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Posted by CIEIRMusic - December 23rd, 2023


Welp it finally happened, I have achieved financial success. In a small way, but it's a start. But to quote a certain Simpsons meme:

SOMEONE FINALLY BOUGHT A COPY OF MY NEW BOOK!!


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My book which I've linked the amazon pages on my previous newspost. While I have sold books on Amazon before, this was the first time I've ever seen something of mine sell this fast. And while it was sold on the 20th, 3 days ago, I only recently checked my sales report today. So rule of 3 and 23 was at play here.


Most importantly, I don't know who to thank for this, but thank you very much, because you showed me and this site that my stuff is at least worth the price to look at and it gives me hope that my Bandcamp and Ko-Fi, among most of my things get the same luck even if it's small. The way I see it, to make it in this world, you need to start small, even in small sales. And if I, a man whom before used to bitch and complain about my bad luck, could get this kind of luck, it gives hope that anyone whom has ever been in my position.


I would like to also thank whatever is up there, be it God, Higher Power, Diana, YHWH, Mars, Allah, Buddah, The Hindu Deities, Pagan and Wiccan Gods and Goddesses and whatever the Hell I missed. Because this as small as it is, was nothing short of a miracle.


Most importantly I would like to thank my fans for sticking around this long, putting up with my shit throughout it all and above all else, giving me nothing but love and support throughout the whole thing. I said it once and I'll say it again, this would never have happened if it wasn't for you. So do the site equivalent of standing up and taking a bow. WE DID IT!!!


Take care, stay safe and have Happy Holidays not just this year, but the years to come. Also it was during the free promotion, I am glad that worked. Meaning even if it cost nothing, I've basically planted a seed that will grow into one hell of a tree.


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Posted by CIEIRMusic - December 22nd, 2023


Citizens of Newgrounds. I am S.T. Musician. Also known as Shane. For the past few years I've been on this site, I look back at it with a fresh perspective. The stuff I been through bad and good (some mostly more than the other), have been a great learning experience for me. And even to my worst enemies or my best friends on this site and outside, I have you all to thank for guiding me on this journey. That being said there is something I must tell you. Now bear in mind, this is not meant to insult or offend you. This is not my intention. This is not meant to make you quit this site or social media in general if anything it should encourage you to be more active on it, as you never know where you would find inspiration from and this place and many others, despite their faults are still a great way to share them.


However, that does not mean you have to spend your whole life on them. Social Media and other platforms like this are no different than a fantasy world. As I mentioned here, rule #5 states "Truth is Stranger Than Fiction." I always believed that any form of fiction was not encouraging real life events in a bad way, but really mainly being a reflection of reality. While I will still make music and maybe make it to where I can make enough to not only improve my life but also fund the dreams I've been trying to make reality, I must say, staying off this and many sites for a while has done more for me than spending a chunk of my time on them. It gave me time to re-evaluate my life, get out more and see things I wanted to see as I explored my town a little more. And for the most part I accomplished a lot of short, minor, but still personal goals that I wanted to do, but felt obligated to come here instead. But once I was able to get a stable home and a means of staying alive long enough to explore it. I was able to by complete and total accident, find and find out a few more things. For starters, one of the special effects technician for the David Cronenberg hit, Videodrome, lives in my area. So on top of meeting an effects techie from one of my favourite movie, I basically met a man who personally worked with David Cronenberg, James Woods and whomever else was in the movie cast and crew alike. So that was a major scratch on my bucket list. "Meet someone who works in movies. Meet someone who works in movies you've seen. Meet someone who works in movies and is in a position to talk with the main cast and crew." But that was just pure luck, compared to the other things I experienced.


For starters, due to circumstances surrounding my building including but not limited to that fucked up thing I found out, I decided to go out more and explore places in my neighborhood. Partly because I was afraid of going to jail killing this man myself and anyone that stood in my way. For starters when I first moved into the area I went to the local library that was not too far from my place of residence. I put off looking at that, but something told me I had to go there. And I was glad, because when I confirmed a few things while looking for more books to read on my favourite subjects, such as paranormal and astrology, which was what cemented it for me to write this book. As well as heighten my curiosity and explore that side further. As I walked further down, I found what seemed to be stores that were figuratively and literally right up my alley. I also found as I walked further along, one of the local police stations. Now I live in a neighborhood, that if you were caught inside the police station, you better be a cop, desk jockey, visiting your friends in holding, be arrested or be a lawyer, there is only one word they would call you:

RAT!!!!


It's one of the reasons local citizens seldom call the police. Myself included. It's one of the first rules in surviving cities like that. So needless to say although I couldn't believe it was there, I kept on walking, but before I left I noticed something. That being said, that explains why they hurry quick here, because it's one thing to call 911, it's another when the station is a few blocks away from a crime that can be heard from that far. There was also an EMS logo. Emergency Medical Services. Much like the states, this basically means, Paramedics and other emergency medical stuff. This wasn't just a local police station, it was also a station to park ambulances. Hence why they arrived so quickly whenever something came up in my area. Now I thought that was weird, because I always thought EMS and Police in any part of the world, would be in separate locations even if they were side by side. But then I realized. While people were going about it the wrong way, the police at least in my neck of the woods did listen regarding the safety, health and overall life of whom they're arresting. Now in terms of my views on law enforcement. Here's my summary: I don't like or hate police officers. Some officers in my neighbourhood I've spoken to are nice polite, uniform aside, they're people like me and you. That being said, while I never had it as bad as many others in the history of the world. I have witnessed the nasty side of cops. I won't get into detail of what it is, but take my word for it, it was pretty bad. Me and my family witnessed busts and brutality almost everywhere we went. And that's just the tip of the iceberg of the crime in my town. Some of which even happening to members of my family. As a kid it made me hate them whether people I knew deserved to go to jail or not. I got exposed to shit as a kid, no kid should ever get exposed to.


However, that being said, there are some positives. When I went to the other side of the station and kept moving, I found that there were places I've been before, but just didn't remember at the time. Making my life on the mental side at least, more complete. As a result, new ideas started flooding in, new goals, things that would help me improve on my work either in small doses or one grand thing. As well as finding better ways to achieve other dream goals and life goals.


As a result of this journey as well as many others before it, due to my instinctual need to explore, I was able to find a lot of interesting things. As befitting of one of my favourite Nintendo Characters. I was able to go many places, meet interesting people and while it took only a few years for Link to get where he was, it took me longer. 26 years of my 32 year old life. Soon to be 27 because even with this new lease on life, there will always be a lot to learn and for once I am ready to be taught.


Now this journey wasn't easy. Both on and offline, I fought many battles. Did and said nasty things to many people whether they deserved it or not and most of the time thought my entire life was complete and utter shit. But then I realized, life is a test of character. It's not about what life can throw at you, but how you react to it. To you get hit and fall down, do you try to dodge it or do you keep moving forward. In my case, I have hit hard, got hit hard, kept going no matter where I was going or how bad things may seem, but after so many years, things started to pay off. Hence why I thank my enemies as much as my friends. I realized now all the bad stuff in life were necessities to test my character, see how I can handle things in my own life and the lives of those I care about. In this case, it toughened me up, hardened me, strengthened my resolve. There were times were I was too overconfident, cocky, even outright arrogant and as a result I screwed up badly many times, yet despite all that, I was still able to move forward, no matter what life threw at me. There were a lot of things in my personal life and the lives of those around me that I felt needed to be resolved before I could move forward to my dream goals. And on my journey to solve them I managed to find a lot of things. I found something much bigger than myself. I found a cause worth fighting for. I found friends and family that would have my back no matter what and I know it's kind of a groaner, but I also found love. And I will not lose what I find, to colossal douchebags all over the world both on and offline. I will fight, hurt and even kill just to keep what makes me happy and what makes the people I care about happy. But that being said, I am at a point in my life where I don't even have to do that, no matter how much I want to. And some of you seen how crazy I can be in the past. Why? Because I did the one thing we humans never really truly did since the days of the Internet first surfaced, I spent time in the real world. And as a result I was able to help more people than I ever could hurt, including myself. However that doesn't mean I didn't get my hands dirty once and a while.


