This one is a long time coming and it's based around my experience in my life. As most of you know, I'm Canadian. Born and raised since April 1st 1991. There have been times in my life that I showed great pride for my country, but at the same time. One of the benefits of going on the net is you meet people. Some that live halfway across the world and others just a province or state away from you. It's one of the reasons why I don't give too much of myself out on the net, because if I happened to be arguing with someone who knows where I live and is in walking distance of my home, I'd either have to call the cops or defend myself with extreme prejudice. By that I mean, fists, feet and the nearest thing I can grab to hit someone with.

However much why I bring my nationality up is that as I said, the benefits of the net is that you meet people good or bad. Some of which I've seen in sites and youtube videos related to my likes and dislikes, commenting about Canada. Both it's history and it's current events.

Not a lot of it was good, but it helped me understand more where my fellow Canadians from all walks of life were coming from. Enough for me to form a 3 Dimensional viewpoint of how I look at my country, it's politics, it's impact on the world and how the world reacts to us.

Let's break things down:

History

Like many other countries of the world, Canada has a very complicated, yet still interesting History. Me I was mostly proud of the good aspects of it. The building of cities, the day we became multicultural and our side of the known wars like World War I and World War II which while had bad moments, had moments that became our finest hour when we were doing our part in trying to save the rest of the world. However, that being said, it wasn't all that great. Much like the rest of North and South America, Europeans killed a lot of Natives and took over a lot of land. Save for me being one of Erik The Red's descendants, I do have blood that traces back to those times, but in all honesty unless I see otherwise, I don't recall anyone in my own family for at least a few centuries, doing that. My family both has British, European and Native Blood respectfully in my immediate blood relatives. I have made friends and families of individuals from nearly every single race I can find. I seen the good and bad everyone of each nation has had to experience. However while I do want to explain, in most certain ways, that in terms of my life, I'm not a bad guy. An asshole, but not a bad guy and as far as I'm concerned save for a few select individuals, neither is my family. But the Native Genocide was only the tip of the iceberg. Before the Civil War, we also had slaves of various races, Native, African, Irish, Chinese, you name it. We did the same fucking shit the states did, but that being said, eventually some of us thought it was wrong. We freed them first chance we get and we set up the last stop of the Underground Railroad. We also were responsible for those residential school situations. We took natives from their parents and put them in Christian families because we as a people at the time thought Natives were working for the Devil. Eventually we saw how wrong that was too, as more cultures came flooding in and we tried to make up for it while we can. Hell our Prime Minister is the son of a guy who was trying to lighten a civil war, only to make it worse when both sides came to Canada. My Province's Premier is part of a brother duo (The other a former mayor) that were known Crackheads and Crackdealers. Our last Toronto Mayor before the good natured Olivia Chow took over, cheated on his fucking wife. We did as much bad to our own country as we did good. Hell I live in a part of Toronto where crime is such an all time high, that even children are trying to be gangsters, thanks to the people I seen in my building every day. They corrupt kids, they hurt innocent people and often try to throw our history back in our face as if the only problem we have is the race. That's not even a problem in my case, I don't care what race you are, you could be white, black, middle eastern, far eastern or some Green Skinned Alien from Star Trek for all I know and all I fucking care, but if you do Evil, you're on my shit list. Because of my actions exposing human traffickers, I got labeled a racist pedophile, because their leader is a fake member of the Black Lives Matter movement. The man wears a shirt that says "Defund the police." Yet when I have a problem with him, him and his friends have no qualms threatening to call the cops. Does that sound like a person who wants to defund the police. The 15 year old they raped, who is now 25, despite looking white, has an African bloodline so ancient, that it predates the Islamic takeover of Northern Africa in the 7th Century. Had she died that legacy would have died with her. One of their other victims is a member of the TDSB, the board of fucking education. And yet as far as they are concerned, these people are the bad guys including me. My history no longer concerns me anymore, the past is the past and I'm moving on from it. I will only value to good sides while slightly acknowledging it, should I need to make a point. All in all the point being regarding history is despite your perception of us, we're not perfect, we're not that goody two-shoes and most importantly, we're not that nice. We're optimistic, we try to do the right thing and try to make up for our fuck ups. That's Canada.

Impact On The World

There was a time where even the most hated of countries, loved our country. Mostly because we do go out of our way to help each other out. Hell way before Russia-Ukraine, even Russia was our friends. Way before we detained each other's people, China and Canada loved each other. We were even gonna use Chinese as our third language in honor of them. It was the most voted. I would have suggested Native or Gaelic or Celtic. But somewhere along the lines we started to get a dislike for one another. There are people outside the country whom can't decide if they want to come here even just for touring. Mainly because others come back and say something along the lines "It's not that good as advertised. Weird Laws. So many racists. Blah Blah Blah." I say that not out of annoyance, but I realized something. If I were to go to your country and see what goes on there I'd come back giving the same news to my own friends and family. So as far as I'm concerned all over the world we have those that like each other's country and the blah blah blahs of the world. I used to be offended by this shit, but now it bores me. Because we all do it. Still think we're different.

But enough of the serious talk. There is one thing positive, I do know about regarding us as well as other popular countries all over the world, it's the one thing that many still talk about to this day.

Impact On Popular Culture:

Over the years we've had many great Canadians, from all walks of life having impact on the overall pop culture scenes. Celebrities like Michael J. Fox, Brenden Fraser, Mike Myers, Maurice Lamarche, Jim Carrey, Keanu Reeves. Filmmakers like David Cronenberg and whomever the hell made Degrassi. But that's just the people that worked on it. We became so well known, that pop culture has made fun of us both affectionately and aggressively. You've all heard it at one point. A Canadian in a mostly American TV Show or Movie going. "How's it going eh? We're aboot to go ice fishing and watching the Leafs beat the Habs. Have a good one." Even our own country isn't exempt from that because we pretty much started it with Bob and Doug MacKenzie:

Speaking of which, if anyone knows the fuckhead that punched out Rick Moranis, either punch him yourself or drag him to the nearest police station. That shit was wrong.

But essentially we managed to create such a lasting impact on the world that it's hard to forget about us, even if you all eventually start to hate us.

We're not perfect. We struggle with the same bullshit you all do over the years and try to make up for at the very least some of ours.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

First of all, I want to apologize not just for being late in typing, but I want to apologize to everyone on this site as well as all over the net, that I have ever hurt even unintentionally during every drama fest I have ever fought through in this site alone and the entirety of the internet. Regardless if I was justified or not, the way I went about it was wrong, violent and full of hate and even if they act tough back, I can tell that what I said really hurt them. The reason I apologize is that whether they are my friends or my enemies or the neutrals that just want to do their thing and not be a pain to anyone, we're all people. We all have families we turn to when we're not doing this. We all have obligations we have to face every day, such as school and work for most people. We use this site and others like it to escape the shitty hand life dealt us over the years and much of why we don't get along, is because while we all suffer the same pains, the circumstances of our individual lives differ so greatly, that we often get the impression that the other side doesn't understand what we are going through.

