Sometimes it's the little things in life that bring you hope. Most people think if they get rich off their work or famous or any degree of success, that it would truly make them happy. I kinda disagree. While I do believe fame and fortune can buy off unhappiness, to truly gain happiness is to look for signs that the world and to an extent you can continue living and moving forward, giving you more chances to acheive that and other goals. It doesn't even have to be a big sign.

To put context into this. The Lockdowns in my neck of the woods, have often been like this. While food shops, from Groceries to fast food places remain open, for safety reasons they move the chairs and tables away, both to give more customers room to order and get out as well as keeping people from dining in and spreading the disease potentially. Every time I ever went to a fast food place, it always depressed me to see so many people lining up just to eat. The fact that they stand for so long while they wait for an already swamped cooking crew to get their order, no place to sit and rest their sore limbs. In fact one of my first actions, before the lockdowns, knowing full well I wasn't gonna do it anymore was to sit down and eat there. So I wouldn't miss it as much when I couldn't.

Now with the restrictions slowly easing up, there were two things I did in the past two days. One, I went to a bar and grill. Just so I could enjoy the newly re-opened patios as well as get a cold one. The hostess there told me that in the next day they were soon gonna allow indoor dining. While I congratulated them on that, I didn't quite believe it. So I ate my food, had my beer and left.

The second thing I did was two days after. I went to a pizza place not too far from the location I am currently at. I went there a week before and for reference all their tables and chairs, were shoved into one corner of the place the last time. This time however, not only were they back out. They had little signs on them reassuring us, that the tables are sanitized. Some were still forbidden, but they gave us customers enough chairs to sit and wait for our order. Which is especially good, because it would at least accomodate anyone who is either exhausted, has leg or back related problems or is undergoing a pregnancy amongst most things. Now years ago, putting chairs and tables out would be considered mundane. As that is standard procedure and a morning ride to work for most food places. However after nearly 2 years of putting up with all these bullshit rules and regulations, such a mundane act is considered of miracle.

And to any that disagree, I did not suffer from the side effects of an experimental vaccine for which I need to get the second dose of, just to be treated no different than when I never took one.

This is a more less serious topic than my usual open questions. More or less to get more people interested in the idea for the sake of discussion. Now you read the title, I feel obligated to address this first, just to get it out of the way. Yes, H.P. Lovecraft was a massive racist, it was in his writing, he named a cat of his after a racial slur and even during the time period he was from his stuff disgusted even the local racists. However with that said, he's been dead for over 84 years and those whom have been bringing it up for the past 6 are nothing but pathetic lifeless freaks with nothing better to do than crave their 15 seconds of fame for pointing it out. I apologize for the rant, but that part always annoyed me, why go after a dead guy when there are perfectly healthy live racists, sexists, homophobics and so on to choose from. Only a coward feels like a big person when they're beating a corpse. Moving on.

Judging by the rant, it's obvious, I'm familiar with his famous works. In my case, I've learned about him through the following sources: Writers that have been inspired by him such as Stephen King. As well as recently many adaptations of his work, many of which have been heavily changed to fit with the time period they were in. From classics such as the Re-Animator Trilogy and From Beyond to the most recent movie made, Color Out of Space. One common theme even in his most out there stuff like the Cthulhu Mythos, is that there is never really a happy ending in any one of his stories, that I know of. Even in the movies that adapted from them. In terms of the movies:

Spoilers:

Re-Animator: Herbert West destroys Dr. Hill's headless body and seemingly dies, but not before throwing his Notes and Serum bag to Dan in hopes he'd finish what West Started. Just when Dan and Meg think they're in the clear, a Re-Animate strangles Meg to Death. Dan tries to revive her only to lose her and in a fit of desperation and insanity he tries to use the Re-Agent on her, presumably becoming the next Re-Animator.

From Beyond: Crawford Tillinghast regains his sanity, but is killed and assimilated by Pretorius. But his will allows him to fight for control of the monster they both inhabit, stalling him long enough for Dr. Katherine McMichael's to blow up the resonator, sending them back to the dimension it opened up. However the result of the explosion, the injuries she received, an overstimulated pineal gland and watching someone she tried to save die and go to a place worse than death, breaks Katherine's heart and destroys her mind, turning her into a laughing mess.

