This can be taken in many ways both religious and non-religious, but over the past couple of days, as well as reflecting on the years of bullshit, I was able to find the secret of living life. The funny irony is that it kinda coincides with a certain Avatar Video on Chakra Unlocking:

However like many philosophies it applies to all aspects of life. Hell when I read this book:

Eastern Body Western Mind

It made even more sense. For context there are 7 Chakras in total. Each one representing an important aspect of life as well as how your body functions and they start from the ground up.

1. Muladhara: The Root Chakra, Element Earth, located at the base of the Spine. It is the symbol of survival, but is often blocked by fear.
2. Svadhisthana: The Sacral Chakra, Element Water, located at the reproductive regions. It is the symbol of pleasure, but it is often blocked by guilt.
3. Manipura: The Solar Plexus Chakra, Element Fire, located in the navel and stomach region. It is the symbol of Will, but it is often blocked by shame.
4. Anhata: The Heart Chakra, Element Air, located in the heart. It is the symbol of Love, but blocked by grief.
5. Vishuddha: The Throat Chakra, Element Ether. It is the symbol of truth, but is blocked by lies.
6. Anja: The Third Eye Chakra, Element Light. It is the symbol of insight, but blocked by illusion.
7. Sahasrara: The Crown Chakra, Beyond the Elements. It represents spiritual connection, but is blocked by Earthly Attachments.

In my case in the order I just put down;

1. I was afraid that if people knew who I was on and offline, that I'd be shunned simply because I'm an outcast that tries to fit in. Once I learned to let that shit go, I was able to count on those that were there for my survival and upbringing.
2. I was guilty because I never known the pleasures of the flesh and would fail to live up to the standards of those that did. Only to find out that even the early braggers either did something way dirty or at the very least, screwed up their lives one way or another because they couldn't keep it in their pants.
3. I was ashamed that I wasn't brave enough to stand up for myself or others I cared about, but once I found my way of doing it, I fight with every fiber of my being.
4. I had so much grief in my heart that I didn't think even those closest to me really loved me, nor would I find love. Yet once I did, things just started to make sense. Love is an energy even if the ones you love are lost, they come back in different ways.
5. I lied to myself mostly because I was in denial of the person I was. There were certain elements of me, that I didn't like, but had to learn to accept them. Once I realized the truth of myself, I could care less what others thought of me. I'm me, you're you.
6. A lot of people deceived me over the years and as a result I saw all of life as an illusion. Only to find out, that they thought the same and tried to indocturne me into their own bullshit. Once I learned to let that aspect go and be more aware of whom I'm with, I was able to see more truths and expose them.
7. I have a tendency to grow attached to those I befriend, family that I have left as well as other things. Once I learned to let all that shit go, that was how I was able to achieve enlightenment and things just fell into place. It's still a struggle, but I managed to figure some of it out, if not too much.

These were problems that have been plaguing me since the day I was born. I always felt that way even before I lost everything I held dear and continued to feel that way until I found things in my life that started to unlock a little. As a result I somehow managed to gain power I never knew I had and just let myself drift into the air and see where it took me. Going by intuition alone. So basically the secret to living life is in 7 steps.

1. Acknowledge and let go of all of your fears.
2. Accept that bad things sometimes happen, even if it's a lot and don't let it get to you.
3. Never be ashamed of who you are even if others have shamed you.
4. Don't lose love no matter what.
5. Sometimes the lies we tell aren't to other people, but to ourselves.
6. Break all illusion and trust in your intuition.
7. Let everything go.

Despite how simple it sounds, it's one of the most difficult lessons I had to learn, because it is life in a nutshell. Everyone of us has had our own fears, guilts, shames, griefs, lies, illusions and attachments. Some worse than others, but it's all the same. We have the roots in common even though our trees grow our own ways. However, once you realize exactly what's growing on the trees, you'll be able to bear fruit rather than die of weeds.

Trees take almost a life time to fully grow. So do people.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Over the years, I as well as a few individuals of all ages, have often described our struggles as a spiritual war against Good and Evil. Which is hard not to believe because we see an abundance of both every day. Be it something small as say a kid getting a candy from the teacher after a good grade or same kid later getting beat up or even killed by jealous bullies. However while there is Good and Evil, as well as the gray area between many risk just to survive let alone succeed in what life has to offer, that wasn't our war. That wasn't the main thing we were fighting. It was merely a symptom of it.

What causes Good an Evil: Emotion.

Love, Hate, Happiness, Sadness, Bravery and Fear. Among most things.

However while there are many emotions and sub states where it mixes, the two of the strongest extremes are the following:

Love and Hate:

Every action both Good and Bad have often come from those emotions the most. To put it black and white, people do kindness out of love and hurt over hate. However, there's a funny thing about those two, that often end up flip flopping or even merging said extremes. Like for example, let's say hypothetically someone you know is a panhandler and really needs all the money they can get. They don't ask for much, but at the same time those they ask either don't have it and hate they can't help or do have it and love to say they refuse to help. Then you come in when they don't get it and say "I hate when people do that to people." and hand him a quarter, a dollar or whatever you can spare. Did you do that kindness out of love for the panhandler or hate for how he's treated. Did you put yourself in his shoes and do things differently or did you simply want to buy your way into Good Karma. And while you're getting mindblown by what you just say think about it. That's exactly why people are so adverse with helping each other. They want to do it, they love to do it, but they don't know if the kindness returned to them is because they either think they owe or want you to owe them. It mixes and jumbles the meaning of those two emotional extremes and ironically makes Hate even more stronger.