Which is 100% bullshit. Pain is pain. Regardless of where it comes from, what does it or who does it, pain is universal. It doesn't matter how we get it, because we still hurt. It doesn't matter who hurts us, because in a way even if we don't know it, we hurt them. But while many of us have suffered this pain mostly physically, through fights and other things, the true pain we all have in common, is the pain in our minds, hearts and souls (if you believe in that sort of thing.).

As a kid, even verbally, I thought the best way to solve my problems was to be so violent and scary, it would scare those that I argue with, into submission and make them leave me alone if I don't walk away myself. It took me a long time to realize that wasn't strength.

While strength by many fighters can tell you, comes from muscle, they often neglect the one muscle that keeps us going above all else:

The Heart

The heart is considered the strongest muscle in our body, but what it represents is more than that. A heartbeat is considered one of the most soothing sounds in the world, hence why parent and child, as well as lovers among most walks of life, often have their head against the chest of another. It's the thing that keeps the rest of the body functioning. Hence why Cardio is often stressed as an important exercise among most. Without a strong heart, it's pointless to even think about exercising the rest of you. Many people think that a headshot is the way to kills someone, be it IRL or in games. When in actuality, some people can function with brain damage, yet if you get shot in the heart, unless you have a new heart on stand by you're dead.

But that's just the physical aspects of the heart. The heart represents a lot of things. It represents the love one has for each other, the passion one has for their work, not to mention the determination and will one gets when they have a clear goal in mind and will stop at nothing to get it.

However, while there is some good sides to the heart, it's not without it's drawbacks.

Every time we neglect our heart, we kill ourselves. Every time our hearts get broken, we go crazy. And every time we try to bury our hearts even for the soul purpose of survival, it tries to break free in many different ways.

And while I do regret some of the things I've said, I've always tried to put my heart and soul in everything I do, including the fights. I have had my heart broken, I was determined to fix it. Every time I had it stepped on, I was determined to step on the person that did it, so they wouldn't step on anyone else's. Every time someone tried to rip my heart out, I would fight tooth and nail to put it back in. And despite all the stress, pain and agony I went through to do so, it proves I still have a heart and it was my strongest weapon the whole time.

So this is my advice to you all, friend, foe and neutral alike. Rather than fight with our fists or even with our words, we fight with our hearts instead. We listen to our hearts and react accordingly. Think less and feel more.

Just recently, I have gotten into the mother of all confrontations, I was almost molested, I had my face beat in, but despite all that, I didn't fight with my fists, I used my heart throughout the whole thing and just when things seemed to be getting worse, I ended up finding the light at the end of the tunnel I was searching for. I was able to find ways of solving my problems without resorting to violence, I used strategies I never thought to use before, but most importantly I fought with all my heart to make sure things were right in my small part in the world. And while it will be a while before the smoke clears and things get better, I have managed to do more damage to the side of evil, than most people ever thought to do. A few days ago, someone very special to me, whom is currently in recovery from their own misfortunes, gave me the best advice anyone could give me. "Be you." Me, regardless of how cool I seem to some and hated to others, deep inside I was nothing more than a sad lonely little boy, trapped in the body of an adult man. Yet said little boy, was what kept me going, I never lost that inner child even when it got tainted by the darker aspects of reality. And as a result, the little boy that I was, was slowly but surely becoming the man I was destined to be. I was able to solve a lot of mysteries of my own life one way or another. So I'm practically a detective. I was able to take control of some situations when no one else would. So I'm practically a leader, but one that will follow other leaders if I think their leadership is worth following. I have a vast knowledge of movies, music and other forms of art. Making me an Artist. Just to name a few qualities, but most importantly I'm Me.

A 32 soon to be 33 year old, Canadian, Autistic Boy, with a lot of potential to the world that I have barely scratched the surface, with a bad attitude and a heart of solid gold reinforced with titanium. This heart may get broken occasionally, but I always managed to put it back together, be it through friends, family or even true love.

So the advice I say unto you is this. No matter where you go, no matter what you do, you're still you. Be you. Fight with your heart, not your fists.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Follow up to this:

Almost Victims

First of all I want to apologize to those that felt sad for me, when I posted that. While it did depress me, rest assured I am ok. I also want to thank those that do understand. It's nice to know that some people know how I feel. But a funny thing happened to me, when it happened. When I was commenting with someone, I basically had a minor existential crisis. I flat out said while I was typing, I was arguing with God. Now I know that sounds crazy but there's some context.

Every time I ever felt down, even with my Wiccan and Native Magics, I always felt the need to argue with God, whenever I can't find something else to blame, including myself. Cliché, but there's some truth to it. I'm pretty sure everyone from all walks of religion, have argued with their deities. It's where the phrase "Goddammit." came from.

But then I realized something. There have been times in my life, where while the Devil was at play, God has fucked me over many times. When the Devil fucks someone over, it's temptation and corruption. When God fucks someone over that does not deserve it, it's a failed test. Now, I thought I passed many tests, because so much good has happened for me and I never stopped helping people when they needed it. Yet despite that, the bastard kept throwing curveballs. Including but not limited to that bitch that tried to rape and rob me.

Now a lot of puritans would tell you, that it's a sin to go against God and most of the time they are right, if you have no justification, then God has every right to punish you. However, when you do have every right and call God out on his bullshit, he flip flops. Either giving you a break to be better ready for the next shit or pushing you further down, causing you to either stay there and die or claw your way out of it. Considering God created The Devil, it doesn't surprise me if God himself wrote the book on the stuff the Devil does for a living. Now mostly Christians and other people that believe in angelic beings could tell you. God sent the Devil to Hell, because the Devil went against him, got kicked out and dragged as many like minded beings from angels to muses, with him. Turning them into Demons and Incubi/Succubi. See where I'm going with this. The Devil is becoming a corrupted, mirror image polar opposite of God. It made me realize that God may not be his Father. But rather his Brother. And what do brothers do when they don't get their own way. They bicker like little children, no different than both kids and adults act when shit goes sideways for them. And it was said, we were made in his image too so...