Look as much as I groan about how things are these past couple years, but neither I, you or anyone for that matter would ever be frustrated had we spent a little less time on the net and a little more time in the real world. We have technology that can replicate many experiences whether we like them or not. Including but not limited to the recent AI trend. But the one thing it cannot do so far are the things you would need to survive this world from food to clothing. It can make tools to make that stuff, but not replicate the stuff at least yet this year. That's where the line of fiction and reality is drawn. Because while we were able to do a lot of things on the internet including but not limited to many ways of making money, reality is the only place where you can get a decent meal.


Basically what I am saying is instead of looking at the world through a fucking screen, look at it with your own eyes. At least once and a while. You never know, there are probably places you've never been to or things you never seen, heard, felt, smelled, tasted or touched. It's not too late, you have so much to live for and this is how to live. So what I ask of you is this:


NEVER GIVE UP ON REAL LIFE!!!!


Take the bad with the good, the right with the wrong, because they aren't faults, they're learning experiences and who knows, when you do better your life, it may end up inspiring you if not....just a little more. All it takes is that first step.


Good luck, stay safe and have many wonderful Happy Holidays. And to those who snore on this, your loss.


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Posted by CIEIRMusic - December 21st, 2023


This was a topic that has been bugging me for a while. Ever since Columbine, even to this day, the fear of School Shootings similar to the crime, I believe was one of the downfalls of society.


Now before I get into this, I must stress that this is not meant to offend the victims or even the families of the shooters. In terms of the families, they have every right to be angry and sad about what happened, because let's face it, it was their children they lost in a pointless bloodbath. As for the families of shooters, that varies. If these people have intentionally abused their kids, which lead to them snapping and killing others, they are to blame. If these parents or other relatives for that matter, didn't realize their kid was gonna become this, then they have my sympathies. I know what it's like to lose family either way.


Now, while there have been shootings after the massacre. This specific event was considered the gold standard for many reasons, including but not limited to blaming many media for putting them up to it.


They blamed video games like Doom:

Which I gotta say, is pretty damn stupid to call this a murder simulator. The gun in the game is already sighted, compared to a real pistol or a rifle, it's too easy to shoot things with it. So calling it a training simulator would be asinine. If one were to blame anything, it'd be the later games, as they tried to make the weapons more realistic. But even then I think that's bullshit anyway.


They blamed movies like The Boondock Saints:

Which while so bloody and vulgar are not involved in things like this, because those characters are not villains, they're Anti-Heroes. They go after bad people. If they saw Dylan and Eric do their thing, they'd make them pray and they'd execute them.


They even blamed Music like Marylin Manson:

Which, while he is a controversial figure for other reasons, telling teens to kill other teens is not one of them....at least that I know of, the man himself is fucking creepy.


Point being is that because it happened around a time when many mediums started to show no filter, from violence to sex, drugs and rock and roll. And they were already slamming it anyway, so what's another blame after that.


That being said, the media did fight back. Starting with this very site:


Although there are many reasons not to show this, including but not limited to a certain musician, but when I first saw this, I had no idea what Columbine even was. All I thought was "Bad guy shooting school, good guy kills bad guy." And that's what it was, in it's simplest form. Pico was the Anti-Columbine, the rarity one trusts to have a piece with them incase others start shooting. While it was meant to be a controversial take on the subject, the impact he left gave many of us Newgrounds kids hope. And I thank @TomFulp For that.


As a result of said impact many popular shows and movies start taking shots at it:


Family Guy started it:

At first when I watched this episode I thought "How dare they? They're turning the situation into a joke." Which at first pissed me off, then I realized, that was the point. While it doesn't show much anymore, Family Guy like many other family sitcom shows like the Simpsons took inspiration from All in The Family:

Using Norman Lear's formula of making a controversial event, look stupid, so that no one takes it seriously and doesn't fear it anymore. The other show inspired by him:

South Park. On top of Cartman being a kid version of Archie Bunker, they did a whole story arc based on the recent shooting at the time. Now Trey Parker and Matt Stone are Colorado Residents, they were there when Columbine went down and even shared their opinion on it:

Granted this is from a documentary I hate, but at the same time, Matt Stone had a real opinion on the matter.


So when they did a story arc where the running gag is that School Shootings are their version of natural disasters, something bad, but nothing that bothers them. Now the aesop of the first episode entitled "Dead Kids" was that Sharon was in the right, that people should care that kids are dead in this. However, because of South Parks "Equal Opportunity and Discrimination." clause, on top of mocking the other side, that said side does have points. This was the same show that has had Aliens, A gigantic Barbara Streisend and Tom Cruise reek havoc on their town, so something as bad as a school shooting, would be Child's Play to them. It made me feel less worried about it, because they were telling people to stop worrying about it too much. Worry that it's your loved ones or the loved ones of a friend, but don't treat it like you're the only one that suffered a tragic loss. And considering these guys stuck with it during Covid, they know what they are talking about.


Now that was just problem number one with this specific shooting. Problem number two is the part that's been bugging me. Because a lot of people never been around the era's before, those that have seen it or heard it in the news, treat it like it's not only the first time they heard of a massacre, but also as if it was the first and ever ONLY school shooting.


Now at first I thought that was odd and as a result I decided to look and see if there were shootings or any kind of murder that happened in schools before. So I looked a list I found here. This is a list of every school murder that has occurred before the year 2000. To list off a few:

  1. November 12 1840. The first ever documented School Shooting in the United States of America. It happened in Charlottesville Virginia. John Anthony Gardner Davis, a law professor at the University of Virginia school law. A respected teacher whom was shot to death because he tried to break up a fight between two students during a student riot which has been described as periodical. Considering it was the 1800s, I wouldn't even be surprised if it was a six shooter. But that always baffled me. Teachers are often on the block along with the students and this was the first time this was demonstrated. So for all we know this could have been the beginning of a curse or at the very least a massive amount of negative energy.
  2. August 16 1856. Florence Alabama. The first documented time a teacher killed student to death. While the shooter and the victim don't have names on that list. The killing itself was petty save for the end. A schoolmaster, warned a student not to harm his pet sparrow. The student killed it by accident, resulting in the Schoolmaster, taking the student somewhere private and strangling him to death. The father of said student, went up to the school and killed him. Now considering this took place 9 years before Slavery was put to an end since Alabama, the reason why few talk about it inside and outside that state, is because at the time in comparison to this, more fucked up shit was going on, including but not limited to the closing 9 years of the American Civil War. No different than many wars going all over our world today.
  3. This one isn't on that list, but it should be. I don't give a fuck whom was the shooter that time. May 4 1970, Kent State Univeristy. During a peaceful protest against the War of Vietnam. Yes that War. The protestors were shot to death by the Ohio National Guard. I don't care what people's opinion on the war was, that was wrong. Very very wrong.


But my point stands, there have been many murders as well as other crimes that happened to school before and the stuff post Columbine is no different. Every shooting invoked fear for those that paid attention to it, while the rest of the world was dealing with problems bigger than that, including but not limited to the many wars going on over the past centuries. But because Columbine overshadowed them all, based on the time and place it was going on, it was like to the people, that the other stuff didn't happen. When in actuality, it's been happening for as long as school, war and weapons have been a thing.