Whereas when someone goes out of their way in their own loving hearts to give something, no strings attached, the first thing people ask is "What's the catch?" We all seen it and heard it in many ways at many times.

Myself, I be kind because it's the right thing to do and it is always out of love. Any rewards I ever gained as the result of it, is the last thing on my mind when I do it and if it happens it happens. If it doesn't and doesn't. The only things I value are life debts and dedications to love. If those were of cash value I'd be so rich, the International Debt would be paid off. It's one of the reasons I stopped caring if no one bought my stuff, no matter how much I advertise. Up until I tried to sell, I was satisfied in knowing that at least some people liked my music. The only reason I even asked for money for it so I could get better resources to make my music even better for more and see if it snowballed from there. If I could set up a concert, I would. If I could find a way to put my music on many radio stations, I'd do that too. If it ended up as part of a score of a hit movie, then I know I went as far as I wanted to.

But a lot of the things I make were out of love for what I could do and the hope that I could do better. I didn't expect to make friends or enemies here. Didn't even expect to be featured on @TheTankTribune, but I appreciated it every time, even if I tried to use it to better advertise my work, because I ended up getting some recognition from Newgrounds itself.

The only reason it bothered me so much that I didn't get so far as to even have my discography bought let alone one track, was because I saw it as a part of my life I hated. The fear of failure, the sadness of not realizing my potential and the hatred of those that tried to control me and make my music something I wasn't. I wanted to make money, but I didn't want to be a sellout because I've had sellouts in my friends and family and it didn't work out for them. Once I was able to let go of that hate, especially after I discovered love in many ways on my own, I was feeling better and caring less about those fears and hatred. It's why I even apologize to my enemies, because despite what they did and believe me they did so much terrible things I literally want to kill them, I wasn't helping matters by letting my own personal hatreds get in the way. So once I realized they weren't worth my time and energy, I simply ignored them. It was easier once I saw that real life people were just as stupid and pathetic as them and it was easy to ignore both sides. I even once did an ugly truth post on reddit, just to see how many of those assholes in real life were online. I used what I used to do, to bait them out and when I found what I was looking for, I destroyed the article. Because if what's keeping them from the truth is nothing but false labels and TLDR, then no one was ready for that. I had to know where I stood both on and offline, before I realized what I was really fighting for.

As it turns out, there are a lot of hate filled people on all sides of the world. Good Guys, Bad Guys and those in the middle just stirring the pot and keeping fights going. I figured this shit out yesterday in my neck of the woods. A certain "friend" of mine was actually playing both sides of a conflict even when both had so much enough of each other, that they didn't want to look at each other. I tried staying out of my side, they tried staying out of their side, but the conflict was still going because we both vented our side to said friend and said friend was using it to benefit his own self interests. In layman's terms, he was trying to make people kill each other so he could take over what was left of the area after. It's gotten so bad I felt the need to warn the other side, but I hate them so much that it's making me hesitate and hope they stumble upon it themselves. Either way, things were more fucked up than I realize.

It made me realize that there are those whom hate life so much that they'd rather cause trouble than fix it. It made me realize certain circumstances in my life, that I've contributed to that bullshit as well. It made me also realize that it's gotten so bad that all levels of government in my city alone seem to be in on it to one extent. There's even a crazy guy wandering around the streets trying to run for mayor of said city, but everyone knows he's a crack smoking, child molesting piece of shit. Yet not one person cares enough about it to confront him or at the very least tip him off to the cops. That guy makes a mockery out of love by spill writing the shape of a heart with either beer, graffiti or if he's as crazy enough to do so as I think he is, his own piss. That is the definition of someone full of hate, mocking love. And the most fucked up thing about it is, that even he's savvy enough to gather enough people stupid enough to vote for him. What the hell?

This is an example of Hatred trying to rule over love, by using what they interpret as love to get the fruits of their hatred. They think abusing and raping women is love. They think doing drugs that can kill you, is loving the freedom of doing drugs. That's not Freedom, that's trading one jail over another. They think the bad part of the city is the best part. And while I appreciate some of the bad for what it's worth, it's not my whole fucking City. Not only that but these guys are hypocrites that would even make organizations like BLM ashamed of them. One of those guys wears a sweater that says "Defund the police" yet despite playing the part of antagonizing authority figures, he rats whomever slights them out to the cops, if their own violent threats don't work. And when that doesn't work, falsely label, knowing it would get said person in trouble whether they ignore it or not. You'd have to have a lot of hate in your heart if you're going against what people think you believe in.

It was then and there I realized that in order to stop this, we need more love. We need more love songs playing on the radio:

More Romance Stories:

And more speeches on the subject a hell of a lot better than mine.

But most importantly, we need to learn to love each other a little more.