Anywho. It made me realize something. While I did respect God and the other deities of other religions, I was never really God's chosen one. I thought I was, but that was just pride. I got cocky and it went sideways for me when I did. But even when things started to get better, he still threw shit at me. Nor was I the Devil's Chosen one either. I am just as capable of great evil as I am capable of good. Which is why even when I fight for righteous causes, I fight dirty when necessary. But then I realized. My core is paganism religions. Wicca and Native specifically. Whereas so are certain people in my circle, even if they were raised Christian. So in a way we're basically a family of Witches. But before they were called witches, they were called something else. You know what it was?

Children of Nature

Look at what Wiccans do, what Natives do, in fact every Pagan type religion does when they do their stuff. They respect nature, they use nature and they allow nature to take it's course when it's all done and over with. They never thank a specific God, they thank what they interpret as Nature in many forms. For example. In Ancient Greece, the first God and Goddess before Chronos, was Uranus and Gaia. Those who read Ancient Greek History, will tell you Uranus is a personification of the sky which modern translators would say means he's basically what Heaven looks like in Humanoid form. However in terms of primordial deities he was only the second. Gaia was the first. The personification of Earth. She was also the mother and husband of Uranus, which while squicky, doesn't surprise me because it's well....Ancient Greece. Back when people had no laws and no morals and we had to work are way through what was right and what was wrong. But it also has a different meaning. In terms of Hetero Marriage, the two most important people in a Mother's life are their husband and son. If you want to modernize it, the two most important people in a person's life is their partner and their child. Granted it was depicted in a disturbing way, but the message still stands.

Now at first I thought that God or whatever higher power was up there, created Earth and Heaven. But after relooking at this maybe it was the other way around. Heaven and Earth created God.

And considering God created Satan, he was his father and his brother. So basically in modern terms the deities above us, however you interpret them are nothing more than a dysfunctional family of Cosmic Proportions. To put it in biblical terms God didn't create Mother Nature. Mother Nature created God.

Now Spoilers for Spawn fans, but Todd MacFarlane, in an attempt to create a Satanic Superhero that rivaled that of Raven, was way ahead of his time in terms of Theology Theory, as he often used biblical terms and other religious text to further inspire his characters. For example, it was one of the first religious based comics to portray the idea that Heaven may be just as corrupt as Hell, but they hide it in a mask of righteousness. But before they continued it, the original ending to Spawn was, this. Al Simmons aka Spawn, whom tried to do right, but got damned to Hell anyway, went so far as to basically put God and The Devil on time out. Grounding them like a frustrated parent. However, he didn't do it alone, the one above them helped him. The Mother of Existence aka The Man of Miracles aka Mother Nature aka Gaia. Now remember what I said regarding Gaia and Uranus. He's her son and her husband and while Al does pine more for Wanda, whom later became the vessel for God and The Devil to be born, by the way, in terms of surrogacy, he played the role as son and husband for The Mother of Existence and basically sent God and the Devil to their room to hash things out and think about what they did.

Then it hit me. Despite basically having a human with Satanic powers banishing God, there are no one of any religion trying to debate someone capable of that because humans, even with powers simply cannot be as powerful as God. And MacFarlane could have had his comics shut down, just for the audacity of it, but because Spawn and him are popular at this point, they achieved more success with the only complaints being that the further stories were just not the same as what he did in his heyday. It's why he's rebooting the series, he's trying to go back to the beginning of what made his greatest creation so great in the first place.

And since I've often boasted that I'm a witch aka a child of nature I thought "Hmm...if Spawn can ground God and The Devil at Natures Request, why can't I?"

So I did what I did as a metaphorical son and father would do. I used what I learned to ground both of them and the weirdest part about it, is the signs told me I was going the right direction.

Now in my case I invoked Native and Wicca magic only. Just to prove a point. That I was a child of Nature before God.

For context, this is how it usually works. In terms of Native, you smudge and you pray for whatever out loud or in your head. No different than most prayers. However because I mixed Wicca with mine I also did some improvisation. Wicca has a thing known as Calling Corners. In which one person from each element, pays tribute to the direction they're facing and the element they represent. However, as shown in that clip from The Craft it doesn't often require them all to be there for it to work as you can either invoke your own element on your own or represent your coven by invoking theirs, if you're right about their elements. I've practiced it before, using my building as a compass, smudging and casting spells for each respective element, each respective direction and what they represent.

For further context here's how it goes at least for me:

1. North, Earth, Protection.
2. South, Fire, Love.
3. East, Air, Career.
4. West, Water, Letting shit go.

The whole time I thought I was asking God or whatever out there for help, I was invoking Mother Nature. So I realized it and went out with as little sage as I had left, faced west and said. "I'm letting go God and The Devil. By Nature, they are grounded." or something along the lines of that. To put it plainly I basically asked nature to put them on a time out and away from us all and judging by what I've been seeing lately, including but not limited to the day beginning better, it may have worked. At least for my neck of the woods.

Now, you can choose to believe this or not. Everyone's entitled to believe what they want to believe and have their opinion. But I am saying this now. Nothing based on your own personal experiences will ever make me doubt it again. So if you're gonna go and say "It doesn't work like that." In an attempt for me to argue with you, you're wasting your breath. It's my belief, not yours, so if you don't like it, then don't fucking talk to me. But for those whom have their own opinion and have major respect for my belief, we're cool. But for those who do believe me or at the very least figured it out in their own way, maybe take this advice. Maybe put the bickering forces of good and evil on time out your way. Be it prayer, meditation, whatever. Just ask nature or at least your interpretation of nature, to put your respective good and evil on time out. Maybe it will work.

I was thinking of ideas for a sequel book to my first book. However I think I found it here.

Stay safe, stay tuned for more.

Update 1/22/2024

Ok. Good News and Bad News. Bad News first, ever since I grounded God and The Devil from my life and the people around me, God bitchslapped me in a colossal way. I won't go into detail as I am tired of venting this crap, but I will say this. It pissed me off to the point where I felt strong enough to tear down a 13 story building with my bare hands. I went on a verbal rampage against people responsible for it and if you all watched my audio dramas, you know how loud of a screamer I can be if I want to. It's a technique I use, that while Non-Violent does scare and hurt people in a way as painful as a punch to the face. My family once called it "Putting the fear of God." and if I got more well equipped, since I was able to do a successful test run of my character's S.T. and Light Harmony, I would have shown what it was like through my characters.

