First of all, I want to apologize not just for being late in typing, but I want to apologize to everyone on this site as well as all over the net, that I have ever hurt even unintentionally during every drama fest I have ever fought through in this site alone and the entirety of the internet. Regardless if I was justified or not, the way I went about it was wrong, violent and full of hate and even if they act tough back, I can tell that what I said really hurt them. The reason I apologize is that whether they are my friends or my enemies or the neutrals that just want to do their thing and not be a pain to anyone, we're all people. We all have families we turn to when we're not doing this. We all have obligations we have to face every day, such as school and work for most people. We use this site and others like it to escape the shitty hand life dealt us over the years and much of why we don't get along, is because while we all suffer the same pains, the circumstances of our individual lives differ so greatly, that we often get the impression that the other side doesn't understand what we are going through.
Which is 100% bullshit. Pain is pain. Regardless of where it comes from, what does it or who does it, pain is universal. It doesn't matter how we get it, because we still hurt. It doesn't matter who hurts us, because in a way even if we don't know it, we hurt them. But while many of us have suffered this pain mostly physically, through fights and other things, the true pain we all have in common, is the pain in our minds, hearts and souls (if you believe in that sort of thing.).
As a kid, even verbally, I thought the best way to solve my problems was to be so violent and scary, it would scare those that I argue with, into submission and make them leave me alone if I don't walk away myself. It took me a long time to realize that wasn't strength.
While strength by many fighters can tell you, comes from muscle, they often neglect the one muscle that keeps us going above all else:
The Heart
The heart is considered the strongest muscle in our body, but what it represents is more than that. A heartbeat is considered one of the most soothing sounds in the world, hence why parent and child, as well as lovers among most walks of life, often have their head against the chest of another. It's the thing that keeps the rest of the body functioning. Hence why Cardio is often stressed as an important exercise among most. Without a strong heart, it's pointless to even think about exercising the rest of you. Many people think that a headshot is the way to kills someone, be it IRL or in games. When in actuality, some people can function with brain damage, yet if you get shot in the heart, unless you have a new heart on stand by you're dead.
But that's just the physical aspects of the heart. The heart represents a lot of things. It represents the love one has for each other, the passion one has for their work, not to mention the determination and will one gets when they have a clear goal in mind and will stop at nothing to get it.
However, while there is some good sides to the heart, it's not without it's drawbacks.
Every time we neglect our heart, we kill ourselves. Every time our hearts get broken, we go crazy. And every time we try to bury our hearts even for the soul purpose of survival, it tries to break free in many different ways.
And while I do regret some of the things I've said, I've always tried to put my heart and soul in everything I do, including the fights. I have had my heart broken, I was determined to fix it. Every time I had it stepped on, I was determined to step on the person that did it, so they wouldn't step on anyone else's. Every time someone tried to rip my heart out, I would fight tooth and nail to put it back in. And despite all the stress, pain and agony I went through to do so, it proves I still have a heart and it was my strongest weapon the whole time.
So this is my advice to you all, friend, foe and neutral alike. Rather than fight with our fists or even with our words, we fight with our hearts instead. We listen to our hearts and react accordingly. Think less and feel more.
Just recently, I have gotten into the mother of all confrontations, I was almost molested, I had my face beat in, but despite all that, I didn't fight with my fists, I used my heart throughout the whole thing and just when things seemed to be getting worse, I ended up finding the light at the end of the tunnel I was searching for. I was able to find ways of solving my problems without resorting to violence, I used strategies I never thought to use before, but most importantly I fought with all my heart to make sure things were right in my small part in the world. And while it will be a while before the smoke clears and things get better, I have managed to do more damage to the side of evil, than most people ever thought to do. A few days ago, someone very special to me, whom is currently in recovery from their own misfortunes, gave me the best advice anyone could give me. "Be you." Me, regardless of how cool I seem to some and hated to others, deep inside I was nothing more than a sad lonely little boy, trapped in the body of an adult man. Yet said little boy, was what kept me going, I never lost that inner child even when it got tainted by the darker aspects of reality. And as a result, the little boy that I was, was slowly but surely becoming the man I was destined to be. I was able to solve a lot of mysteries of my own life one way or another. So I'm practically a detective. I was able to take control of some situations when no one else would. So I'm practically a leader, but one that will follow other leaders if I think their leadership is worth following. I have a vast knowledge of movies, music and other forms of art. Making me an Artist. Just to name a few qualities, but most importantly I'm Me.
A 32 soon to be 33 year old, Canadian, Autistic Boy, with a lot of potential to the world that I have barely scratched the surface, with a bad attitude and a heart of solid gold reinforced with titanium. This heart may get broken occasionally, but I always managed to put it back together, be it through friends, family or even true love.
So the advice I say unto you is this. No matter where you go, no matter what you do, you're still you. Be you. Fight with your heart, not your fists.
Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.
TheBestBroster
:DDD WOOOAH Awesome!!!!!!!! I love the bit about the heart being the strongest muscle :D And the part of neglecting your heart, having it broken, and what happens when you try to bury it. True stuff about life right there