Now I won't kid you, as simple as it sounds, it's the most difficult thing to do. But if someone like Feeny from Boy Meets World can say it:

Then it should be easy for others to express it in their own ways. Hold the door for someone who's hands are full with groceries. Offer to carry heavy things for someone on a one-person move. Take your date to the movies and show them a good time. Even just simply check on a friend or family member's wellbeing. That's love. Pure, untainted love, that we have been lacking for almost 100 years.

Prove that Love will win this Godforsaken War in The End.

Sometimes and we've all been there, we've often missed major Holidays. I was no exception. If I missed my birthday, we'd simply plan a weekend after for a party. That's life. However, sometimes during those belated days, something magical happens. For starters, the love I found is still staying in contact with me. For context we give each other affectionate nicknames, but today, after so many times of letting her know my name, just so she could look for me better as well as a few other things as we value each other's independence. Then one day she calls me, we wish each other a belated Valentine's Day. And after so many days of getting used to the nicknames, she told me she loved me, while using my real name.

Now when it comes to love, good and bad, much like everything else in my life, I look at it through an analytical perspective. And while that has hindered me in the past, due to insecurities on my part. It has come in handy with this. Our relationship is sort of a twisted romance, but not in the literal sense. Bad things happen around us, individually and separate, but we some how manage to not only make time for each other, but also cross things off in the romantic check list. Bear in mind, I don't see love as a game to be not taken seriously. I do however see it as a fun game, with two players, trying to tick off the usual cliches, but in our own loving way. For example, we've had breakfast dates, dinner dates, lunch dates, but in our own unique way, either, hanging out at a fast food place or doing it at home or wherever she is at the time. Even with the bad stuff happen, we just some how kept going forward. It was like we were strolling through the chaos, because we only cared about each other. She even did the classic of asking me for my number. We're adults and yet our romance is like some kind of 80s style 90s twist teen drama, but in the more fun way. With a little action, horror and some fantasy fairy tale stuff. Now in a lot of these romances, there's often the following tropes:

1. Parents that either like or hate the couple one way or another.
2. Undying Romance.
3. Asking for Numbers.
4. Affectionate Nicknames.
5. Talking about going further in the relationship one way or another be it marriage or sex.
6. Small romantic gestures.
7. Big romantic gestures.
8. Couples protecting each other.
9. Them expressing their love by dropping masks and referring to each other as their true selves.

Me and her, we're both suckers for movies, TV shows, Anime and we both are adults with various disorders and childlike mentalities. We have compatible signs and in my culture she is what is known as a Twin Flame. So needless to say whether we're together or separate from each other, we collectively grow our own separate lives until it's time to help each other out. It's why it got rocky for me, I was enjoying the good side of the Twin Flame stuff, but was unprepared for the separation part. Neither was her, because even when I learned to let her go for a while, she still won't let me go. It's like I got a lasso, that keeps giving slack and she's reeling me in. Hehe. So needless to say, we've basically crossed every one off that list alone, but there is more.

But I ramble on. This was a big example of how a belated Holiday would have some kind of hidden Holiday magic. Before it was just my excuse for making up for missing said Holidays. Now I see it as a way of life.

So if you miss a birthday, buy a present or a card. If you missed Valentine's day. February is the Month of Love, so even if you missed the day you still have 13 days to go to make it up to your love. If you missed the major Holidays, the ones that require you to do those days depending on religious beliefs or lack thereof. Simply pray to your repsective Higher Power in hopes that what you do to make up for it, pays off.

Hell there should be a whole Hallmark section of belated cards.

As usual, stay tuned, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Kind of a follow up on this:

The Secret of True Love

Part of what made me discover the secret, was that due to said outside forces, I had to learn to let her go at least for a while. And while it caused me great pain, I was able to make it through. Once I was able to let her go for now, I was also able to let go of a few other issues, including but not limited to the circumstances, regarding my mother's death. After I was able to let things go, after a boat load of crying, I felt something strange yesterday. I felt lighter, I felt like I could loosen up again. I felt happier than I ever been before. It wasn't until then, I was able to find enlightenment.

For those whom are confused. I'm a spiritual person and one of the many things I've been trying to do is unlock my Chakras and heal and balance them. I even went so far as watch an episode of Avatar The Last Airbender to get a crash course on it, because Nickelodeon stuff aside, they did explain it in a way even kids could understand:

Now for context, Aang was able to open all but one. The Crown Chakra. He got confused because a lot of the others encouraged love, but in order to open this one, he must let go of all Earthly attachments, including but not limited to his love interest Katara. So needless to say, Aang did not want to do that. Mainly because he thought letting things go meant gone forever. Something I didn't blame him for. But what his teacher was trying to tell him, is that he wouldn't lose Katara or anything he cared about on said Earth. Letting go is like casting a piece of paper into a river, rivers can go as far as ponds, lakes, oceans, reaching as far around the world as possible, but if what you let go makes it all around the world, it will by it's own choice come back to you, rather than you having to chase it and growing attachments. Let things go and everything falls into place.

Now it sounds easy, but it's not quite. For example for me to let go of the issues regarding my mother's death, I went to my old home, and played this on my phone:

It was a song my mother requested be played at her funeral, but a bitch of a relative of mine who made it all about her chose her favourite songs instead. So out of spite for said bitch and to give my mom a proper send off, I played this. I cried, then I had the resolve to keep going and moving on with my life. Then when I went to visit some good relatives of mine, I started to feel this strange energy. I was happy, more confident with myself and able to live my life more to the fullest. Hell I just woke up from a drunken party and I don't even feel hungover. Because I was able to enjoy it more and the environment was nice enough that I was able to recover and just get on with my stuff.