To teach you how it works here's how it works:

1. First, don't simply stand there and yell at the person. The more you talk the more they can use it against you, no matter how mundane or how severe your language is. Simply talk or yell louder, but with a firm tone of voice so that they never had a chance to talk. Say your piece as quick as you can and walk off to let them process what you just said. I've done this before many times when I was at my breaking point and while it's seldom successful, those that have fear in their hearts will either act tough to save face or be in a mental panic, because they don't know you personally and are afraid of what you may do if hypothetically you do resort to violence.
2. When walking away, find a good place to escape to. It could be a place you feel safe in or a place they don't dare to find you, because it could be an area they know enough to leave alone. Considering I spend my spare time walking around my town, I'm able to find many routes. It's how I was able to survive it for 26 years. I knew all the shortcuts. Some I didn't, others in my life taught me.
3. Wherever you go, go as far away from the zone as you can. Could be just a few clicks to where it happened or it could be miles away to a store or a hangout, but walk there. Lay low for a few minutes to an hour or depending on how you deal with anger, longer. The reason why is the old saying "Nothing is scarier." Most people think walking away is the cowards way out, but I find that some people, paranoid people mostly, often wonder the following. "Where does he/she go? What is he/she doing over there? Is he/she bringing more people to deal with this?" The possibilities are endless.

Point being, you yell, you walk, you wait. It's so Notorious that Uncle Phil is a master of it:

As the old saying goes "Revenge is a dish best served cold." Well it's very cold in Winter.

Now despite this being bad news, I was able to cope with it, by teaching others how to do it, so they no longer have to be afraid of their own respective Evil's. It's one of my most favoured techniques. Hard to do on the Net, but in real life, it works almost every time. And now I pass it onto you.

The Good news is, that while I am still at odds with God, I lifted his grounding. It took me a while to think about it and while I still think Nature is above God, there are still some people that love and respect God no matter what he's done to me. In my case, some of the places I go have nice people of various religions, that still continue to be good no matter what. And while God sometimes still pisses me off, I never EVER take it out on their worshippers. I tell them my POV, sometimes they agree, sometimes they disagree and I don't hold it against them. Otherwise I'd be Cain reincarnated. Fuck that guy, he killed his brother.

I came to an understanding that while they were arguing like bickering children, God was also a frustrated parent. He took it out on me and my closest allies, because he had no idea how to deal with The Devil. My solution, while harsh, was to use how we humans deal with dysfunctional families. I was gonna do it anyway. The first stage is trying to get them to hash it out without us in the middle. Then when they were good and ready, I would separate them and make them think about what they did. The child becoming the parent with the older mother (Nature/Gaia), helping. But when I realized what was up, I basically said "You know what, you can come out, but the Devil stays there. There are plenty that will take over until he's ready, but maybe he should think more about how he fucked up." So ya, through my discussions I basically created a compromise cosmically. The deal is that I let him out, but while I show respect, I will consider nature over him as a light punishment, because he has billions of worshippers anyway, one gone won't kill him. In exchange, he has to make up for screwing me over so many times. Now I just have to wait and see. If it happens, I know I did the right thing. If not I'll find some other way of restoring balance. Point being is at this point, I'm not giving up on my life no matter what happens to me and I hope it does yield great results for me and those I care about.

Thank you for reading.

Over the years, despite my good and bad days, my main priority was to do everything I could, not to get arrested or killed. I have a violent temper and a bad attitude, so it's easier said than done. But sometimes people push me to the point where I'd risk both to do the right thing or at the very least take justice into it myself. One of the downfalls of true heroism is the consequences of one's actions, right or wrong. For example, is someone worth hurting if they committed a serious crime, no matter how bad or severe it is.

I've tried to find the line between Right and Wrong, my whole life and it's a lesson I will try to keep learning, because it is neverending no matter what I do and how good of a life I live. However the one thing that always boggles me, is that when it comes to certain serious crimes, such as assault, rape, sexual harassment, pedophilia, people have sympathy for the victims, which is fair. Yet there is often less to no sympathies to those that dodge the bullet, those whom got out of a bad situation in time, those whom almost got hit and those whom almost got raped. Which leads me to what I'm typing here.

Now make no mistake, I assure you people that aside from some anger and fear, I am ok. I have not been hurt, nor am I in any sort of trouble or danger. But today almost ruined my good day month streak this year because I dodged said bullet.

Now for context, my views on sex crimes differ from some people. In this case, I do believe that females are just as capable of harassing and raping males as males are capable of raping women. We may be in the minority for that, but it doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Unlike women, where some fear going to authority figures and some don't, it's harder for men when it happens. Mainly because there have been moments, depicted in various mediums, where females practically attack males, sexually, but it's often all in good fun or comedy. Treated as a joke. Make no mistake, there is some truth to that, as some men prefer to be chased rather than chase. However, if a man is clearly uncomfortable with the woman chasing them, then it's obvious they aren't interested and not playing hard to get. In my case, I was heading home and some creepy drug addled woman whom doesn't even live in my building, sexually harassed me. She was a known fentanyl user and crackhead as well as a thief and she was scoping out apartments to try to get in and steal shit. Trojan horse style. Needless to say, I wasn't going in my apartment, because I was so creeped out I didn't want her to know where I lived let alone force her way into my apartment. She grabbed my arm in an attempt to court me and follow me, I threatened her to scare her off. Make no mistake, I would never in my life hit or condone hitting women, call me old fashioned. Call me sexist for you modern freaks out there, but that is something I don't like to do and I sure as hell don't like seeing others do it. Yet, the thing about intimidation and it's effectiveness, is that while you know yourself, they don't know you. So if you say an empty threat it would either scare them thinking you'll do it or attack you thinking they're defending themselves. I did it and it made her let go of my arm. Needless to say I wanted to get as far away from this bitch as I could. I was already in a relationship and I was not gonna fucking jeopardize that just because some fugly bitch wants to trap me. And if my partner walked in and saw that she would:

1. Like most women in that situation, assume I was cheating on her and break things off. Even if it wasn't like that. Which in this case it wasn't.
2. Because I know my partner very well and know how batshit insane she could get when she's angry alone, let alone seeing another woman try to steal me from her....let's just say, she'd be doing life in prison.

And while I do not wish either option, I do have faith that 2 is the most likely, because we went through great lengths to protect each other the past 19 days including today, it was like we were Nightwing and Raven.