To put it bluntly we been warned, but we never got the message, because bigger stuff took higher priority. Hell, before Columbine, the first ever fictional media depicted involving teens shooting other teens was a dark comedy called Heathers:


To sum up the story. Think the movie Mean Girls only if both the Mean Girls and Cady Heron went to Columbine. At the time, people laughed at this movie, because they didn't think the idea of a teen snapping and killing other teens would happen. But the old comedy rule, as morbid as it sounds still applies "It's funny because it's true." Nowadays, people are struggling whether or not to remake this, due to the subject matter at the time. Hell many of the Anti-Media old timers, blamed this movie for inspiring Eric and Dylan. When if anyone actually bothered watching the movie, they wouldn't discover the Aesop. For starters, despite that clip I just shown, J.D. played by a then up and coming Christian Slater didn't use his gun on school property to murder those two Jocks. The gun had blanks, he got suspended (Which even back then is fucked up, but hey, 80s Comedy rules.) and most of the murders he and Veronica (Winona Ryder) commit were often off property or at the very least far away from the school. However the main theme wasn't to send some message in that way. Each person they both killed had it staged to look like Suicide the gun rarely involved:


That being said, neither School Shootings nor Suicide was the topic. The Aesop was that no matter what you do to fight back, the enemy often feeds off your resistance and gets stronger in ways you cannot imagine. Case in point, they murdered their classmates, staged it like suicide, but because the notes were well written, people saw them not as bullies, but as lost souls lashing out through obligation. Boosting their popularity. It's one of the reasons why I honestly think, even if said shooters were bullied, this would be a stupid way to go about things. Hell, before Veronica stopped him, J.D. was gonna blow up the school and leave the mother of all suicide notes, to make it look like as he described it "A woodstock in the 80s." The idea of bully and innocent student alike would immortalize themselves through a suicide bomb pact. Basically speaking, the movie was trying to tell people, that killing your bullies was a bad idea. Plus it didn't just extend to movies regarding the subject before and after. But also expressed the "Teenage revenge fantasy." in other ways. The ultimate example being Carrie:

Before Heathers, this was the ultimate Teenage Revenge Movie. Imagine this scenario. A quiet, shy, sometimes nice and fearful student. Abused by her parents, tormented by her teens and so unpopular that save for a few sympathetic people, everyone fucking hates her. Then one day, she has a chance at true happiness and is about to change her life for the better. Only for some petty jackasses ruining it for her, not just by humiliating her in a disgusting way, but also inadvertently killing one of the few people that was ever nice to her. Then she fucking snaps and kills everyone she lays her eyes on. Yet as justified as poor Carietta "Carrie" White, was in her revenge, she still died tragically, be it by her own hand or by the hand of someone else too scared to fight her directly. Sound familiar? There's a reason why I posted the same scene in all three different versions. When Stephen King wrote that book all those years ago, he was both ahead and back of his time. He must have at one point looked into school related murders in the past, even ones that don't involve guns. And while he does insist that the original 1976 Brian De Palma movie, is the better adaptation, so better he considers it better than his book, the other two hold a place in this too. The first one, was Pre-Columbine. The not so well received sequel The Rage Carrie 2:

Was released March 12 1999. 39 days before the day of the Columbine Massacre. It barely made it before then, because before it happened, much like Heathers, the hot button topic was teenage suicide and while the sequel is sloppy, I understood what they were doing at the time. Their way of bringing awareness to what was at the time the most talked about topic. Hell Columbine ended with a double suicide, so needless to say, this movie may as well have predicted how it was gonna end.


Which brings me to the new remakes. Between the 2002 remake with Angela Bettis in the title role and Chloe Grace Moretz in the 2013 role. The latter literally 10 years before this article has been written. Now while some of the fans of the original hated this movie I liked it for many reasons. Much like Carrie 2, they tried invoking stuff from the books that wasn't explored in the original film. Such as Carrie's extended powers. But most importantly, they were able to be more apt with their message, because of what happened in Columbine and the shootings that follow. The movies were warning about the consequences of teen revenge and no matter how much they hammered the point, not only did many of us not listen, but some of us humans blamed movies like this as the cause, which can be clearly seen as unbelievable bullshit.


But that's just problem number two.


The third and final problem is blame on a somewhat asinine source: The weapons used in the massacre. For context, Dylon and Eric used the following guns. Two 9MM pistols, one of which a machine pistol, two Twelve Gague Shotguns one of which sawed off, One Rifle. Needless to say the amount of firepower they purchased alone, was enough to start a small scale war. And that is not even getting started on the explosives and knives. The weapons themselves were purchased through fraud and other illegal means, that most law enforcement at the time wouldn't even expect. To to it off both firearms and other weapons alike were modified and customized in ways that it's not legal in that state. So needless to say even if there weren't stricter gun laws, if they got caught with one thing, the cops would have put them in jail or at least gave them some much needed court ordered therapy.


Now here's the thing that bugs me, while it was shown and told that they used other weapons on top of this, the only weapons that were blamed, were the guns themselves.


Now before I say what I'm about to say, let me make this perfectly clear. Save for watching action movies, I do not like Guns. I do not like having guns in my home, I do not like people bringing guns near me if I can help it. However, I know exactly how they work, how to shoot and even with something as small and somewhat harmless in comparison like a pellet gun or a nerf gun or even a simulated shooter like Wii or Virtua Cop, I'm a pretty damn good shot. And while there is a lot of Catharsis, killing video game characters in any way, I never once got violently mad and inspired by said games. I'm one of many examples that anti-media crowd does not want to talk about, because it tears a hole in their bullshit narrative. But getting a bit off topic. I don't like guns, don't want to use them, but that doesn't mean I don't know how one way or another.


And even if I was a gun nut, in my country, it's a lot harder to get a gun here than it is in the states and even here many guns are still sold illegally. In Canada, in order to get a license for a gun, you either need a Firearms License or a Hunting License. However it's not that simple, for both on top of the usual paperwork, you need to get a psych evaluation, to show that you are mentally capable of responsibly using a firearm for the purpose of hunting or home defense. And even if you pass, guns are a lot more expensive and there are more laws preventing you from even using one. To the point where even in self defense you could get charged with First Degree Murder, unless you got a really good lawyer or a lucky horseshoe stuck up your ass.


Now despite my dislike of guns, I do respect the 2nd Amendment, the right to bear arms. So it's a tear between my morality and my need to be lawful good even in countries outside of mine. However, that being said, while a lot of people in the states do not like gun control, even considering it unpatriotic, Gun Control is just as American as the right to own a gun. Case in point the Tombstone Incident. Among many things, the feud between the famous Earp Family and the notorious Cowboys, was sparked by the following things.

  1. Paranoia. Although Wyatt has retired since the Dodge City Incident, among most things, many of the local Cowboys of Tombstone Arizona, were afraid he was there to bring Law and Order, due to his ferocity in battle and the legend that he never got a single gunshot wound. As later proven when Earp finally snapped and took out Curly Bill. All Wyatt and Fam wanted to do was settle down in a somewhat developed town, make enough money and retire, but these assholes kept pushing them, killing their family members out of spite and even threatening their wives. No different than how many wars small and big started. The definition of self fulfilling prophecy.
  2. Even though Wyatt himself was out of the game, his brothers Virgil and Morgan became Marshals because they felt bad for exploiting a town already ravaged by crime. Which increased their paranoia even though Wyatt was trying to talk them out of it.
  3. As an extension of 2, one of their first acts of town Marshall was to ban guns from being carried within town streets. Basically pioneering the Gun Control laws we constantly debate over. I repeat, members of the Earp Family, each one notoriously good with a gun and has a crack shot like Doc Holliday as their ally, were trying to ban guns on the town streets.

Now at this time guns were needed now more than ever. This was in 1881, 16 years after the American Civil War had ended. When people slowly stopped fighting each other state to state and slowly but surely came together as a country. Each state had their own rules and regulations, some of which still damn controversial like the Slave Trade (Which by the way didn't even get the 13th Amendment until 8 months after the war and is still talked about to this day), but at the same time had the common ground of peace and harmony. Even if they didn't agree with how to achieve it. So at the time when Virgil Earp did the first laws that eventually evolved into the Gun Control Debate, he did so in a way that appeased those that needed guns as well as weed out trouble makers:

Now while there were some still clamoring and disagreeing among the crowd. The majority of them weren't even the Cowboys. They were citizens so scared of them that they thought they needed at least a gun to protect themselves or die fighting them. Which back then was serious, but because they loved and respected Virgil's Predecessor Fred White, a man whom while a lawman was so well loved that the Cowboy leader Curly Bill was actually upset when he accidentally shot him after an Opium binge, that they would follow Virgil's word. Even think of said shooting as a factor into it. To put it plainly the innocent citizens would be outraged, but still follow the law. The only ones that didn't follow the gun law were The Cowboys, but not because they were defending the 2nd Ammendment, but because they were murderers, rapists, thieves and killers that gave no fucks what society thought of them so long as they keep doing what they did. So needless to say when one Earp wanted to ban guns in town, they wanted to shoot the entire Earp Brotherhood of course anyone who's either seen the movie Tombstone or any movie depicting the Earps for that matter, knew how that argument went:


Now bare in mind, save for Wyatt, none of the Earps ever killed anyone in a gunfight before. Yet despite that, they along with Holliday killed many in a fight many to this day debate which side started it. However they were there to enforce a law they just enacted. Virgil was leading the charge and the brothers and Doc were just back up in case things go wrong. The definition of Peace Officer. Yet rather than take the hint and the remaining members either surrendering or turning in their guns, they kept on pushing. They kept on pushing until it became an all out war.