A lot of people have their own issues, minor and major that equate to Earthly attachments. Grudges, griefs, love that was lost, loss of friends, loss of family members, abuse, you name it. And as bad and horrible as it may get, part of the impact of such negativity is that we have always tried to hold on to it, so we won't forget. However, we hold onto it so much, that rather than it enlighten us, it holds us back.

So I ask, beg or downright demand that you all look deep within yourself. See what you think is holding you back and just let it the fuck go. Just be done with it. Resolve any issues you can, but other than that, fuck everything else.

It's like the old serenity prayer says:

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."

You can't change things that don't want to be changed nor things you obviously don't know how to change. All you can do, is try to find a way out of it. Get less involved with the worlds woes unless you plan to join the army or join a humanitarian cause. If you're just gonna sit on your computer or phone to bitch endlessly about it, you'll never be enlightened.

The things you can change can range from righting personal wrongs, making amends and letting go of the baggage that causes you self-doubt. It took me 26 almost 27 years of my 32 soon to be 33 year life, to figure that out. The only reason I'm talking about it now, is to use my experience, so that it doesn't take long for the next person to do it as it really is that simple.

Or as the Narrator from Fight Club would say:

"My Eyes Are Open"

Point being is that, to achieve this state of mind, you must let go of all attachements, even the things you hold so dear in your life good and bad, let them go. It doesn't mean they're gone forever, they might be or they might come back. But when you learn to just let go, you'll become a better person.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

While I never quite stated it most out loud, because either some don't believe it, some don't think I deserve it and overall it's not everyone's business. I mentioned before I found love. I won't go into too much detail about it, but while things are rocky at this point due to outside forces, as a result of our brief but good relationship, I was able to discover the secret of true love.

For context, whenever someone looks up top 10 Romantic TV Couples. Although new couples tried, I will always state that Gomez and Morticia Addams were the best couple in the history of couples:

While many fans of the show would agree, not a lot would know why. After all, the Addams Family while nice people, are often fucking scary. They equate tortures and beheadings to foreplay. However take away the macabre side for just one moment and list off the things that tick off the romance and marriage lists.

1. Although they are married, they trust each other and love each other to allow each other to do their own things individually.
2. Unless it was for the sake of a certain plot, they not once had fights or accusations of extramarital affairs.
3. Most importantly, while they do value each other's individual space, when they do do things together. Be it going on honeymoons or dumping hot lead on Christmas Carolers, it's a spectacle to behold. Hell in the 90s movies, they basically used auction numbers as a turn on and conceived Pubert Addams in the middle of an auction floor.

In my case, I realized with mine that although we still love each other, we should separate and let us do our own thing. That's where the secret comes in.

Many couples and do not bullshit me, you do this too, often have times where they either go to separate places or go places together. Shopping, dancing, bar hopping, you name it. Some couples, are so insecure with themselves, that whenever they separate even for a few hours, they assume the worst out of each other. "Oh she's at a bar without me, maybe she's fucking some other guy." "My man's at a bachelor party, he's obviously fucking the stripper." Things like that. Now I had the fortunate luxury to know how promiscuous my love was. It didn't bother me, save for the fact that I was worried whomever she was with at the time, would either abuse her or give her an STD. I was the son of a Hippie, I believe in free love and she liked me a hell of a lot more, so it helped. But like any other guy I would have gotten insecure. I mean look at Dante from Clerks, when he found out what his girlfriend at the time Veronica did:

However despite her sexual history, she didn't want that anymore. Veronica wanted Dante and Dante only, but he was so full of himself pining over an ex of his that he didn't care. By the time he realized it, it was already too late. Had I not watch this and Chasing Amy, I probably would have reacted the same way. Hell a lot of members of my family, tried to talk me out of the relationship, simply based on sexual history alone.

Which leads me to my point on the secret. So let's hear it.

Sometimes, even if you're destined soulmates, you have to separate every now and then, to allow your partner and yourself to have individual growth. This could be anything good or bad, but at the same time, the experiences it wrought allow them to grow and expand on their own terms, so that if and when they feel ready to come back together, they won't just know how to take care of themselves, but share the experiences with each other in order to take care of each other.

That is true love. That is what love is all about, it's what it's always been about and I hate to say it, a lot of people even the best of couples, screwed up in that department. Some think love is about one person controlling the other, because only ONE knows best. Others think it's about convenience and material. Some think love is all about sex only. This crap is wrong. For as long as you assume the worst of each other and not have faith your partner is ok on their own sometimes, then there's no point. You honestly don't love each other if you can't even trust or have faith in each other. I've only experienced love for about a few months and yet I get it. A lot of you so called players, never really experienced love, so you don't get it and if you comment here, telling me otherwise. Fuck you, your word means shit to me. Love is all about trusting each other to do their own thing, while at the same time share things together.

And that is why Gomez and Morticia are the best couple. Even if it was for the sake of comedy, Charles Fucking Addams, found the secret to true love, using his love of horror comedy.

