Welp it's March 31st 2023. Literally a day before my 32nd Birthday. While most of the times the day came and went without question, but this one is very significant to me and I'll tell you why.

It's not only the last day before my birthday. This year, it's the 31st of March and the last time I will be the age of 31 and I'm gonna be turning 32 on April 1st 2023. Now I'm no expert in Numerology and my knowledge of the subject is somewhat knowledgeable. But turning 32 on '23 has got to mean something.

I've been through a lot this past year alone, survived a fire at my building and put up with the bad elements both on the net and in real life. But my whole life up to this point is ups and downs. While I don't expect any kind of miracle here, I do expect at least something good to happen. Call it a pre-birthday wish.

Point being is that I along with others born on this date on the same year, should enjoy this last day of our age to the fullest extent. In my case. As I write this, I've dedicated myself to spending that last day in it's 24 hour entirety, without sleep. Before anyone shows concern about my physical and mental health regarding this, here's the thing. I'm an insomniac, I barely sleep proper as it is and this is merely just an extra step to my overall usual routines in real life. So needless to say, a day of sleep deprivation cannot and will not kill me, but I do appreciate the concern regardless.

To my fellow future April fools, I wish you all the best. To my fans, I wish you all well and hope that number increases.

Wish me luck.

Speaking of Numerology, here's my reading as well as some commentary from my reaction to them:

Life Path: 7: Your destiny is that of a truth seeker. Your mind is very logical and intellectual. You will be great with facts and trivia. You will like solitude and be attracted to jobs where you can work alone. You must be careful, as your comfort with solitude may make you seem unavailable to others for friendship. You may become suspicious of the world if you do not take the time to leave the comfort of your own surroundings from time to time. Idea Job: Detective (Always wanted to be a detective and a lot of my fiction revolves around mysteries and what not. As for truth seeker, they hit the nail on the head with that one.)

Birthday Number: 1: This is the number of an ambitious, independent and strong leader. With hard work you will be successful in anything you do. (I try my best to improve on this part, but without anyone to lead, I'm not much of a leader or a success.)

Challenges: 1st = 3: The duration of the First Challenge usually lasts from birth until approximately the age of 30 to 35.

Your self criticism is your largest challenge in this cycle. Because you fear failure you often do not participate as strongly as you should, thinking that you can not be successful. During this time you need to work on your self confidence. Your true self is being hidden, work on being confident and proud with your true self. (Right now starting tomorrow, I will have 3 more years to beat this challenge. But this describes some of my problems perfectly. Which is half the battle.)

2nd = 1: The duration of the Second Challenge usually lasts from the age of 30 to 35 to around 55/60.

Your challenge here is to work on your personal self, you as an individual as opposed to your race, religion or nationality. You will face many situations where your own moral beliefs will conflict with that of the crowd. You main challenge at this stage is to learn how and when to stand up for your personal beliefs and not just go with what others want. (This challenge started literally when I turned 30. My own moralities always clashed with those who often saw themselves as the majority. That said, the How and When part was something I wasn't aware of until now and now that I am aware of that, I may try to make an effort to beat that part of the challenge.)

3rd = 2: The duration of the Third or Main Challenge is felt through your entire life.

Your main challenge here is to become less concerned about other people's feelings and expectations of you. Many negative emotions will flood over you over this challenge, jealousy, spite, hatred, just to name a few. Gaining control over these feelings and accepting your life as your own will help you with this challenge. (As much as I boast about not caring what people think, feel and expect of me, I am only human, meaning there is the odd time where I do care. This challenge is pretty much telling me to stop that part, lest my negative emotions overwhelm me.

Which considering this is an entire life challenge may take my entire life, but I'm willing to do that.)

4th = 2: The duration of the Fourth Challenge usually starts at approximately the age of 55/60.