I walked away as soon as this skank let go of my arm, she followed me, started fake crying for sympathy and started slinging insults at me. I went to my building's security station, luckily the Security Guard was not only a friend, but another woman. Whom was new to the building, but scared of the bad elements. I try to give her pep talks to get through it. So needless to say thank fucking god she was in that office. If it was a guy, they would out of obligation investigate and report, but would not take it seriously due to the double standards, unless of course he was a victim himself. Whereas while some females don't take it seriously, others would and would even go through great lengths to make sure it doesn't happen again. I informed her of the situation, told her to call for back up and reported the incident to the housing company. She left the building before anything could be dealt with, so it was easy for me to do that. However I been hearing around that she was still roaming around the area, so I figured that sooner or later I had to get out of there. So to cool off, I left and did some errands for the rest of the night. So needless to say, it didn't quite ruin my day. However for the first time in a long time, I felt scared. People on this site alone, could attest, that when angry, I never back down, say as much nasty things as I can to the person that wronged me and those that know me in my personal life, know how much of a violent kid I used to be with said temper. So needless to say, even with my moral code at play, I can safely say this. Most men, even if they never once hit a woman, often have what's known as an "exception list." a form of catharsis were merely the thought of hurting them comes to mind, but no follow through. Basically those that have harmed them without provocation, spread rumours about them, raped them, robbed them, etc. So needless to say I have one of those lists and it's a miracle I didn't follow through, because if I did, even if I spent the rest of my life in prison, there'd be a lot. Including but not limited to Karla Homolka. The notorious serial killer and rapist in my country and wife of other notorious rapist and killer Paul Bernardo. Yet while I have that specific list, this was the first and only time I ever wanted to kill a woman. Because she was that evil to me. And I literally had to get as far away from my building as possible so I wouldn't bet so mad I'd be driven to do it. Which leads me to the topic.

I was almost a victim of sexual harassment, rape and possibly robbery if I was ever that stupid to go to my apartment in front of her. So needless to say, even if I did go through with killing this person, charged as I may be, they won't blame me. Instead I settled it the legal way. Alerted my buildings authorities and left to calm down. Hence what I mean by being ok, as I am calm enough to talk about this.

Having said, that it was not the first time this shit has happened to me. It's been happening to me since I was a kid.

As a kid, me and my family almost got date raped by a friend of our family.

As a teen, I had to watch helplessly while a relative of mine as well as many other teenagers, was being groomed and harassed by her pedophile father. Had he been interested in boys as he was in girls, I would have been next. Not only that his own father was defending him.

As a high school student, a fellow student was prostituting herself, preying on other high school students. Luring unsuspecting hormone addled teenage boys into possible rape scandals. At the behest of her pimp/fuckbuddy, whom was 20 when he was putting her out. I was almost a victim of that shit, only I was too stupid to understand what she was doing, but smart enough to GTFO, before it got worse. Not to mention even if I was interested, I was too focused on graduating to think about that shit.

As an adult, I was caught in a badger game, with two scamming women. They even went so far as hitting me and chucking a lit cigarette to try to get a reaction out of me and the only thing I had to ask was "WHO ARE YOU!?"

When I first moved to the building I run into that same high school rapist and pedo duo again.

During a summer, I was harassed by someone else's girl, whom was trying to get him jealous.

And now this fucking shit.

And people on this site why I'm so defensive and act like a know it all when it comes to sex crimes:

I WAS ALMOST A VICTIM OF THAT SHIT!!! I KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT!!!

I study the signs, the M.O.s of the most notorious criminals, so I could find these people myself and put an end to it if I could. And that it doesn't happen to me or anyone ever again. In the name of every child and adult I failed to save in the past, because certain stigmas and laws don't offer sympathy. Which leads me to the topic. Almost victims.

Almost victims are men, women and children, whom by intervention of other individuals, luck, intuition or even to some the hand of whatever God/Goddess is up there, dodge serious situations that could have gotten worse had they ended up like anyone else dumb or ignorant enough to fall for it. These people are the unsung heroes, because even if they don't talk about their experience, they use what they learned to help others out. But that said, just because they are more savvy, doesn't make the experience less painful or scary.

In the defense of those that offer little to no sympathy, it's mostly some apathy about it. They don't think it's a big deal when someone almost gets killed or almost gets raped or almost gets framed for said crimes or any almost for that matter. They think "It didn't happen to you, so why should we give a shit?" And because people don't like to talk about it, but show clear signs of trauma, it makes others suspicious, thinking you're one of them just by looks alone.

Let me tell you something about almost victims. Even if they are relieved that it didn't happen to them, which in my experience is a fucking relief. They think about the "What ifs?" Like what if it did happen to us and how would it affect us. Would it throw us in jail? Would it get us killed before people realized the truth? Do some still disbelieve us? Things that would haunt them for the rest of their lives.

Some get over it, others would rather go so far as kill themselves when the fear doesn't go away just to escape from it. Me, I try to cope as much as I could, but with my disorder and the other baggage in my life, it's not easy especially when it keeps happening. But my main worry was that I would end up breaking the heart of someone I love even if it was by accident. And if that did happen, not only would it break my heart, it would fucking destroy me. I would go back to the way I was before, because I'd have nothing left. I'd rather have my own heart broken than breaking hers, because I can take it. And it's why it wound me up to this point. Other times I've been harassed or caught up in something like this, I play it off, thinking it won't happen again and just move on with my life. Yet, this was the last straw for me.

Now I'm not the only Almost Victim. I'm sure others are out there all over the world, that dodged their fair share of bullets. However, part of why justice is never done, no matter how painful and humiliating it could be, is that we don't talk about it. So I encourage you to talk about it. It doesn't have to be authority figures. As I know most people be it through fear or through personal reasons would rather not go to the police even if it's the right thing to do for something like this. It could be friends, family or even others you feel you can trust to help you through the situation. Someone you know would help you through this, through moral support and love.

So needless to say, start talking. Because it took a lot of bravery and courage just to even speak about this. It's stuff I usually don't like to talk about, don't want to talk about, but if it at least warns the next generation, it should be talked about. It is also why I was overtly defensive when people were hassling me over the Jes and Joe thing. Because I seen that shit myself and I was too angry to even talk about it, because I didn't think a single person would even believe me. And while it didn't ruin the rest of my day, it is a serious situation and people should be aware that this shit does in fact happen. You'll get no snickers, humiliation or any ridicule from me, so don't be afraid to speak.

Right now I'm just gonna stay positive and get through this day so I can make it to tomorrow.

Until then, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

In 1823 a lot of good and bad things have happened.

In 1823, The first Angelo-Ashanti war happened.

In 1823, Olbers' paradox is described by the German astronomer Heinrich Wilhelm Olbers.

In 1823, The British Museum, one of the most popular Museums in the world was first founded.

In 1923, US President Warren Harding became the first president to pay his own taxes which even back then was considered a big thing.

In 1923, Sergeant Murphy wins the 82nd Grand National.

In 1923, Walt Disney and his brother Roy Disney founded the Disney Brothers Cartoon Studio. Which paved the way, not just for Walt Disney's Empire and the stuff good and bad that came with it. It also paved the way for competing cartoon companies that later on went to become powerhouses of their own. Including but not limited to Warner Bros. And considering it lasted literally up to 101 years, that's an accomplishment on it's own.