And it only took me a few months to get it myself, because I looked past my own insecurities and tried to see things through the perspective of my partner. She even once literally gave me sunglasses to be more on the nose about it. Hehe. Nowadays regardless of how it turns out, I love, trust and have faith that things will be fine whether we're together or not.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

First of all I want to wish you all a happy Chinese New Year. Gong Hei Fat Choi. While I am not Chinese myself, I always had a fascination with the Chinese Zodiac, for one reason or another. Such as having family travel to the land in the past as well as my obsession with an actor, who's Zodiac Year cropped up. This is the year of the Dragon and that Actor was named Bruce Lee:

So needless to say that alone resonates with me. In my case though I was born in 1991, The Year of The Goat.

Now I won't exactly say what the revelation, because of a few factors. However while most people have resolutions in every version of New Years, every New Year I celebrate, give me some revelation of my own past. In this case a big one. It was a repressed memory, that came flooding back to me at a brief moment of my despair. A traumatizing event that in my past that became the root of all my tragedies. I won't name names, but the short end of it is, I have a relative that did unspeakable things to people including but not limited to many female children. He also drove my mother and my brother into their deaths. Causing the stress of my mother's cancer and corrupting my brother. One of which someone I knew recently. We couldn't stop him back then, because he was always protected by someone whom used to be a good person, but turned into a piece of shit. That person has been dead for years now so I'm hoping once both sides of the law know what this person did that justice will truly be done. At this point I don't care what happens to me good and bad, because I hope I can at least bring closure to many involved.

Now this revelation came to me on the year my favourite actor was born under, so it's not a coincidence for me. But it's both traumatized me, angered me saddened me, but I felt something else. Relief, liberation and above all else a happiness I can't even begin to describe. It was like the mother of all weights that has been holding me back, has finally lifted.

Now at this point, I don't care what happens in my career here. Whether people buy my music or not, doesn't matter to me. Because I basically achieved a form of enlightenment, that pales in comparison to money and fame. That doesn't mean I'll stop, but it's no longer a priority to me. I now know a major ugly truth and it set me free.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

This is S.T. Musician of CIEIRMusic, for now signing off.

Happy New Year. Hope everyone gets a red envelope with a shitload of money.

This is both funny and serious at the same time. Now part of the reason why drama is hard to avoid, is that at least a small percentage of us, have empathy. We care about what others think and feel, even when by all intents and purposes, it should not be our business and not be our problem.

Me, I'm the worst offender, because I try not to give a fuck about certain things, that don't involve me anyway. But my heart and mind go into overdrive whenever I see the little things that draw me in. Case in point, Newgrounds and my School life. I fucking hate bullies. It's 95 percent of the reason why I get into so much trouble and fights both on and offline. And while ignoring is the proper solution, they would say or do anything, to draw you back into the fight. Call you names that simply aren't true. Spread rumours about you, to goad you into fighting them. Even go so far as hitting you once, either as a means of intimidation or proving that they can hurt you. I learned that one the hard way about a few weeks ago, when certain bad elements beat my face in. Although it bruised and bled me, I didn't feel pain. In fact I was disappointed that it didn't hurt despite being bruised and bleeding. I even scared the other bad elements by saying the following. "YOU SEE THIS?! THIS IS A LOVE TAP COMPARED TO WHAT I GO THROUGH EVERY DAY!!" Even to prove my point, I dared many of them to kill me and despite them outnumbering me 4 to 1, they not once raised their fists. Instead they opened their disgusting teen raping mouths and said the following "Either move or kill yourself." Instead I exposed them for the teen raping bastards they were and rather than them getting the hint and leaving me alone, they spread rumours about me saying the N word. As well as turning the accusations against me, by claiming I'm one.

For the record, my family and friends are racially and religiously diverse. If they ever thought I'd say that word, I'd literally be dead. Not only that, but while I would look into cases on whether or not someone is a pedophile, let me make this perfectly clear.

I FUCKING HATE PEDOPHILES!!! I dealt with them all my life, be it almost being a victim, witnessing helplessly friends and family being victims and recently, they act like I'm one, to cover their own ass. So needless to say, you all know why the Jes vs this Joe thing, pisses me off so much. Because it's the fucking same as real life. Guys like Joe, do this shit every day to drag others with them. It's one of the reasons why I say that even if he is a teen, it doesn't matter. These guys are in their 40s, think High School Drama life is still the way to go and when people disagree with them or slight them in some way, they're dead. One of which, held a 10 year grudge against a guy, he thought stole from him. When in fact the superintendent at his building took his stuff, through legal means. Another guy seems to take surface circumstances and make it look like a hate crime. For example. I could care less what colour you are, what race you are, what religion you worship or who you decide to marry and fuck. If I see you do Evil, I call you out on your evil, not the titles you use as a shield. Yet if I, a white person, with some native blood faces against an army of evil people, that happen to be a different colour than I am, suddenly I'm a bigot. You could be white, black, chinese, middle eastern or even those Green Skinned chicks from Star Trek for all I care and the fight would still be the same. I don't use slurs, I use swears. I don't say it's because of your race, I say it's because of your character. I don't give a fuck how old you are on the net, if you're gonna pick a fight with someone and cyberbully them, I will fight you until you cry. That's how I lived my life. Trying to right wrongs, only for my rep to sour. The recent batch 10 years ago raped an underage escort well until she turned 25. Do the math on that one. And yet when I call them out on it, I'm the bad guy.