Now while I am still on the side of Will Smith regarding the feud, I am reminded of something Chris Rock said when he was in Head Of State:

While he made many good points, he specifically mentioned this.

"How can you help the poor, if you never been poor? How can you stop crime if you don't know no criminals? How can you make drug policy if you never smoked the chronic?"


In case of my life, I live in a crime town, I seen first hand what drugs have done to people and I've literally gone from a spoiled brat from the sticks to a man whom because he's been put through the ringer and keeps on fucking going, is on the way to becoming one of the most respectable if not most dangerous human being in the fucking world. But that's just a glimpse of my life.


In the case of the Earps, they been on both sides of the law, used guns for many things and have witnessed many death and destruction on all sides. Much of which cost them their family's lives. So if anyone has something to fucking say about how guns should be handled it's that family. And yet even those who are fans of the Earps failed to understand their message. They fought so we never had to, but rather than take the hint, we fight in their place. We win some, we lose some. That's Life. But to blame it on anything other that pettiness, pointlessness or just plain fucking stupid things like Media, Personal Revenge and Fucking Guns themselves when other weapons could have done the same if not much more fucked up damage, is completely fucking stupid. Not only that, but a lot of people have not only use the fear to cause further fear along the line. But also exploited it for little more than profit and personal agenda. Even one of the most famous victims of the shooting, the mother whom did a story on her daughter's death, did so to profit and to put her personal, biased, religious based POV on why she thought they did what they did. She made money off her daughter's death that should have either been split among the loved ones or donated to the other victim's families. Making her an evil, manipulative disgusting bitch. But she's only the tip of the Iceberg. Many walks of life, from bad media, to corrupt politicians, used the fear and the confirmation of further shootings post Columbine to get ahead. Jack Thompson, being one of the prime examples. When you get right down to it, the post-Columbine fear became a staple of many scandals, scams and other things people bitch about regarding America.


In my personal opinion on the subject, I respect the legal right, but it literally would not kill you guys to give every legal gun purchase from Gun Shops, To Hunting Shops, to Banks, To God forbid Yard Sales, without at least doing a psych test as well as a background check and seeing if the guy may most likely snap and kill someone. It's not banning guns entirely you fucking gun nuts, just making sure they don't fall into the wrong hands.


But to make a long story short on everything, fear of the Massacre was an even bigger threat than the Massacre itself and that's how Eric and Dylan won in the end of their lives. They became immortalized, treated as martyrs and that's the example future shooters follow, because they spread the fear to keep it going. And it doesn't stop at schools. Shopping Malls, Movie Theaters, Casinos, Bars and Clubs and even Law Enforcement Facilities, Government Buildings and your own neighborhood.


Now just after saying that I'm pretty sure I probably scared you, traumatized you and maybe even made you a little paranoid. If that's the case I do apologize, but there is a point to all this. Every place where these massacres are involved, are places where people are supposed to feel safe, be it through Education, Law, Survival and Overall Leisure. Yet as a result of many murders and even more, the fear and paranoia it spread among the populace, it made them feel unsafe to even be at home. However here's something I learned today. While I myself am not an Alcoholic, AA as well as it's most famous member Stephen King invoked it in one of the Novels I read a few years back. Doctor Sleep. Much like many of his books, King puts quotes in his chapters, as a subtitle. In the case of Doctor Sleep, which among many themes, goes into detail of how Alcoholics Anonymous operates, it uses two sayings that are really one full saying. But it's the Acronym for FEAR.


The first saying "FEAR stands for Fuck Everything and Run." While it applies to alcoholism's hold on a person, it also applies to other aspects of life. Moments where you should have been brave and instead ran the direction. I should know, because I used to be one of those idiots. Then there's the second saying. "FEAR Stands for Face Everything and Recover." Which is basically saying that being afraid is not a problem, but if you're able to face your fears and go forward in life no matter what traumatizes you.


In my case, I was initially afraid of going to the movies because if it could happen in Aurora it'd be most likely to happen in my town. But instead, I went to see Dark Knight Rises and never feared going to the movies again. Including but not limited to the last time I seen a movie in theaters before Covid hit:

Before that disaster hit, the biggest fear that another Aurora would happen, a fear so great that Aurora itself tried to get this specific movie banned from theaters, both to not trigger survivors and the victim's families. As well as not have a repeat of what happened, because they specifically blamed, The Dark Knight for the shooting. Yet when the movie hit the theaters, nothing happened. Despite all fears, nothing happened. Hell Frozen 2 had a more violent reception.


And rather than show praise it didn't happen, Press of all walks, were pissed it didn't because it didn't give them the money making chaos it was looking for. Some were accused of trying to start it or encourage it, but having the same luck as Chief Wiggum did when he spied on Homer and Marge:


It made me realize then and there that many press on all sides would rather capitalize on an attention seeking disaster than document the good sides of life. And when Covid did hit, they got what they wished for. When I said before that fear of the virus was worse than the virus itself, that was what I was talking about. Because in that fear, panicked people do stupid things, smart people keep a cool head no matter how difficult things can be and conniving people on all sides of life would capitalize on everything including but not limited to paying high price for toilet paper.


To make a very long story short, fear makes things worse than they actually are, take it away and it makes those things powerless.


Now the question is, this if you managed to read all that, which FEAR are you. The Fuck Everything and Run type or the Face Everything and Recover type? Let me know in the comments below. If you're the latter, than hopefully people remember Columbine as it used to be. A beautiful flower before it got trampled on by fear, controversy and dumbass mob mentality.


Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.


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Posted by CIEIRMusic - December 19th, 2023


Basically picking up where this left off:

Ok. You're gonna think I'm fucking nuts, but hear me out.


I decided, while it took me some time to do so, to expand on my religious concept as well as add some more things to it, to better appeal to both religious and non-religious readers. So I present to you the first in what I hope to be many official CIEIR Literature books:


合併精神之道: Hébìng Jīngshén Zhī Dào: The Way of The Incorporated Spirit

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While the title link is directly to the Canada version of the site this book is available in all the Amazon Kindle sites. United States, United Kingdom, Germany, France, Spain, Italy, Netherlands, Japan, Brazil, Mexico, Australia and Asia-Pacific. But I hope the whole world one way or another reads this.


On top of setting up the rules, I've also done chapters related to my personal experiences. Some many would find hard to believe, but who cares. The point of the book is to combine all the great aspects of everything religion and non religion related. It's not meant to show one way only. The entire point is to try to unite the world rather than further divide it. And for those too lazy to read, be it my stuff or anything, you can even choose not to read this. That's the point. The point is that this is meant to help people find their own paths in life.


But that said, I do hope you read this. Not sure if I did it right, but there is a free promotion that allows those to read it for free, but also if you have Kindle Unlimited anyway, you'd still be able to read it for free. I hope you enjoy.


Also it's the first book I published where I used S.T. Musician as my pen name. I may make more, fiction and non fiction under that name in the future.


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Posted by CIEIRMusic - December 15th, 2023


Partially inspired by this:

Faith is Not Bullshit!!


But as well as a lot of things.


I come to realize regarding that, that the world's religions do have some degree of truth to them. So I decided to come up with a religious concept, that is not quite original, but should be stated now.


