.
Because it showed me that love is a powerful thing, so powerful I was overwhelmed by it and that it does exist regardless what people say otherwise.
If you people have found love one way or another, never give up on it. Even if it doesn't work out the experience is worth it.
Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.