However, that being said, I've had a revelation.

As most people know, I use sage. But I don't just use it for smudging. A medicine man friend of mine recommended I smoke a sage joint. Tobacco mixed with sage. The best way to describe it, is like smoking the literal feeling of not giving a fuck. All my problems, above as well as minor problems I deal with every day, took the back burner and I saw the world for what it should be, pure bliss pure joy. It was like I was free of my burdens and ready to enjoy life.

Now I'm not encouraging you all to smoke sage, as it is very dangerous and unpredictable. However, what I'm saying is now that I know what it's like to not give a fuck, I think maybe through various means you all can do it too. But here are some steps:

1. Unless it involves friends, family or school. Stop giving a fuck about the world. Unless we all decide to be politicians, us bitching about it never solves anything and even then most of you as Politicians would fuck it up even if your heart was in the right place. The world is not our business unless they decide to go to war with us.
2. Avoid seeking validation from those that clearly hate you. People have a vain sense that everyone should love them and no one should hate them. Me, I used to be one of those people. I tried everything I could to get people on my side even though it was quite clear they would hate me no matter what. You can't please everyone, stop trying and value the ones that are on your side for real. If they hate you? Who gives a fuck. People should accept who you are, not what you can give them.
3. Always know when to walk away. Sometimes even if you don't give a fuck, certain people would try to keep you in their circle and suck the life out of you with boring bullshit drama. No matter what they do, just walk away. If you have anything to say, just say the following "You're not worth my time and energy." and walk away. It's a hard thing to do, but it does work. Walking away was the hardest for me, but I still keep doing it.

The world can fix itself, we don't have to pay attention to it all the time. Use that time and energy to focus on the quality of your life. Save yourself first, before taking on the world. Get a steady cashflow job, get a home, watch some tv, play some games. Whatever the case may be to entertain you, just simply stop giving a fuck about everyone else and start caring for you more. Be a little more selfish for once.

And if anyone asks where you're going and what you're doing you only have one answer:

I JUST DON'T GIVE A FUCK!!!

Thank you for reading this. Stay tuned for more.

This is probably one of the strangest blogs, I ever written. But it will all make sense. I just had to tell as many people as I could about this, because I think I discovered The Secret, but in my own way, but it's a way we call can relate no matter who we are, where we're from or what we're doing in life at this very moment good or bad.

Ok for context, a weird question. Has there ever been a time in your life, where you remember doing stupid things? Doesn't matter what they are or why you did them, but basically any moment from your childhood, to your adulthood. Whether it's sneaking into a movie theater or doing drugs at certain times or things like that. Things that are often risky, dangerous and even if you survive, you'd most likely get into a lot of trouble. Think about it for a moment. Think about it before you read further.

Anywho, for those who aren't TLDR freaks, listen up.

Over the past 27 years of my 32, soon to be 33 year old life this coming April, I have done a boat load of stupid things. Getting into fights at school and in public, going to war with my own city in one way or another. Got involved in many Controversies and pissing off the wrong people in general. While also living a life of Weed, Booze, Cigarettes and the occasional Hallucinogen, mostly to expand my mind, but still pretty fucking stupid. I thought I was surely gonna either die, get arrested or simply fall into a portal leading directly to Hell itself. But then I realized something. In those years I've also managed to achieve great things. I graduated High School, I worked up the courage to advertise my work on sites like these. Achieving not financial success, but critical success. Making new friends and enemies alike both on the net and in real life. Going on epic adventure after epic adventure, while at the same time doing what I can to protect and help the woman I love. I basically lead the life of a Superhero, without even realizing it until now and while I have yet to achieve success here, I found other ways of succeeding. Some which will take time, but eventually will pay off.

Now at the time, all the stupid shit didn't seem to go anywhere for me, but then I took my reflection of my life to a wider lens. I realized that separately these events don't go anywhere, but together in a sequence that started when I was 5 years old and seems to slowly but surely come to a close in this part of my life. I realized then and there, that all my random stupidity became a dangerous, risky, convoluted, crazy, Master Plan. As a result I was able to find better ways to improve my life and keep moving forward no matter what. And honesty I think it was because I did those stupid things. They caused a ripple effect.

Now I'm not saying try to do more stupid things, but what I am saying, is next time you realize you've done a stupid thing, air your regret, smile and move on. Because you never know. It may not mean much then, but later on, it could save your life. It saved my life and I'm still trying to fight to improve it. Whether you know it or not, the stuff you've all done, stupid or no, matters in your life. Rather than hate it, appreciate it. Who knows, maybe that bad joke you told way back when, would end up being funny now. Or you could stop a nuclear meltdown, playing Eeny Meeny Miny Moe. The possibilities are endless of how much stupidity can pay off. Some can make money off it laughing at it ala Daria. Or show more appreciation to how creative stupidity can get ala Beavis and Butthead. The sky's the limit.

Don't listen to this guy:

Listen to the idiot he's speaking to:

He may not be bright, but he accomplished a lot including but not limited to using his love of food to save his life.