Bride of Re-Animator: The Bride is finished, but Hill brings Re-Animates to try to kill West, Dan and Francesca. As all that's going on, the Bride mistakenly believes Dan brought her to life, is smitten with her and jealous enough to also try to kill Francesca. When Dan rejects her, she literally falls to pieces. Dan and Francesca escape, but the Re-Animates and Hill corner West.

Beyond Re-Animator: You'd think West being in Jail would be considered a happy ending even if Lovecraft didn't write it that way right? Well....without even trying, he manipulates the new prison Doctor, appropriately named Howard Phillips. Promising him to help him conquer death, so that no one like his sister would die. However, due to testing the 13 year old syringe on an inmate, a prison riot ensues, Howard's girlfriend is killed and brought to life and through a series of unfortunate events, has the Prison Warden's consciousness transferred into her while the Warden himself has the consciousness of a pet rat. Howard has no choice but to kill her, but in a fit of pity, West leaves a syringe behind, prompting Howard to bring her severed head back to life and losing the last threads of his own sanity. All the while West escapes to cause more mischief while trying to perfect his Re-Agent.

Color Out of Space: Ward finds out too late that those that drank the water from the Gardner Well get infected by this being known only as The Color, due to it's color not being not a color anyone has seen before. Said color through infection causes each of the Gardner family and their squatter Ezra (ironically the first person to find out what it could do.), to suffer severe hallucinations, moments where time and space are bending, on some occasions animals and even people get fused together in a horrible abomination, veggies get mutated. All of which making the color stronger. Sucking the water and life force out of everything it touches. Turning anyone and everything into white ash. Ironically sucking the color out of everything. All but Ward die, as the Color rockets it's way out of the well and back in to space from whence it came. However while the bulk of it has left, Ward believes there's still a contamination in the well from what was left of it and convinces the Mayor of Arkham to bury the farmland and the well in water from the dam they were constructing. Despite the water being deep enough to crush said well, Ward does not drink it, while he lives with survivor's guilt over the madness he witnessed, knowing full well it's not from this world.

Even in stories where next to none of the characters die, the endings always seem bleak, the characters are never the same for the worse and there's always that slight hint that whatever happened to them has either only just begun, is a piece of a far bigger puzzle or in some cases, just some random accident that happens to fuck people up. While I have yet to read all his work, I gotta ask anyone that's read Lovecraft. Has there ever been, even for the sake of experimentation, an occasion where for once H.P. Lovecraft had written a happy ending to one or more of his stories? Or a the very least something you'd see in both story and adaptation alike which could count as somewhat of a happy ending?

First of all a big shout to @FotioNet for being my 75th follower. Second of all, 75 FANS!!! I'm 25 away from getting a full 100 fans. I would like to thank each and every one of you for sticking with me this whole time.

This one's a bit of a twofer but they're a bit of an extension of my previous question. While I still continue to ask the question of the point of life, I've accepted that until I get an answer I must live in it. However there are certain aspects of life I've never gotten.

First of the two: Why do we pay to live?

As the world evolves, the prices of everything we need to survive get higher and higher. Food, Clothes, Shelter, Hygenics increase, causing us to try to either find better jobs or live off the government tit in order to pay it off. Why? Living should be a human fucking right, not something you can put a price tag on. We literally can't live without food, shelter and proper hygeine and yet the longer we live on this planet, the higher the prices get. Which leads me to the next question: Why is it that it's more cheaper to kill us, than keep us healthy?

I look around grocery stores and other food stores but they all have the same pattern. Every bit of healthy food. Whether it's lean meat, fruits, veggies, grain, milk, even their vegan alternatives are very fucking expensive. My mother once had a saying that Milk was getting as expensive as Gasoline. Yet, if I look at the snacks and dessert section, everything at their highest is at least $10 and at their lowest 25 Cents or whatever cheap other country equivalent to it. Then you have booze and cigarettes. Save for the more fancy stuff like 12 year old Scotch and the smokes rich people have on a stick, many booze and cigarettes and even illegal drugs are cheaper to buy. What kind of world is this? Too expensive to live, much cheaper to die.

Personally if the world were up to me, I'd abolish rent and property tax. Make every house free and have only enough room for the basic essentials, because that's all you need to survive. Food? Same, but adjust the quantity based on the anatomy of each individual and family. The way I see it, living should be free, it should only cost you money if you want to live rich. But that's just me. I'm pretty sure someone has some bullshit excuse on why things are the way they are.