As I mentioned in that article, I've basically without realizing it until recently, that I've applied Jeet Kune Do philosophy, to my faith. So I thought "Huh, good idea. Maybe others might be interested in at least hearing it." So applying said philosophy I came up with my own concept. It's kinda similar to Unitarianism, but hopefully less sloppy. I give you:


合併精神之道: Hébìng Jīngshén Zhī Dào: The Way of The Incorporated Spirit


Now this concept is not meant to make you ditch your core beliefs, that is not the intention, so if you feel offended by what I am about to say, I deeply apologize. This concept however borrows from Jeet Kune Do Philosophy right down to the creed:

  1. Absorb what is useful.
  2. Reject what is not.
  3. Add in what is essentially your own.


As well as the main tenet: "Using No Way as Way; Having No Limitation As Limitation."


This concept is no different, only instead incorporating what you feel was right in your respective religion as well as others outside your circle, but reject what you don't feel was right about it and at the same time, adding your own personal link to the mix. In my case, I Incorporated the best of Christianity, Native, Judaism and Wiccan, in my overall religious palette. Rejected what most including myself dislike about said religions, specifically all the shit that talks about war and other violence in their name. I also incorporated both Western and Eastern Zodiac, into it, both because it's scarily accurate lately, but as for the latter. I gotta pay tribute to Bruce Lee on that one. He had a glimpse of what life should be like, but it was up to us to interpret everything he said our own way.


Now like every concept, there are rules, but they are simple to follow and I shall put them out now:

  1. Whatever core belief you have, use it as your base. Whether your Christian, Muslim, Jewish, Witch, Native or even the lack thereof, such as Atheist, has a place for this, because while they believe in strictly science, I believe even in their own way, they stumbled upon half of life's mysteries. Incorporating a little Buddhism here, but it's like a Bonsai tree. You have strong roots, but eventually you have to branch out. The tree chooses how to grow, just like how you choose how you grow.
  2. Don't be afraid to even look at the other ones. One of the biggest things in religious debate, is that we often refuse to see the other side of the argument, no matter who thinks they're in the right or wrong. There have been some sects of certain religions, Christianity included, that try to scare people out of having an open mind. Anyone who's went to church would say something like "If you're reading the Torah or the Quran, you're going straight to Hell." There are some people, smart people whom would think. "That's bullshit. We should worship God (Or whatever), our own way." While others think "Well this person is a Priest/Rabbi/Imam, maybe they're onto something." Humans do not speak for God or whatever is out there, that is left to those deities themselves. Reading the other texts outside your religion could either, see things their way or enlighten your own personal beliefs. The possibilities are endless. Part of what made me open minded, was because I did look into as many religious books as possible and I took out was wrong to me and kept what was right.
  3. Find common ground. We as a species for all intents and purposes are alike in many ways, some of which we don't even know about. Certain religions have certain taboos, that forbid them to eat certain foods. The popular being Pork and Shellfish, just to name a few. Find the foods you guys can both eat and simply swap recipes. Little known fact about me, to save money, I bought Halal blessed brand hot dogs. A lot of people I know, whom are somewhat Islamaphobic wouldn't eat the stuff for one reason or another. So I joked about it to them mostly to mess with them, saying "You're not gonna turn Muslim if you eat their hot dogs." or any product under the name. Me I would treat it the same if it were a Kosher Hot Dog. If it's cheaper than the other brands and your life depends on it, buy it. It's not gonna convert you even if it is blessed. You choose if you want. Blessing is based on belief, so if you believe eating certain blessed meat is ok with you and it saves you money, then what's the problem? But it's not just food. A lot of cultures often use similar materials for all their walks of life. Fashion, Religion, Politics, you name it. A lot of them despite their differences use the same materials for their clothes, the same plants for their rituals and vote for the same person, based on their personal beliefs. Find that common ground and you could literally be drinking buddies with the Devil themselves and not end up in Hell.
  4. If it comes from you, it's always the right way. Most people are sticklers for traditions, when it comes to worshiping what they worship. Christians, Muslims and Jewish have their respective Churches, Mosques and Synagogues, whereas others prefer to do their stuff either alone at home, or outside in tune with nature. The way I see it, if you do have faith, no matter where you go, no matter what you do, whatever you worship is always watching. So take the time even a small amount to pray, meditate or whatever you all usually do. Hell, I seen many many shopkeepers in my years take a break from work, just so they can face Mecca and Pray. Others of different walks of life have small statues and other images of worship that they brought from their own home. For example, there was a pizza place that was run by Chinese Buddhists, but later run by Muslims. Yet despite that statue being a contradiction of their practices, they left it be and even put offerings to it out of respect not just for Buddha, but for the people that owned the store before. Now why does that sound familiar? Because there was a similar concept in Raiders of The Lost Ark, in which the Medallion for the Staff of Ra used old measurements as part of a clue to find the Ark of The Covenant. Specifically the staff was supposed to be "6 Kadam High and take back one Kadam to honor the Hebrew God who's Ark this is." In all sense of logic, that Pharoah shouldn't fear or respect the Hebrew God, because to the Pharoah, that God shouldn't even exist. Yet followed those rules exactly, out of fear that it might. And considering what that Ark is capable of......he did the right thing. To put it simply, even in the world of Fiction, differing believers do sometimes follow the rules of others. Be it out of fear or respect. Which leads me to the next rule.
  5. Truth is Stranger Than Fiction. Now this concept does not just apply to the known religions. This applies to other aspects that have been disregarded as not real. Such as fictional works. Movies, Books, Comics, Manga, TV Shows, Web Shows and the like. Each work is a reflection on how it's creator sees the world and how they like to change it. When I was younger, people told me that Comic Book Superheroes became the Modern Myths. In place of Hercules, Sampson and the like, there is Superman, Batman, Spider-Man. But now that I look into it further, there is more stranger truth to these fictions. In terms of DC Comics as a whole, their main schtick was to make heroes we aspire to be like. It's why Superman's always a God and Batman is always Rich. They are the people we do in our own ways want to be like, however, if we focus too much on those extremes, we never get the message. Case in point Batman. They made him rich because they wanted someone outside the usual demographics to endure the same pain and suffering we all had regardless of wealth and status: The loss of loved ones and what we do about it. In Bruce Wayne's case, rather than simply retreat into his wealth and live the life simply as a billionaire playboy, he used his wealth and connections to do a two pronged approach, with the goal being to make Gotham so safe, that families don't have to walk in alleyways in fear. Using Batman to scare criminals and Bruce Wayne to give them a better alternative to their lives of crime. It's why I got so pissed when they compared him to Trump. They just didn't get it. With Superman, he is a God, but he prefers people treat him no different than the average person. He doesn't want worship, he simply wants to make Earth better than Krypton and inspire others to help him. He could have cleaned things up in a snap, but there wouldn't be the point of him being there. Then you have Marvel Comics. While they have lost their way recently, the core message is buried there. People you can relate to. The heroes in the stories save for a few, come from all walks of life. Businessmen, Soldiers, Reporters, you name it. Every job you seen or heard about, they done. But none so much hammered to the point, than Spider-man. This was a guy whom literally went through the mother of all ringers in both sides of his life, yet continued to keep going and keep positive, even in moments where he himself gave into anger. He's the guy that tries to live up to the standards of the DC Heroes, no matter how much it cost him. Kinda like a certain biblical figure whom no matter what was thrown at him, he still kept keeping his faith in God. But much like Job, I hope Spider-Man eventually gets a well deserved happy ending. Even if I don't live to see it and the stories continue on long after I die of old age.
  6. Incorporate your superstitions. Now this is a little different than religion, because while it does share with religion, this applies to many minor superstitions and omens that one probably either made up themselves or learned from other superstitious people. For example. One person suggested I put a box of Table Salt in my cupboard. I thought she was merely offering me a seasoning and I politely declined, but she told me, that even if I'm not using salt to eat, I keep it in my cupboard anyway. She said, that as long as I have salt in my cupboard, I won't go broke. I never questioned it, but for good measure I bought my own salt. It was iodized sea salt, but that made things better, because on top of getting it, it was salt I could use for both health and rituals. So needless to say even if it didn't work the way she said it would work, it did work for me, in other aspects of life. If you know anyone that tells you of certain superstitions good and bad. At least consider it. Even if it's not what you believe, it may help you in your core beliefs and own superstitions one way or another.
  7. As long as it makes you happy, fuck what anyone else says. This one is kinda personal, but I managed to use that to stop a conflict once. Many people who try to argue against your core beliefs, often don't get how said beliefs make one happy, in tune and above all else, the true meaning of blessed. Fuck all of them. Anyone that says your brainwashed, is not worth your time, because they don't respect your beliefs. Anyone that says you're full of shit, you know your truth, that's what matters. As long as what you believe, makes you happy and appreciative of the things in your life, then all the better for it.