In 2023, Covid was being stabilized enough that people were free to travel, despite the risks.

In 2023, The Russian-Ukraine Conflict restarted, with hints that Ukraine may one day win.

In 2023, in my own personal life and my travels, I witnessed the start of miracles that could only be realized as we entered this new year. Including but not limited to getting things done and dealing with BS drama once and for all.

It made me realize that a lot of events both good and bad, they're often at their peak at least once every 100 years. Which means, for the good of humanity, there is gonna be a lot of good things. So good that any bad thing they have, doesn't ruin their whole day. Such as my 30 Good Days last September. For the bad of humanity, I foresee only two things. 1. Bad things will happen to those that don't redeem themselves before it's too late. Some people I know in my personal life, did so much bad without remorse, that sooner or later, one way or another, they are either going to die or spend the rest of their life in prison. 2. Those whom done bad in the past, but have redeemed themselves one way or another, will too have the mother of all breaks. It won't be easy, I've done my fair share of bad, but once I started to reflect on my own life and started putting more effort into doing good outside this net, I ended up slowly but surely getting the things I wanted, but most importantly the things I didn't think I need at the time but got them anyway.

It made me realize, that while it's not quite noticeable, through it's people, the Earth is slowly but surely healing itself to prepare for the next century cycle. Now you can all relax. Due to our short lifespans at the time, in the next 99 years, we'd be long dead which may scare some, but the comfort is that we don't have to deal with the next century bullshit. We paid what we owed, we're square with the house and we earned our much needed vacation time, however one sees fit to have a good time.

By 2123, we may have to cross many speed bumps, but we as a race, will eventually make it through in the end. Some may stumble, some may fall, some may even drop dead. But those that survive will be able to reap the rewards to come, no matter how small or how big they are.

I am writing this, so that even if my account is long since erased or archived, there'd still be a digital paper trail for future generations to prepare. So they cannot make the same mistakes we have in the past centuries and look more forward to what the future hold's dear.

Eventually I will succeed in my other goals, but until then, I'm enjoying what I got while I still can and I've never been happier.

Take care, Stay Safe and Stay Tuned For More.

I won't go into exact detail, but the past 16 days of The New Year, has been nothing but an exciting adventure.

To put it plainly, Evil in my area, has been exposed and is slowly fading away. Miracles, have been happening every day. And my town is beginning to toughen up in a good way. For starters, just today, I've interacted with some unlikely, but good friends more often. Some of which, see me as a hero, despite my objections. I have watched heroism unfold in unexpected ways. Including but not limited to a guy getting saved from an 80 foot drop. As well as gained rewards I never thought I would need, but was glad to have. Including but not limited to new TV speakers and a bunch of clothes of many sizes. Whatever doesn't fit, I'll give it to someone it will fit.

But essentially, my real life, got more exciting and fun. I can't wait to see what comes next. And this is only half the first month of the New Year. I had a feeling things would get better, but holy fucking shit.

Years ago, I was an unlucky man bitching at the world for my piece of it, but I can safely say in ways that don't have to do with money, I've become one of the richest people in the world. The thing about Wealth is that it's not just financial. Anyone can make a buck. Knowledge of a craft that can help others, that's wealth in knowledge. Being at the right time to witness or participate in an event you didn't want to miss, that's wealth of time management. Having family and knowing they are gonna be ok in the long run, that's wealth in family. Me, in terms of finances, I do what I can to survive and try to get extra when I can. But the knowledge, time management and even family stuff, I've been apart of all these years, is paying off in ways I couldn't even imagine, but are happy about. And while there are still some problems needed to be solved, I look at them with a clear mind, a huge sense of optimism and a strong heart.

It's one of the reasons, I keep writing here, when everything seems like a dead end. So that the people I care about here, could find it within themselves to read this and base their own opinions on it on whether or not they should follow my example or go their own way to achieve success based on their own ideas. Either way, it gives me hope that if things can get better for someone like me, then they can get better for everyone. And as a result I have four tips for people to hear:

1. Take time to help someone out, if and when you can. Sometimes people view kindness as a weakness, when in actuality it's a great strength. Help the right people, based on your gut feeling and while it may not be your intention, you may get rewarded in way you didn't think you need, but would come in handy in your life. Case in point, I saved a man's life and helped him move some stuff and garbage out. In return, he gave me whatever he wasn't taking with him from clothes to some electronics.
2. If you have spiritual beliefs, use them. Trust me on this one. The problem isn't that you're not getting answers, the problem is that prayer and ritual should be a balance between selfish and selfless. Pray for something for yourself, but also pray for others to be ok, whether they need extra money or you wish them good health at the hospital. They're not telling you one way or another, they're telling you to do both. Even pray for your enemies. Trust me, that one works.
3. Always make the best out of a bad situation. To cold to go out to eat? Sweet, watch some TV, make some popcorn and chill until it's no longer chill out there. The sky is the limit on how one can occupy themselves and if it's not important, you have all the time in the world to do it another time. This was the hardest lesson to me, because I was bombarded with so many bad situations that it took me a while to sort them all out.
4. Help each other out when you can. This applies to the Net too. Everyone on this site alone, has a skill the other person needs. Ask around, maybe you'll find more success working together rather than compete over who gets fame first. My skill here is music, it's downloadable, so there should be nothing stopping you from using it here, for the things you need, like animated shorts and videos or simply background music for your podcasts and skits. If it gets us up there faster, then do it.

Point being is that, for some reason, good things have been happening to me lately and I've begun to slowly but surely try to solve the secret of it, so others get a chance at success. So far, I've found some of it. But I think it'll be found if everyone else shows how they got successful. Pool resources together and make a 3 dimensional plan that could probably help everyone all over the world. We're not as different as people say we are. We all went through the same bullshit in different ways, and it's high time we put aside all our differences and work together. Not just online here, but offline. Find ways of helping improve your own little worlds.

There's a saying "We can't save the world, only our small part of it.", well I think if we each did it our way in saving our own parts of the world, we could collectively save the world. It's not too late. Nature has given us a second chance in a strange but good way.

So take care stay safe and stay tuned for more.

First off I want to say, I nearly had a really bad day. Won't go into detail, but I was able to get out of it with sheer determination and willpower. I was able to help someone that needed my help and as a result, that person is under my personal protection. So I got to get a glimpse of what it's like to actually be S.T. Musician.

Having said that, disclaimer: This following article is mostly for those whom have varying spiritual beliefs. So no offence to any Atheists out there, but you're welcome to read it anyway. Who knows even if you don't believe in it, you might get inspired to make media out of it. It worked for Bruce Lee.