Point being is, that over the years, I looked down on stupidity, because I thought I was superior to it. But that's not true, I can be just as stupid as any other person. I'm only human. But nowadays I seen many great things created by a lot of lovable idiots and I can't wait to see more.

That's the secret, learning to appreciate all aspects of life, including the negative. Especially now that you've learned from it all.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Picking Up Where This Left Off

One day, S.T. Musician in uniform was patrolling. He finally sees the Deadly Demoness in her uniform. They confront each other knowing who each other is. They stare at each other in a way, that you don't know if they're gonna fight, but instead, S.T. reaches his hand out for her to shake.

S.T. Musician: My name is Shane. It's very nice to meet you.

Deadly Demoness: My name is Winter. It's nice to meet you too. What do you have in that satchel?

S.T. Musician: Well, I saw you were having trouble in your day to day life that I thought I'd help you out. I notice you're a spiritual person like myself so I thought this would help you.

He takes out a bag of white sage and a bottle of Lavender essential oil.

S.T. Musician: I know you're a user so the Lavender would take off any headache that you'd have when you're craving. The sage, is mostly to eliminate all negativity on you and your environment. It will also battle any demons that have been haunting you lately.

Deadly Demoness: Thank you. I had a feeling you weren't like the others.

They walk on the way to the building but it's guarded by the wannabes. They see her, but they don't see him.

S.T.: I gotta be honest. I really hate your friends.

Deadly Demoness: So do I.

S.T.: Let's split up. I'll go to the back you go to the front. We'll try to meet in the lobby.

Deadly Demoness: I'll look out for you. I love you.

They split off. S.T. Enter's The backdoor while Deadly Demoness goes to the front. S.T. meet's Light Harmony while Deadly Demoness is intercepted by WDD Wannabe Dark Divide. While he waits for her, he talks to his friends.

S.T.: She's an adventurer, I'll give her that.

Light: What happened?

S.T.: I found out she was a spiritualist, so I took stuff from my own cultures, to help her. Sage and Lavender Oil.

Harmony: You're trying to save her soul? Wow you must really love this woman.

Light: What about her, is she gonna be ok?

S.T.: She'll be fine. She's a tough person. If she can't flirt her way out, she'll fight her way out. I just hope to God she didn't think I ditched her.

S.T. Lays Low at Light Harmony's pad. Smoking weed and cigarettes while listening to music.

S.T.: You know what's strange? Before I met her, I did a what if scenario song on Cinderella. And then she shows up to play the role for real. A Cinderella, lost on the way home looking for her prince.

Light: Maybe she heard your song before and was a fan of your work. Even Dark Divide can't take that from you.

Harmony: Maybe it was meant to be prophetic. That you somehow manifested this girl through law of attraction. Take away the fact that she's supposed to be our enemy and look at what you have. A lost, lonely child in an adult's body, whom is looking for love and is nice to those that deserve it. Sound familiar.

S.T.: She's me. Is that what you're saying.

Harmony: It is. I only know that because you saw yourself in us, when you helped it out. Maybe you should go check on her.

S.T. goes back to the lobby, but everyone was gone. He felt bad even though he knew she was still alive through their connection. He gives up and goes back home, only to find her in the lobby, looking like she just walked away from a fight.

Deadly Demoness: They called me a dog. I hate when they call me that.

S.T.: Did you make them suffer for it.

Deadly Demoness: Yeah.

S.T.: That's my girl.

S.T. Invited her over to the house. Now fun fact, although there were many women in his life, S.T. Musician, never made it this far with any of them. He never been kissed, he never even had sex as he thought his purity would enhance his spirituality. So needless to say he was hesitant. Whereas Deadly Demoness, through experience knew right away. She took the lead, gave him some practice kisses to start and they had their first makeout session. It only lasted a few minutes, but to them it was an eternity. They hung out, watched a movie and laid beside each other, the connection was strong. They were still fully clothed, not once doing anything other than stay close. Yet the energy that surrounded them felt like they were making love for an eternity. When it was time for her to go, he escorted her out of the door.

Deadly Demoness: Bye Prince Charming.

S.T. Musician: See you later Cinderella.

The next day comes. Light Harmony and S.T. are hanging out.

Harmony: You made out with her?! Damn, now I do feel jealous. What was it like?

Light: HARMONY!!! The man had his first official French kiss, he's entitled to some privacy.

S.T.: It's ok I'll tell you.

Light: Oh God no.

S.T.: It's ok, I'll keep it somewhat clean. It is Newgrounds after all, adults aren't the only one reading this. And any kid who complains about getting scarred for life should have just stopped reading here. Anywho, one of my biggest fears as a kid was kissing a girl, I like girls, but I was always hesitant for one reason or another. Be it not being ready or worried how'd they react if I was spontaneous. And of course the various STDs out there. Yet. She picked up on that, taught me how to do it until I got into the motion for it and we did it for real. And I never felt a cleaner mouth. It was like disturbingly clean.

Light Harmony: Ah we see.

S.T.: I figure if I keep seeing her more often and she feels safer around me I could convince her to turn her life around. It won't be easy, she's been used to it for a long time so a lot of hard wiring. It's why I started with the sage and oil. Save her soul. Save her health. Save her life.