I'll probably come up with more things, later on the line, but until then, this is the basic concept. You can interpret it how you wish or not use it at all. Other than that, take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.


Also I'm writing a book on this to expand on the ideas.


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Posted by CIEIRMusic - December 15th, 2023


Over the years I've entered many contests, not just here, but all over the net and outside. Not won a single thing, save for some consolation prizes. I always thought to myself "Why the fuck do I keep losing." It wasn't until recently, when I started winning at things that I never beat before that I got the answer. Back then there were a lot of bullshit standards about winning or losing. Whether it's contests, simple games, sports or even life, many people react to winning the wrong way and especially losing the wrong way. Myself included. So like many aspects of life I will teach you how to win properly and lose properly. Based on my own experiences.


  1. In terms of entering the contest or other competition. Enter like you don't care if you win or lose. Just enter like it's something fun to participate. If there are reasons you cannot enter be it by their rules or your morals, don't enter or at the very least ask the specifics of the rules first. Every time. This is a little shade thrown at certain contest hosts and judges, but not all the times, sometimes, you shouldn't have to leave an answer buried somewhere for people to find. Contestants have just as much a right to know whether or not a contest is worth entering, just as you have a right to let in or keep out whom.
  2. Once in, do the following: Don't boast about your work, don't be arrogant and overconfident about the win. Just show good sportsmanship and if you really like the other person's entry, don't be afraid to compliment it. Much of many people's problems, myself included is that we as a species are overtly competitive even if the contest is amongst friends. It gives off a bad attitude that is so disgusting, said friends won't be your friends anymore. It's why not a lot of them compliment on their "Competition's" work. Because they're afraid that if they show niceness to their perceived "Enemy" that said "Enemy" has a better chance at winning. Me my only beef was that they got stingy about the amount of seconds they allowed after the limit. The way I saw it, was unless it was a minute after 6, then it should have counted as 6 minutes. But other than that, I would have done what I always did, show sportsmanship and wish them luck and should they win. Congratulate them if I can. Which leads me to the next rule.
  3. If you Win: Don't boast, don't insult, don't brag. The universe doesn't revolve around you and the reason you get this win, is because even if it doesn't, the universe cut you a break. We are in that universe too, so you should really be thanking us rather than telling us to "Fuck off." during said win. There is such thing as a bad winner and eventually when they keep that attitude for the rest of their lives, they'll end up losing something else they never realized. If you win, do the following: Thank your competitors, because they worked hard and if not for them, you wouldn't have the motivation for entering in the first place. Thank the judges for being fair and unbiased (If they are) and thank your fans for supporting you even if it's just being an addition to your numbers. Long story short, be a Good Winner, a Nice Winner. Humble, Modest, yet still deserving of said win.
  4. If you Lose: This is the most difficult rule to follow, but once again I quote Bruce Lee: "Like everyone else, you want to learn the way to win, but never accept the way to lose. To accept defeat, to learn to die is to be liberated from it. So when tomorrow comes, you must free your ambitious mind and learn the art of Dying." What he was talking about, was losing with confidence and facing your eventual death with dignity. It's filthy rich coming from me, but losing a contest is not the end of the world. There are always more contests, they're a dime a dozen and even if you lose this one, there's always the next one. Even if you don't win the main prize, they may give you something else as compensation. Things you didn't know of. Such as having your work featured on their playlists or things like that. Stuff that will help you get out there and achieve your life's goals in other ways. I didn't see it that way then, but I see it now.
  5. Most importantly: No matter what happens, have fun. These specific contests and collabs are meant to show your creativity outside your usual work, the ability to think outside the box every now and then. It's much more fun to build something in general, rather than simply building something you think is gonna win. If you enter these competitions simply to win, then that's when you really lose. If you enter these competitions and have fun regardless if you win or lose, then you really win in other ways.


So take my advice and try to use it to reflect on the many losses of your life. Who knows, it may help you not just become a better loser, but a better winner as well. I'm a loser. I'm fucking proud to be a loser. I may win the big things in life one day, but until then, who gives a shit. Just survive in anyway you can and be patient. Even wins you never expected then, may happen to you now.


Take care, stay safe, and stay tuned for more.


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Posted by CIEIRMusic - December 13th, 2023


Just when I thought my Christmas Miracle was the limit of good things, I ended up getting more than I bargained for. On this December 13th a lot of good things happened to me.


  1. I won a game of pool for the first time in years. Using a strategy I used once to inadvertently beat two professional pool players in my past.
  2. I have slowly but surely improved on my chess skills, using puzzle games to improve my strategic mind. Against a computer, even on easy mode was hard on me, but when I realized the reason why, I was able to get 3 Checkmates and 3 Stalemates. The latter meaning I made the Computer give up. Which fills me with more confidence.
  3. Most importantly, I managed to have one full day without any drama. So needless to say, it was a very good day.


No word of a lie though as good as it was, it's starting to scare me a little....in a good way. But it's still a "What The Fuck?" moment for me. A good one but seriously what the actual fuck? Don't get me wrong, I am gonna hold on to these good moments while I still can and better late than never. However I still can't believe all the crap I went through came to this. Things have started to loosen up in a very good way. The environment around me, is literally cleaning itself up before it's eyes and literally everything I have ever hoped and prayed for, has started to slowly, but surely come true. And if it can happen to me, then it can happen to you all too.


Sometimes, yes it's a good thing to succeed in life, through hard work and determination, but that being said, the key to maintaining or growing that success, is that you sometimes have to get out more. See some people you haven't seen in years. Reconnect with old friends and family. Take great advantage, but do not abuse any cultivated relationships. Any time someone offers to help you and you said in the past "You don't have to." ask them for help sometimes. You never know, they could lead you to better success and at the same time, using your own skills and experience, you could help them succeed in their goals in life. Find common ground, work with that and try to keep each other out of trouble, but if you can't, fight your way out. It doesn't have to be a place that costs money to go either, like amusement parks or arcades. It could be a quiet walk to the park, the home of a family or friend. Whether you know it or not, you have people in your corner that you probably never realize. People that could give you advice on what to invest in, people that have the necessary tools you needed, that you didn't have before and people that are willing to stick their neck out for you and vice versa. Life is not a competition, it's not every man, woman and child for themselves. It is a test to see if we are willing to put aside all our differences and work together to grow with or off each other. Happiness is not against the law, those who say otherwise is full of shit. Whatever makes you happy, go out and do it, it may lead you to more happy things. Hang out with the right crowd, those willing to grow out of some of their childhood mentalities, but not all. Help someone in need if you can.


Basically to succeed in life and to keep it maintained is that we all help each other out. One way or another.


Right now as we speak, some people be it in my neck of the woods or your neck of the woods are working together to try to fix a broken world. And while I have faith they may succeed, they will always need a helping hand. Even if it's something as simple as holding a door for them while they carry groceries.


It took me a long time to realize that, so I wanted to tell everyone I know so they could in their own ways realize it faster.


It's not too late either, even if you're old and think you don't got anything left to give to the world, you're wrong. You give wisdom, you give advice, you try your best to make sure the current generations don't suffer the same screw ups you yourself have experienced in the past. Not only that, but in return, because we were newer to the world, we end up teaching you life lessons in return. Ways to revigorated the spirit and show what it's like to be alive good and bad. A lot of elders in my neck of the woods, whenever I help them out, they always felt they never helped me out in return, I tell them the same thing. That they do a lot more to help me than I do to help them. Some don't know what I mean until I explain it. Because in turn, they been good company, someone I could talk to about both good days and bad and in turn they confide in me the same way. Many of them have since moved away from the neighbourhood and into safer grounds. But I never forget about them.