Your main challenge here is to become less concerned about other people's feelings and expectations of you. Many negative emotions will flood over you over this challenge, jealousy, spite, hatred, just to name a few. Gaining control over these feelings and accepting your life as your own will help you with this challenge. (In case anyone gets confused. Yes this was told to me twice. Not a typo. Now in all honesty this is a random number generator, so needless to say the reading may not be 100% accurate. However readings, both artificial and real, if they tell you something twice. It usually means I have to work extra hard to beat this as those two challenges are merely two separate halves of one big challenge. With the previous being my whole life to decide, while this tells me to keep doing so when I eventually become an old fart.)

Pinnacles: 1st = 5: The duration of the First Pinnacle Cycle runs from birth to the age of 29.

Self expression and adventure will dominate this time in your life. This will be the perfect time in your life to travel and have adventures. You will have difficulty settling down, and although that is not the focus in this period of life, you should put some effort forward to do so. (Since this is from Birth to 29, I don't really need to read into this, mainly because I already done it. I have travelled, I have went on my fair share of adventures outside my home. Granted I wish I could go further than my own province, but it still counts. As for settling down. It literally took me to last year just to accomplish that part of my life.)

2nd = 3: The duration of the Second Pinnacle Cycle runs from 29 to the age of 38.

Your will be at your peak artistic level during this period. Your artistic desires should be nurtured and strengthened during this time. This will be an emotional time in your life as well, using those emotions in your artistic doings will only help you excel in both dealing with your emotions and help you grow as an artist. You will have to be careful to not get too lost in the world of emotions. Try to keep a foot in the world of logic. (So far I haven't peaked yet, but I have 6 more years to figure that one out. That said all the things I'm doing to grow as an artist, I am trying to do right now.)

3rd = 8: The duration of the Third Pinnacle Cycle runs from 38 to the age of 47.

Your will be blessed with patience and sound judgment during this time of your life. This would be a good time to focus on your career and finances. During this time it will be easy to ignore your spiritual self. Some time and effort should be taken to not lose your sense of faith. (I honestly fucking hope so.)

4th = 6: The duration of the Fourth Pinnacle Cycle runs from 47 onwards.

Family is the key during this part of your life. Close friendships will evolve and you have the opportunity to become a figure head in your community. You will be needed by your family and friends, and your compassion and understanding will be warmly welcomed by them. (That lesson was taught to me since day one of my life. The fact that this should have happened 15 years from now, just means I'm too Early.)

Periods: 1st = 4: The duration of the First Period Cycle runs from birth until the age of 29

This will be a time in your life when you are well grounded. Your family and career can be easily improved at this time. Hard work will win the day, remember the old adage, slow and steady wins the race. Try to avoid wild thinking and grand changes in your life. (Yes and no. While at 29 I was somewhat grounded, it was literally one of the lowest points of my life. As for my family improving, somewhat. Some I know are a hell of a lot more successful than I am in their own respective fields, others are stuck in worst spots than I am and have yet to get out of them. As for the part about avoiding wild thinking and grand changes of my life. That's like trying to get Sheldon Cooper to pick a different spot on the couch. I can try, but I can't guarantee success.)

2nd = 1: The duration of the Second Period Cycle runs from 29 until the age of 56

Focus on your life's dream during this period. This will be a general difficult period, requiring strength and commitment, but it will also be a period of great growth. (It already is a difficult period as I have yet to gain financial success as I managed to fulfil half this dream by getting critical success, both positive and negative. That said, I am 100% committed to staying in the game until I get to that level. Not if. Until. 24 years to go though. )

3rd = 2: The duration of the First Period Cycle runs from 56 onwards.

Slow and steady is your pace through this period. Take the time to learn patience and the art of diplomacy. You will most at ease taking events in stride and learning to deal with less than ideal situations. (Patience yes, but Diplomacy? Me? Don't get me wrong I can talk, but not everyone likes to hear what I say. That said I don't have to worry about that one for 24 years. Plenty of time to learn more.)

Personal Year: 3: A time of creativity, motivation, and inspiration. (Basically means I need to get more creative as time goes on.)

Personal Month: 6: A time of responsibility, domestic affairs, and service. (Means I need to take care of both my personal and professional life better.)