Anywho, I realized something I think a lot of people of various faiths overlooked when it came to their prayers and rituals. For context, most people pray for protection, wealth, love and life. How they do it, varies religion to religion, but it's basically the same principle. For example. A Christian prays before bed for the wellbeing of their family. A Muslim faces Mecca in hopes their life is going forward. So forth and so on.

However the one thing every religious and non-religious person has in common is this: No matter where they walk in life, they will always have enemies and their main go to is praying for their destruction. Now sometimes that does work, I've witnessed it myself and even put it to practice during my own spiritual journey, but it's not powerful enough because it clashes with the will of said enemies and if their will is strong even if their body and mind are weak, they won't perish. Like the song says, you can't always get what you want. You can pray for an ass kicking, but that's as far as it goes.

Then one day, after dealing with the rough stuff, I go outside, not just to smoke but to pray for the protection of my loved ones. It's one of the reasons why I haven't quit yet. In Native culture, Tobacco is a sacred herb and smoking it can be used in rituals. I just do it my own way, by lighting up and praying like hell. Even adding some sage into the mix. The reason I do it this way, is because I use my body as a vessel to tell whatever's up there, I'm serious and I'm willing to destroy my own body as Penance. I don't recommend it if you have asthma or have allergies to tobacco and sage. Anywho, I spent my time on top of protecting my loved ones, praying for the destruction of my own enemies. Both on this site and in my personal life. Some of it worked, but it wasn't enough for me. I got greedy for wrath. Then one day, after dealing with today's crap, a friend of mine said something that really clicked. Among most things we talk about, we talk religion as he's also native and has a native family of his own and he tells me this: "I Pray for my Enemies." Now at first I was thinking even if he was Native "You're fucking nut-- wait a minute. You know what that is a very good idea." So after I go retreat to my home I light some sage and pray that my enemies achieve the same heart and mind I achieve. The idea being that if they put themselves in my shoes subconsciously they'd understand why I was so angry and most importantly why I still try to keep a good heart and mind. And while this prayer is positive in nature, positive stuff can in fact be used as a weapon.

For example, for context. In Legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time, the last Arrow you get and the one to defeat Ganondorf was the Light Arrow:

Now I understood the holy context because holy light burns evil and all that. However, I always wondered why Light of all things, because I figured they'd convert the fire arrow into holy fire and make it look badass. However then I realized that was the point. While Ganondorf feels pain from the Light Arrow, the pain is it trying to cleanse his soul of evil. So Link wasn't trying to kill Ganondorf, he was trying to exorcise him. He was trying to save him at first, just like he was trying to save Zelda. But of course, Ganondorf doesn't want to be saved, because being good literally hurts him.

In my case, I felt the same aches and pains everyone else feels when they try to do good, whether they succeed or fuck up. They work too hard that makes others reject them. They act too nice, which causes them to be taken advantage of. They act too brave and they get themselves killed. In all essence being good really sucks.

However, those that don't stop being good, would see the fruits of their labour. The hard work builds a house. The kindness tells you who your real friends and enemies are. Even if your bravery gets you killed, you have people that will miss you and more importantly people who will avenge you and try to keep the memory of you alive.

I can take the bullshit if it yields that good of a result. But I have lived on this planet for 32 years so far and like everyone else, I made a shitload of enemies everywhere I went. So I basically prayed for thousands of souls that didn't deserve it, to put themselves in my shoes and if it works and they don't redeem themselves, needless to say it's gonna fucking hurt. I know that, because I felt that pain, all my life.

Brings a whole new meaning to Kill Them With Kindness, doesn't it.

So I suggest you do the same. No matter how bad they are, no matter how much you hate them, pray for their soul. Pray for them to be saved, you never know what may happen. Hell even if you don't believe in it, I suggest you pray for it anyway for kicks.

Take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

Part of what inspired me to do this song:

did have some biographical aspects. I won't go into detail on what and why, but the best way to describe it is that I realized in my own personal life, that I've been living in an amalgamation of many fictional mediums. Action, Drama, Fantasy, Science Fiction, Romance, Horror, Fairy Tale and Western, just to name a few. Maybe I'm just going crazy suffering from Truman Show Delusion or maybe I see something most people don't, but it made me realize that a lot of things I went through even in small doses were like something out of books, movies, tv shows and video games to name a few. Even my book incorporates fictional mediums, because like religion, most people dismiss the messages fiction tries to tell us, simply because they don't think it's real. I used to be one of those people. Yet despite that I start noticing things. For example my Small Crazy Idea, I was mostly trying to make something to compensate for lack of nutrition, because I'm a picky eater which leaves me little options other than meat, grains, some veggies, dairy and junk food. But after finding out what it was capable of, I can safely say I basically created a magic potion. To give a glimpse of my personal life, I go around my neighborhood wearing steel toe work boots. Both for personal protection, safety equipment if one needed help moving something heavy and most importantly to increase the weight, ever so slightly to add some resistance to my walking, wherever I go. Even on leisurely walks, which I love to take, no matter the weather. For the past 2, soon to be three months, I was able to go from 255 pounds to 220 pounds. I basically lost 35 pounds without even noticing. Simply because I was walking around in those shoes as well as carrying other forms of heavy equipment along the way. Including but not limited to carrying heavy cases of beer for a friend of mine. I realized recently it reminded me of two things from the same medium: Dragon Ball. Specifically Goku and Krillin's beginner training delivering milk to the locals. As well as Goku's first time showing that he was wearing weighted clothing, in the iconic match between him and Tienshinhan. Not to mention my potion doubling as a liquid equivalent to a senzu bean.

Much like Goku, if I swapped my boots with running shoes or just go barefoot, I'd probably be able to run so fast, that nobody would catch me. Even a big guy like myself can run pretty fast already, but with less weight and more muscle, I could probably knock a lot of people over, just by running through them. Not to mention I am somewhat adept and martial arts, am one of the few people in my town that at least finished High School and sometimes have a very explosive temper. So needless to say, I basically became a Super Saiyan, without Ki.

So it makes me wonder. Is fiction, truly fake or much like myths, religious texts and other forms of written story, that it has hidden messages. Hell some were more blatant than others. Such as a certain One Punch Man 100 day workout that seems to actually work in real life. Or a certain Sci-Fi television show, that somehow predicted if not outright invented the technology we take for granted today among most things.

Hell I myself witnessed things outside the net that shouldn't even seem possible. Including but not limited to the modern equivalent to fairy tale romances. So it makes me wonder, what is really fake about fiction? The stories are written by people with certain views of the world both idealistic and cynical, they resonate very well with the people that read them even if they have differing views of their own. Which is why so many stories are iconic in the first place. In fact a lot more people are above all else happy simply because they continue to hold these stories in their heart.