In terms of what happened the past couple of months, I have no fucking clue. I have guesses that border on science and the supernatural, but unless others could see what I see, I don't think they'd believe it. Sometimes the guesses are correct, sometimes not. But when they are, it just makes me feel good knowing that my good guesses are the right ones. But whatever the hell happened to make it this way, yielded excellent results. And as a result, I been able to see more accurate signs that more good things may come my way.


I wish to thank all my fans for still sticking around up to this point. You have my deepest gratitude.


So take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.


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Posted by CIEIRMusic - December 12th, 2023


Ok, recent events have cropped up, in a spectacularly good way. As for why they cropped up, I cannot answer logically, because it can only be described to me at least, that it was nothing short of a Christmas Miracle. I won't say what exactly, but a couple of days ago there was still something I had to worry about in my personal life. Something I was hoping and praying. Literally to every God and Goddess of Every Religion. Going so far as to send online prayers to the Vatican and The Wailing Wall. I didn't know if Islam had a similar system, but I would have done that too. Luckily those prayers for the first time in my life, have been answered. Now I know there are some people, who do not believe in the unknown in terms of things border lining on supernatural. They have every right to disbelieve as much as people like myself have a right to believe in their own ways. This is not meant to be an insult to them specifically, but I do apologize ahead of time, on the off chance you feel insulted anyway.


Over the years, I have struggled to maintain my many faiths. A little tidbit of my own life story, my family both blood and extended are the following. Racially and Religiously diverse. In terms of my own bloodline, I have mostly British Blood, with some Scandanavian and Native. In terms of Scandanavian, my bloodline traces back to one of the most famous Vikings, Erik Thorvaldsson aka Erik The Red. To me it just means I'm related to the dad of the guy that discovered the western world centuries before Christopher Columbus set foot on Cuba for the first time. But that said, I also have extend family of many nationalities, all over the world, with many differing religious beliefs. To list off a few, I have Christian, Jewish, Wiccan, Pagan, Native and even some Atheists in my family. I'm pretty sure if I looked hard enough I would have had family of all the world and religions.


While I mostly stuck to my Pagan and Wiccan faiths, my own religious journey was complicated to say the least. As a kid, I was sent to a Presbyterian church for Sunday School. Despite having a Wiccan Mom and at the time a Christian Stepfather before he started to question his own faith....it was more or less an excuse to get the kids out of the house every Sunday. However, that was one of the first forays into religion I experienced. I stayed in Sunday School, made some friends, even attended their Pancake/Breakfast dinners every now and then. My first foray into religious diversity, was when I had a teacher in 2nd Grade, who happened to be Jewish. While she was obligated at the time, to follow Christian rules in our school at the time(Back then after the National Anthem we prayed.), she herself was teaching us about another religion, through the study of Holidays. Now at the time, I thought Christmas was the only December Holiday. That was before she taught me about Hanukkah. I participated in the activities, played the games. (Loved Dreidel). And despite not me being Jewish myself, she gave me Jewish candy to try. Some I liked, some I didn't, but in terms of religious treats, I'm glad all religions agree on the love of chocolate. Now at some point, I did develop some prejudices in my life, in terms of race and religion. However, at this moment I have since grown out of them and as a result learned more about things. So when it came time to understand the other religions, I was able to find a way to love and tolerate them all, by putting more emphasis on the good, more than any of the bad things that make them stereotypes. As well as finding my own faith, through experience and sight. For example, I was at one point Agnostic, because I believed, through seeing and my own experiences that there was more to this universe than what Science and Logic would be able to decipher. However after seeing some glimpses of Wiccan spells through my mother's work, as well as seeing the results after, I was able to believe in that, a little more. So I stuck to Wiccan, but went Pagan, out of not just seeing and believing, but ironically following Old Testament Commandments. Specifically the 5th Commandment: "Honor thy father and thy mother, that thy days may be long upon the land which the Lord thy God giveth thee." While I stuck to Paganism, I was subconsciously following some aspects of other old faiths. Recent events, have lead me to believe that all religion is kinda sorta right. By that I mean, we all believe there is something out there, but we interpret what it is, through our own faiths. Case in point, when I went back to my native roots, I've noticed through practicing, that certain medicines they did affected me and the people around me, in ways I could only describe as partial science and partial supernatural. Such as, when a shaman friend of mine, healed an injured leg of mine, through smudging and drum play. Now that alone, made me never doubt, Native Medicine or Native Faith, ever again. So as a result I incorporated it with the rest of my respective faiths. Try to find a way to combine forces that I found useful and rejected what I found useless to me. So to make it more plainly I basically applied Jeet Kune Do philosophy to my religious faith. Which is ironic, because Bruce Lee is an Atheist, but not so much, because while he has his own beliefs and lack thereof, he has incorporated faith and nature based philosophy on his own concepts. For example during his last interview with Pierre Burton, he mentioned the following:


"Here is the natural instinct and here is control. You have to combine the two in harmony. Not if you have one to the extreme, you will be very unscientific. If you have another to the extreme, you become, all of the sudden, a mechanical man. No longer a human being. It is a successful combination of both. So therefore it's not pure Naturalness or Unnaturalness. The ideal is Unnatural Naturalness or Natural Unnaturalness."


Now at the time he was talking about balancing a logical human with a natural human. Mixing thoughts with instinct, things like that. However, like many philosophical quotes, people can interpret it in different ways. In my case, I was interpreting it as on top of that, find balance between logic and faith. Be smart, but also take leaps sometimes. He wouldn't be the first Atheist to bring enlightenment to other religions, so odds are he may have even said it that way, to appeal to those he couldn't change faith wise, but still teach them something.


Anywho, combining the faiths, drawing strength from where it was good while rejecting what it was, bad seemed to make me more open-minded to the idea. However it lead me to the secret to why religion works in the first place in this concept.


Faith is a very strong word. One has to be committed to said word, to be considered faithful in certain topics religion or otherwise. It could be faith in a loved one, knowing their strengths and hoping they make it in the world ok. Faith in yourself that no matter how bad things get, you'll at least live to see your next birthday. Even faith in things only you understand while others don't. The method to madness so to speak. Before, I only caught glimpses of those methods, but now I've been able to figure things out, where by simple deductive reasoning and maybe a little extra sensory perception, I can tell what certain people are thinking, based on their words and expressions. Most people often tell you if you don't like someone, to put yourself in their shoes and see things from their perspective and I've been able to seldom be able to do that, both in my private life and on my net life. It's why I sometimes am able to get people to agree with me, because I put myself in their shoes somewhat and try to get a grasp on how they feel. Nowadays, I see the other side. Many many times and I'm able to pin point the parts I've done wrong as well as the parts the other party has done wrong. But that's not the only thing it gave me. Because I was able to figure out the methods and in turn figure the people whom apply said methods, I was able to apply said methods to my own way of life. For example. One person told me, that in order to surprise and shock the world, you gotta make the unsuspecting audience think you're either crazy, stupid or both. And while I've acted both Crazy and Stupid over the years of my life. As even some people could attest to, some of it mostly due to real things where my emotions get the better of me, I inadvertently found a way to use that lowered reputation, to gain a better one, by shocking people about the things I can do. Some people didn't know I could sing, but when I do Karaoke, they think they hear Frank Sinatra. Some people didn't know I could do art, but I was able to impress them, with certain pictures and painting philosophical quotes, both from famous people like Lee or somethings I come up with based on life experience. Had I put all my cards to the table back then rather than now, I would have busted because it would seem like I gave my all and have nothing left. When in actuality I give some and save the best at least to me, for special occasions. Be it the holidays or something based on my own life experience one way or another. Now the reason why I encourage everyone to go about this route, is because it's a test of faith. Not just faith in yourself and the fact that you know what you're doing, but also the faith the people you interacted with have in you. If some know and trust you to know what you're doing, no matter how crazy or stupid you sound, then you have nothing to worry about in terms of fucking things up. If some don't and tell you to "Fuck off." dismiss you as a loser or god forbid go through great lengths to destroy you, they are not worth your time unless you feel like punching them out for catharsis and even then, sometimes it's not worth that either. They had no faith in you, so you shouldn't crave their faith. And in turn it's your turn to tell them to "Fuck off." Me, I ended up having faith in the wrong people in the past and that's what crippled me, the betrayed feeling of it. Lately, I started having faith in the right people, based on how I seen their character good and bad and they earned my faith. For example if I can see the method to their madness and figure at least some of it out, that's when my faith comes into play, seeing how much method is in the madness. Recently it's been working out a lot for the people I care about, that I am actually able to see things their way and apply it to my life. It's trial and error at this point, but so far so good.