First of all I want to apologize. This specific question is not meant to attack you or your personal goals in life. Even with this, I still try to follow my own goals and this shouldn't discourage you from doing the same.

With that said, here's the context to this question. As I get a lot older, regardless of my own beliefs on the matter, I've often heard about how important the human race is. Our Achievements and faults alike. The wonders we created and the horrors we unleashed. But the one thing that never ever changes over many millennia is the lifecycle of all animals including us humans. We're born, we grow up, we make more of us, we die and leave the world behind for them to do the same. Animals from the tiniest bug to the biggest wild cat are more content with this because that's all they know. Yet we as a species notice this pattern every day. Some of us try to find means of stopping or breaking this pattern or at the very least try to make the pattern more interesting, by filling it with many goals and desires before they go. From getting a job, to getting rich and famous. Yet in the simplest way I can explain it, we as a species aren't really amounting to anything. We talk and talk about how either the previous generation had it better or that the next generation will make things better, as though everything we grown and died for is meant to lead to some kind of significant endgame, but instead all I see is more people getting born, more people growing up and more people dying. And while some have memorials for those still living to celebrate and grieve, as a whole the one thing we all should be aware of is that any one of us could be dead tomorrow. While I do not believe this, but let's say hypothetically, there is no God, there is no afterlife, there is no spirits. In fact let's expand and say that despite our respect for other religions, that all of them are a crock of shit including mine. That we don't go anywhere when we die and we just don't exist and rot in the ground. Then what was the point of living if there was nothing after? The world is getting worse every decade or so, more people are looking for more excuses to speed up their deaths and the people who are in charge of the safety and well being of our respective countries are becoming more incomprehensible and clueless. Yet despite all the reasons that say otherwise, we have it ingrained in our DNA that we as a species, human beings, are the most important thing on this planet. That everything we do no matter how many people we lose along the way, is leading to some kind of important goal, that neither of us know what.

So my question is, what are we living for?

Why exactly are we here?

As you all know I created a series of white covered songs in an effort to make more positive music. As a result I created and recreated a series of harmonic songs that seemed to just click. So as a result not only did I create a new album on Bandcamp, putting them all together, but they became a new creation of mind. A fictional band called Light Harmony:

Who is Light Harmony? Well that depends on who you ask. They could be a duo of singers or it could just be one singer that has a hell of a range and a split personality. Whatever the case may be, they are utterly devoted into helping people out. Their methods, unorthodox, but well meaning. Despite their light hearted nature though, they can be a force to be reckoned with and will destroy anyone that messes with them or who they helped.

Basically without even trying, I've basically created a persona within the world of CIEIRMusic.

The full album here: Light Harmony

Newest song here:

First of all I want to apologize to all of you for making you sad about my last news post. Until I got where I was going I was uncertain if where I was going had easy access to internet. The good news is I do. So all is well. I won't bore you the exact details to what happened, but essentially I had to move temporarily to a new location. Which I will be staying for at least a month. I wanted to let you all know as soon as I got settled. But to make a long story short, I'm back and you may hear more music from me in the future. I was worried I wasn't gonna be able to go back online for at least a few days, but I was relieved it didn't take me that long. I want to thank each and every one of you for your patience.

Today may be the last day I'll be able to post on here, for I have to go somewhere for at least a month. I don't know if where I'm going has internet, but on the off chance it doesn't this may be the last post I will do for now.

In the past year and a half I've been on this site, I've had my ups and downs. I managed to gain fans, friends and as well as foes. I've managed to get my music more out there thanks to all of you listening and I've also gotten into my fair share of fights. I've collaborated with some great people and I've successfully succeeded in some goals.

I even managed to successfully stick to my guns when I protested that contest right to the deadline. While it didn't cause as much of an impact that I've hoped, that didn't matter to me. What mattered was that I stuck to it until it was over. I thank everyone that's supported me and given me advice regarding it.

However, while I may leave for now, I wasn't gonna leave without posting one more song.