To be continued......

Picking up where this left off.

The following takes place on Christmas day.

S.T. Musician: Do you see that?

Light: It looks like people getting Christmas Donations.

S.T. Musician: Ya but look who's giving them.

Harmony: Ya that is suspicious, people thought he was just a panhandler. Yet he somehow was resourceful enough to get a donation van.

Light: Ya. I get the feeling those gifts come with a price.

S.T.: Ya it's like they're making a deal with the Devil. What is this guy?

Harmony: You think he may be the one doing all this crap in town? Getting the other dunderheads going while he "Swoops" in to save them hoping for votes.

Suddenly across the street, the Mystery Girl is seen walking. Looking at S.T. as if verbally telling him to follow her.

S.T.: Look I have to go. I need to see her before I go consult the order.

Light: I still think it's not right pursuing her, especially after knowing who she is.

Harmony: Ah let him have a break, better him run off with a seductress, than deal with this two-faced fuck.

S.T.: Good point. See ya.

S.T. Runs across the street.

Light Harmony: That girl is gonna eat him alive. He's doomed.

He runs into the Mystery Girl.

S.T.: I thought I'd run into you before I left. I have to go talk to some people out of town.

Mystery Girl: That's fine, I'm visiting folks for the holidays.

S.T.: Huh, so we're both gonna be busy.

Mystery Girl: Ya. Well Merry Christmas.

S.T.: Merry Christmas.

Suddenly out of nowhere they hug each other. Their lips to each other's ears. Whispering their confession.

S.T.: Know that no matter what happens, I'll always love you.

Mystery Girl: I love you too.

They let each other go and she runs off. The young Priestess shows up.

Young Priestess: It's time.

Back in the temple, S.T. is surrounded by the order once more. They all stare at him with an expression that is neither happy, sad, angry or even scared. They were completely stonefaced.

S.T.: Look. I know you tasked me to fight a great evil and needless to say I succeeded for the most part, including exposing an even greater evil. But now I found something else to care about and I want to see how this goes. All I want to know do I have to do anything from here on now.

Old Priestess: In the past years you've caused great pain to your enemies, your temple got destroyed and your compatriots nearly murdered your hated foe. I would say you've done enough.

Young Monk: The new evils should not even be your concern. Now about this girl. You know she has an evil past, yet you continue to pursue her?

Head Abbot: It is quite questionable. You're not one to go easy on evil. You must really fancy this woman.

Young Priestess: I've known Shane since we recruited him. Although his methods are questionable to say the least, he achieves results and tries to be a good judge of character.

Young Monk: You're just saying that because you fancy him too.

Young Priestess: Aww fuck you.

S.T. turns to the young priestess in shock. The rest just face palm.

Old Priestess: You really rubbed off on her. Look. We only want to know one thing. Are you happy?

S.T.: Yes. I feel we could make each other happy.

Head Abbot: From this point on, you don't have to do anything within your powers as a superhero, we will find a way to take care of these demons, you deserve a well earned sabbatical. I was in love once, never had the chance to tell the person how I felt. Don't lose yours.

S.T.: Thank you.

After the Holidays came and went, S.T. decided to do a little cat and mouse game. Him in civilian clothes, to see if he could find her. Yet every time he tried, she found him. Although it wasn't all consistent. One time, she was missing for 3 days. He went to the local pizza shop while he was looking. Sighing to himself.

S.T. Musician: Where are you Cinderella?

That was when he sees her walking by. In her Dark Divide minion attire, yet more concealed. The only thing recognizable was the lips he saw when he first saw her behind the mask. He went to follow her at first but....

Mystery Girl: TELEPATHICALLY Stop. You're in danger. Don't follow me.

S.T. Stops, but sits on the bench. Not following her, but watching where she goes. It was then he realized, she's in disguise and cutting off contact for now, for his protection.

The next day, he goes home. Sees her in the hallway before he goes upstairs and acts surprised to see her.

S.T.: Hey how was the holidays?

Mystery Girl: I wanted to see if you were ok.

S.T.: So you have been protecting me.

Mystery Girl: Ya.

S.T.: I appreciate that. Though try to see me more often.

Later on.

S.T.: She's not evil. She's well aware of the situation and she was protecting me.

Light: She was protecting you?

Harmony: How did you know she was telepathic?

S.T.: When I was a kid, I had some gifts, empathy, some telepathy, precognition and clairaudience. I grew up in a family which had supernatural encounters mostly, but they were minimal. She basically used hers to warn me without drawing attention to herself. This girl is a lot more smarter than she lets on.

Light: Well I guess you must see her again. Maybe there's a reason.

Harmony: Ya, plus, they said you don't have to do anything. Maybe seeing her would help with that.

S.T.: There's something else. Even though she told me not to follow her, she still approached my building like she was drawn to it. Either she was looking for a place we could talk, or maybe she was giving me clues. Either way. I figured out a few things. First off, she's a lot more powerful than I think. Second off, she's using that power to help me. I can't describe it, it's like we're linked. I could sense her, but I can't pinpoint it. Some kind of psychic atrophy.

Light: Ya, when you solve more problems with your fist, your mind becomes lazy.

Harmony: Maybe you need to go back to your paranormal roots.

To be continued.