Granted we don't see a lot of people shoot magic powers or energy blasts at each other. But that doesn't diminish the message even less.

So what do you think. Have certain aspects of fiction affected your life as well? If so let me know. Until then take care, stay safe and stay tuned for more.

I realized even if only one or two people get my first book, that's good enough, because it helps me judge not the quantity of customers, but the quality. Something I should have learned a long time ago, when I first sold my music in Bandcamp. Doesn't matter if you're a starving artist or an entertainer drowning in money, as long as some people love your work, that's what mattered. I used to believe that before slight greed and insecurity took over me. Not to mention my pension for getting involved in so much drama as well as my baggage, clouding my mind, body and soul from my personal truth.

That said, regarding my book, that was my intention, have at least one person read it and whether they like it or not, that's fine. But if they did like it, they'd tell their circles why they like it and either they'd be interested in reading or tell that person that they and to an extent the author (me) is full of shit. Strangely enough when I wanted to do non-fiction that was the kind of reaction good or bad. One of the few times I would accept criticism without defense because that would be how I reacted if someone else gave me that book 12 years ago. One of the few times a negative moment would make me genuinely laugh.

Anywho. Because I managed to get at least 2 people interested in reading, it's enough to expand on it. I have many ideas for my next book on the subject, but they are more or less a few mental cliff notes. For example I wanted to do further expansion on certain rules. Not just experience, but mainly to dive further into it. For those interested in the rules for context click here. But essentially the rules are rule 5 and 6. #5, Truth is Stranger stranger than fiction. #6, Incorporate your superstitions. Now it's a bit awkward to spoil my own work sometimes, but spoiler alert.

Regarding 5, part of why I originally started CIEIR in the first place, was so that I could find the truth in fictional mediums. Whether it was something small as tech similar to Star Trek (Communicators being the pioneer for Cell Phones) or trying to see if possible certain people existed in real life under different names. So I wanted to dive deeper into the world of fiction and list off all the times they either proved things true or predicted the future. So I may dedicate a chapter or even a book for each rule if I have to for those who like further reading. Including these rules.

Regarding Rule 6, as a joke in the book I made up a superstition based on my own personal life. Has no bearing towards family or friends or even my own superstition. However I also listed some of the known superstitions, just to get people interested in talking about their own or if they had similar. That and recently I've been noticing signs from even older superstitions. Specifically Angel numbers.

Now I find the concept of Angel Numbers as well as Angels is interesting, but for a while I never quite understood the full meaning of them. Despite the Christian name for them, they are well rooted in other religions, including but not limited to Wicca. As the Wiccans often sometimes invoke the Archangels at all four corners to better invoke the magic in their rituals. In fact, the concept of Angels alone is rather interesting as some would depict them as humanoid beings that bring light and love to those that prayed for them, others try to do a take that is considered biblically accurate. But the one thing that amazes me more than these depictions is that, right down to certain numbers, if feels maybe we been watched in some way or another. Be it by actual divinities or by people whom firmly believe so strongly in them, that right down to the numbers, they'd place them all over all aspects of their life. That only those that believe in it or believe in similar concepts would be able to decode. It's even routed in science because certain numbers mean a lot and be it by coincidence or the divine, end up factoring into various equations and other number related shit that could very well affect your life, whether you're aware or not. Even the very digital clock on your phones, often shows even if they happen to be times on your schedule, they happen to be the right numbers you need to see at the right time to boot. For those that don't remember, back when we relied on Hand Clocks, the clock represents how the world turns. Our planet turns at least 1000 miles per hour. If one were to be able to stand at the right spot for at least 8 hours, morning to night. You'd be able to see the sun rise and set. If you look at it properly, without risking burning your eyes, you'd also notice that it reacts the same way as an hour hand to a clock. With the sun directly over your head signifying High Noon. So 8 x 1000 equals 8000 miles for a third of the day. Whereas in the full day, it's 24 000 miles every 24 hours. With the minute hand and second hand helping you calculate the minutes and seconds it takes for us to spin all the way around. After realizing this myself, the angel numbers on my own clock, started to make more sense to me.

To give a glimpse of my personal and spiritual life, I used to see recurring numbers on a clock. You probably seen these numbers before and either dismissed them as coincidence or if you do believe it's like a sense that depending on the numbers, it could mean something good or something bad. In my case these are the following numbers I see on my clocks or others:

• 11:11
• 12:34
• 9:11......not that 9/11, but you never know. Considering people think Nostradamus predicted that one.

But to sum it up. They're the most prominent of many Angel Numbers. 1111 meaning you're on the right path. 1234 meaning the universe is aligned with your thoughts and intentions. 911 meaning that your thoughts, actions and decisions. Which as fucked as it sounds explained a whole lot why those guys crashed those towers and the Pentagon. They thought they were serving a higher purpose, but basically interpreted their own messages the wrong way. They picked that date, because they were certain that something was on their side, when in actuality, all it did was prompt the world to take action against them. Showing who's side whatever's up there if anything is.

Anywho, since I was able to figure out the meanings of the numbers, in various aspects of my life, I started seeing more numbers whenever I look at the clock. Many numbers saying I'm going the right direction and since they've worked pretty well so far, I think I'll keep following them.

But that's just one idea for the next book/s.

The others I want to delve into the more pseudo-religions and how fictional fandom could equate to religion. Such as Superfans like the Trekkies and the Warsies. As well as delve into the Anti-Religions, including but not limited to Satanism, mainly to study and see what their worth is and if they're worth putting into the book.

That said, comment below, if you ever seen strange numbers that resonated with your life one way or another. They could be on a clock, a receipt or even two or more random numbers popping up on TV or even the buildings in public. For they could mean a lot of things.

We finally made it. I was out for most of it, but I was in time to see a great display of fireworks.

This would be the time to reflect on the last year, all the ups and downs of your life. To see if things were worth the hardship you all went through over the past 12 months.

Me, despite my ups and downs, I wouldn't take it back for the world. Every bad experience is meant to toughen us up, make us think clearer and learn from past mistakes. Which I have.

I managed to have a rocky yet good year. Managed to sort out a few things in my own life that needed sorting and to top it off, I've been basically more happier than I ever been.

So I wish you all a happy and healthy New Year and to deliver the first day message of this year:

You have the power to seize your own destiny. You have the power to express yourself through your various hobbies and arts. You have the power to either have a lifetime of peace and quiet or take a risky adventure, where the reward outweighs said risk. The possibilities are endless. Go outside, have some fun and above all else, continue being you.

Love all of you, for supporting me in your own way so far. For once I look forward to the future.