I couldn't think of some parting words of inspiration of my own to impart on you, so I thought I'd steal from Doctor Who:

During all this time, I've tried to help you all and in return you've all been helping me. One day I shall come back, yes I shall come back. Until then, there must be no regrets, no tears or no anxieties. Just go forward in all your beliefs and prove to me that I'm not mistaken in mine.

If you have anything to say, now's the time to say it. If I don't answer within a day, then I'm already off. Until then I wish you the best of luck and I hope to hear from you all when I get back.

This one's a little bit more political, but after all the years I felt I need to ask this.

Over the past centuries, things have either been black, white or sometimes the odd grey. However one thing that has not changed, despite trying to find ways to get along and compromise, for any subject for that matter be it War, Health, Disease etc. The media that reflects on it having a field day appealing to all sides depending on where they stand.

Case in point the Vietnam War. I used to think it was called the Unwinnable War, because despite all odds the American Soldiers lost. However looking into it further, there is an alternative reason. Because no matter what happened, no one won. There have been soldiers whom go there to risk their lives for nothing, the ones that don't want to go even to this day are wanted criminals. Simply because they didn't want to die or kill someone else. The soldiers that do make it back are either limbless or in some dangerous cases mindless, due to the post traumatic stress they endure over there. Then you have the people protesting the war. All of which for justifiable reasons. However, the result is all sides come clashing down for no other reason than to drive the other side out. Those that are pro war say it's unpatriotic to not sign up. Those that are anti-war say it's the opposite that's unpatriotic and when they couldn't find a way to compromise, they'd get reduced to name calling and in the worst of it violent riots. But the one thing that binds them together, that makes them no all that different for each other is their dependency on how many people are backing them up. Whether it's friends, family, co-workers or some random on the street, they try to recruit as much people as humanly possible saying "It's us or them. Choose." And whether you choose the side they don't expect or outright refuse or even suggest a third option, suddenly you're the asshole and both hates you.

Now flash forward to say 5 - 10 years ago. While the subjects have changed and the topics are either new or rehashes of old topics, that mentality remains the same.

Now I won't knock anyone that joined specific causes save for anything related to white supremacy, because let's face it, they're assholes looking for excuses to legalize murder. However even the most idealistic, altruistic group, has the same chance at being brought down to the level of the hate groups, because they stick to the same mentality:

1. No Compromise. No Common Ground.
2. When in doubt, just insult them.
3. Recruit and Manipulate as many people on your side as you can because its "Us or them."

Much of the reason why so many of these groups even with their best intentions get so much shit on them, is because too many people focus on that bullshit mentality and it makes it more interesting for the news to report an angry group than an idealistic one and instead of focusing on their goal, the groups incite more because they realize that's the only way they get their voices heard. In any time we've watched it, save for a few occasions, has there ever been any positive news about these groups? Any news of said groups accomplishing anything, but being the loudest voice? I don't see it. I don't see it because unless someone can tell me otherwise, it's not there. What is there are a bunch of fools on all sides making asses of themselves and not even answering the simplest of questions: What do you want? All the while many people profit off their humiliation and sometimes even their life.

Now, here's the thing. This is the thing many wouldn't want you to know, because it would actually accomplish something. If these groups stopped fighting each other, start realizing what they have in common and decide to turn their attention not on each other, but the people that turned them against each other to begin with, they'd accomplish not only the greatest wonders, but also it would spell bad news for people that profit off their conflicts. Jouranlists that want the drama going to get their exclusives. Politicians whom have praised one group, but insulted another and fed off their fights to further their campaigns. Even people who make a lot of money on youtube talking about this stuff, would most definitely turn tail and run, because they realize they can no longer use them.

So my open question is this: Us Vs Them or Us and Them? It may not seem simple to answer but it actually is. It just takes a long time to answer, because while the latter to me is the right way, it would take them a while to hash things out. Find out what they have in common and what resources they can benefit from one and other.

I can tell you this, if you want something done in this world, don't work for the Media. Make the Media Work for you.

I wasn't gonna waste this moment while I still have it. Special thanks to @CHGangBoy05 for being a recent follower and as a result I'm at 69 fans.

I told myself if I ever got that high I'd have to post something related to it as a joke, but I couldn't think of one so I decided to just hand it to the most excellent people that could announce it so well, but not be too inappropriate about it:

Bill and Ted

So thanks for that many followers and thanks for giving me the opportunity to do that.