Now the biggest mindfuck question is this, let's say your faith yielded some fantastic results. Did it happen because God did it or did it happen because you had faith in God? Same applies to faith in others. Did they do it by themselves or did they do it because you believed in them? And it especially applies to yourself. Did you simply have faith in yourself or did believing in yourself in general motivated you to keep going no matter what? Think about that. Think about that really hard.


Until then, have fun, stay safe and stay tuned.


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Posted by CIEIRMusic - December 10th, 2023


YOU!!!! YES YOU!!!


If you're reading this on the following devices:

  1. Smartphone.
  2. Computer.
  3. Smart TV
  4. Anything else with an internet connection.


Listen to me very carefully. We cannot rely on our screens anymore, they do not provide comfort for us. We can use said screens, for at home, relaxing and either playing some games or watching some other form of Entertainment. However, we lost our way. All of us. Me included. And I know why. We stay home too much. Yes, Covid did not do us any favours by trapping us inside our own homes. Robbing us of our freedom of movement, our education, our appreciation of the world around us good and bad. But that is no excuse. None. Because before it hit us, our eyes were glued to any screen that catches our attention. We never stop and look around and take the world for it is, faults and all. So I'd like to ask my 214 fans, as well as anyone they know to do one thing. At least for a day. It could be any day, where you can have spare time, but once you do this properly and I mean properly, then I guarantee that your life will feel a lot more easier.


These are simple steps and they depend on how stubborn you are.


Step 1: Turn your devices off for the day save for phone calls.

I don't know if you young whippersnappers know this, but before you used your phone for youtube or -insert stupid social media bullshit here-, phones were mostly used for calling your friends and family to let them know you come to visit them or take them on outings. Unless you need your phone to call some people you want to hang out with, do not I repeat do not use your phone for the internet. Shut that mobile data and wifi button off. Unless you're using Speaker Phone or headphones, the Phone should only be put in your pocket or be next to your ear during a call. Allowing your eyes to see the real world for what it is. All this internet drama, is petty bullshit everyone indulges in out of boredom and all it does is ruin reps and make people feel more miserable. Internet should only be about connecting the world and finding entertainment in healthy ways.


Step 2: Get The Fuck Out There:

Get out. No seriously Get out. Get out of your house take a short walk, be it around your neigborhood and explore. See things you wanted to see before, but couldn't because you didn't have the time or it just took a backseat to other priorities. Visit a park, go to a local fair, watch a movie in theaters more often. If you live in a place where they have arcades, play there. If your local sports team is playing that day, find some tickets or go to a sports bar to watch the game. Find ways of having fun without relying on social media or tabloid or net drama bullshit in general. Just because there are new ways of having fun does not mean the old ways have died and even so the old ways are much more healthier. Plus, wherever you go, whatever you do, there's the added mystery of never knowing where you're gonna be or who you're gonna meet. Now make no mistake, you still have safety to consider. First explore places you've been to give you the literal definition of comfort zone, but once you get used to that zone, go a little further and see how far outside you can reach. Next unless you can handle yourself, never go out alone. Even if you're an adult, have a friend or family member with you at all times. They can double as your extra eyes and ears.....as well as fists and feet.


Step 3: Explore Watch and Learn

Sometimes listening to word of mouth, is never enough because even if it's good advice, someone whom has neither heard said advice before or think one is smarter than the person giving the advice never listens. Mainly because it wasn't THEIR idea. So needless to say both good and bad, they often have to experience this shit for themselves to believe. It's one of the reasons why Religions and lack of them are often, in constant debate, because one seen something the other didn't. Now you can chalk this up to faith, the placebo effect, coincidence, karma or just plain luck or some even believe in it so wholeheartedly based on the things they seen and experienced, but you're never gonna win the argument either way, because one person saw something you didn't see. Either try to see for yourself or talk to someone that agrees with you. Same goes for life exploration, even something as simple as a walk to the woods varies from person to person. Some see a beautiful scenery. Others see various energies emerging from it. Some believe the Gods/Goddesses themselves live in these woods, be it the air or the matter. Some just think it's a stupid place to go full of trees, bugs and other wildlife. Everyone has their own experience with it and it could make the trip worthwhile or be a massive waste of time. Either way, you'll never know unless you try it.


Step 4: Have Fun:

No matter where you go. No matter what you do. Enjoy yourself. Even if it's a short walk or a long journey, find something fun about it and hold onto it for as long as you can. That's pretty much it.


But essentially you have to unplug both figuratively and literally, take a big break from what's bothering you and when that's done, your mind will be much clearer. Your body and soul will also follow.


Find something you'd like to do that doesn't involve the net and do it at least for one day. Who knows, you might want to do it for more than one day.


I wish you all well for now. Stay safe and Stay Tuned For More.


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Posted by CIEIRMusic - December 6th, 2023


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Whether you grew up from the 70s to the 90s or have simply watched reruns from retro channels you may hear the following familiar themes:



That was the power of Norman Lear, whom passed away at the age of 101.


Norman Lear was a legend in the TV Business, back at a time when being controversial didn't mean scandals, but a sign of rebellion against the censorship of the times. He was the influence of many greats including but not limited to Trey Parker and Matt Stone. Yes that Trey Parker and Matt Stone:


For example, Eric Cartman was meant to be a kid version of Archie Bunker.


However while he made many great shows, it all started with one, a controversial yet hilarious and surprisingly wholesome story about America's most lovable bigot. Archibald "Archie" Bunker:


All In The Family. A 70s sitcom about a conservative father clashing with his liberal son in law while he and his Daughter live with them. But rather than take it serious like many people today would, it was all played for laughs and rather than simply pick one side or the other, they make it work in a way to show both sides had their quirks and their flaws.


All in The Family was one of the first and many shows and movies that tried to do what was considered a new brand of comedy at the time. Archie Bunker, while the star character of the show, was meant to be the villain. However because the wrong people started to worship the ground Archie walked on, rather than simply cancel him like people would nowadays, they did a very interesting take on character development. Despite his racist ways, Archie has come to learn to love everyone no matter where they come from and went from wanting a Puerto Rican family off his street to threatening members of the KKK for attacking his son in law to defending his black maid when one of his more bigoted friends started to harass her:


However said comedy trope still stuck even when he wasn't the one usually doing it. Much like Mel Brooks in Blazing Saddles:


The formula was to make any character that was racist, sexist, homophobic or bigoted in other ways, be exaggerated caricatures, so that those that talk to them would think. "Gee this guy must be stupid if he's screaming about this or that." Sometimes if it didn't work, they'd give said character a hilarious or sometimes serious consequence for their actions.


The show became such an astounding success the following things happened. First they did a spin-off involving what Lear described as a racial swapped version of the Bunkers:

What started out as a comedic foil between the Bunkers and The Jeffersons, as well as a crowning achievement as they had two comedy legends with their families clashing with one and other, became such a hit that they wanted to give the Jeffersons their own show. But it wasn't the only success. The success of All in The Family paved the way for Lear's other shows. Such as Maude:


And Good Times:


Each with their own motif and much like All in The Family had their fair share of iconic moments:


The show was also great for laying the groundwork for many other media makers in the past, such as Rob Reiner. It also became a massive influence on TV Shows, Movies and the like. Which still continues to this day as Lear found some success remaking one of his shows One Day At A Time:



While he may be gone, Norman Lear, you and much of the majority of the cast, may have either died, retired or became washed up, you all became living proof that classic comedy hasn't died. We just didn't know where to look. And so long as Archie and Edith's Chairs remain at the Smithsonian:


No one will ever forget about you.


Rest In Peace Norman.


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