Personal Day: 1: A time of new beginnings, seed-planting, and high energy. (Means I have a chance at a fresh start. Which is good news to me.)

Expression: 1: This number represents yourself as you started living the life you currently have. For those who believe in reincarnation, this is the end-state of your previous life. You are a naturally strong and charismatic leader. Your ambition and idealism will help you accomplish many things. (If I'm reading this correctly, it means I was like this at the start of my life and at the end of my previous life. Yes I do believe in reincarnation.)

Desire: 11: This number represents your secret, inner most dreams and desires.

Your dream is that of a closer world. You have a natural understanding of the relationships people have and wish for the world to share it. (I don't know who in the cosmos fucked that dream up, but it became a nightmare when social media became a thing.)

Personality: 8: This number describes how you present yourself to the rest of the world.

You will be seen as influential and intimidating. You give off a powerful aura which other people will respect. (It never occurred to me until recently that I can be influential even if I don't know I'm being influential. There are people that hang onto my word be it on the net or in the real world. I also give off an intimidating aura to some people. That said, I wouldn't classify that all in my personality. The bulk of my detractors on this site alone find me at best annoying and at worst cringe, both the literal definition and the slacky social version. I barely register as a threat to them. Which is their mistake and mine.)

Balance: 2: This number describes how you best deal with difficult situations. It is a minor influence in your life until it is needed in stressful or difficult times. You will best to use diplomacy to deal with troubled situations. (Been there tried that and my success rate being mostly slim to none.)

Subconscious: 3: This number tells how you deal with difficult situations. It is a glimpse into your inner self, your strengths and weaknesses which help or hinder you when problem solving.

You will find the best support from your friends and family. (This one has actually been scarily accurate.)

Karma:

These numbers represent areas in our lives where we may be weak. You may have any number of Karmic Lessions left to learn.

1: You may be too shy at times. You must learn to be more assertive and forceful. (Bit of a vicious cycle and a double edged sword. If I continue to be shy, I'm seen as a coward by many. If I become more assertive and forceful than I currently am, I'm seen as a monster. Not saying this is bad advice, but in my case, I feel fucked either way.)

2: You are too impulsive at times. You must learn the finer arts of diplomacy. (This is true. I'm pretty sure a lot of my fans and even my enemies have noticed that at one point or another talking to me. This was one part of my life I tried and failed to desperately control.)

3: You may be self-doubting at time. You will need to learn to trust yourself more often. (Depending on the situation, yes I can be self-doubting, but considering that my will is so strong that it literally keeps me from dying be it by my own hand or the hand of someone else, it's safe to say that if I don't trust or believe in myself then someone out there sure as hell does, because by all intents and logic, I should have been dead 10 times over.)

4: You will be lost about life at times. You must work harder at organizing your life's priorities. (Literally the past 6 years of my life and counting. My priorities are always shifting making it more difficult for me to have a somewhat more stable life.)

6: You will have issues with commitment. You should learn to follow things through and accept change. (This one I struggle hard with, but I've learned to keep going otherwise I wouldn't be here writing this.)

7: You will be self-centered at times. You must learn to collect facts and come to logical, reasonable conclusions. (Way ahead on that one. Yes I can be self-centered, but recently I think before I act. This one here is literally the reason why I no longer give into mob mentality like the rest of the people on this site...no. This entire fucking net.)

8: You can't take too many risks at time. This can hurt you financially, learn to be less impulsive. (In my youth, I was an impulsive risk taker, but nowadays I learned to not suppress my impulses, but try to aim them at a more constructive goal.)

Passions:

Opposite of the Karmic Lessons, the Hidden Passions are areas of our lives where we have a general expertise.

5: You are versatile and impulsive by nature. (Damn straight.)

9: You are naturally happy and content in life. (I try to be. I take every good day I can get and enjoy it while it lasts.)

Now these are just my interpretations of the readings, I could be wrong and someone better at numerology would probably be able to read this better.